finally... is spoke out wat i wanna tell them d ... no matter wat happen next, i wont regret for what i had done cos tat's wat i wn to do sinc ei recover the problem...
wat i wanna say is tat the fault is not on u al , jus tat v hav different principle of life...so let the god to decide whether can continue our friendship onot !! mayb i need time to think bout it ..
anyway ... forgive me for everything that might hurt u al ... i'm reali sory
why? can u al tell why this happen to me again ?? is ti my own problem ? why this keep happening on me !!! suddenly i feel tat i'm al alone in here , no frens !!
maybe part of tis is my problem bt i ad give u al the 2nd chance and allow myself to reknow u al .. yet , it happen again and tis time i'm terriblely mad on tat !! u think i'm stupid and like an idiot tat can be play like tat de ma?? no u al are wrong !!!
so pls don regret for wat u had did and tat would b a vry "gd" memory for me in here !!!
i'm damn tired toward the lifestyle tat i'm having nw!! i was wondering whether i am matured enough to handle things !! seems like my brain is not functioning well at this moment !! am i so stupid enough to choose the wrong pathway of mine wo???
actually wat's bodering me?? i dunno whether to write it out onot cos v'll stil b in here 2gether for less than half year de !! if i chose 2 do tat than i might b 2 cruel, if i'm not doing so, me myself 'll b suffering fr tat !! wat am i suppose 2 do ?who can tell me le?
it's a truth tat i cant choose my fren, they come 2 u actually! any of my fren nw, i din chose them , my destiny had chosen them 2 bcom my fren ... so, i cant blame who for wat had happen yet wat can i do is tat i can onli try to do my best toward wat i faced!!
sometimes i was wondering tat would tat b a stupid thing tat nw in the age of mine, stil having problems wit frens!! so silly !! still need some advice fr other ppl, then it would b a shame 2 me !! at lease me myself think like tat de!!!
i wanna tell the world wat i think and wat i feel bt there seems to b a huge invisible wall blocking me fr the outer world!!
here is a word tat i agree at this moment which is tat i totally agree with a fren of mine : v, al together here is fr all different world !!!
nw, in here, facing the brand new semester 2, i wanna ask myself tat am i going to repeat wat i had done in the sem 1 or not... Or else wat should i do in tis semester?? i dunno !! mayb keep studying cos al my senior say tat sem 2 is harder than sem 1 much more... does tat mean tat i'll hav no more space for myself?? hopefully not !!
talking bout frens, aft the incident, i found out tat it's almost impossible to find the friendship tat i own tis b4... i cant find it right nw! mayb some of them might dissapointed wif me bt tat's hw i face it!! i wanna tel them tat if u dunno anything bout me then pls stop al ur though bout me !! me is me, not other... getting 2gether here is our fate and the matter is hw we face it!! mayb u al think tat i had change bt b4 tat pls think wat u al hav done...tat's wat i wanna say! b4 tis i was wondering tat m i suppose 2 tell u al, bt right nw i had decided 2 write it down in my blog, if u al had red it, then mayb u'll understand.. if u al don hav d opportunity 2 read it, then tat's mean tis would b the secret btwen us la ...
new symbolic wat? new semester? new frens? o new life style? let the God to decide it 4 me.. later v'll see de la !!
Ha! back in taiping for three days d ..yt i feel like it's never been enough for me . I dunoo why bt since I go 2 malacca, tis is my 2nd times back to taiping ... others for 3 o 4 times d !! does tat mean i'm not having home sick? NO!! of course nt, i miss my home town and al my frenz out there, juz tat i din express it out only!! I reali hope tat the time will freeze for me, juz to let me enjoy more time in taiping and together with my family ... yt it's impossible de!!
I knew tat tis few days won't b enough for me ...I wan my sisters to kno, if they saw tis blog, tat i'm so sorry for yesterday... I din mean it and I do appreciate wat u al had done for me !! reali sory !!!
