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无力
有些人有些事
不管如何改变观点
不对盘始终是不对盘
即使是朋友
不过，究竟人家当不当我是朋友那又是另外一回事
我无力去继续纠结
我累了
我不是个可以带着假面具过活的人
有些话，虽然丑
我宁愿说的白一点
也不愿在背后说三道四
光明磊落是我面对生活的态度
只希望我的真不会被不对盘的人事物给磨蚀掉
但愿我还可以抱持一份赤子之心去面对生活
说到这，还真想辞掉原本就想要推掉的工作
真的没有必要为了这无谓的东西而伤脑筋
所谓人生苦短，何苦为难自己呢？
突然想念起大学一起苦拼AIESEC业绩的战友们
想念我们为了共同目标而努力
即使意见不合依然可以公私分明
工作不带情绪
不会给予脸色给他人
坦率地面对彼此
没有说谁高谁低
没有尔虞我诈、没有心机心计
我想，真正工作的社会是不会有这些现象的
就把这些美好的回忆紧紧地锁在心头
好让在我绝望的时候，依然可以点燃那微微的曙光
不管如何改变观点
不对盘始终是不对盘
即使是朋友
不过，究竟人家当不当我是朋友那又是另外一回事
我无力去继续纠结
我累了
我不是个可以带着假面具过活的人
有些话，虽然丑
我宁愿说的白一点
也不愿在背后说三道四
光明磊落是我面对生活的态度
只希望我的真不会被不对盘的人事物给磨蚀掉
但愿我还可以抱持一份赤子之心去面对生活
说到这，还真想辞掉原本就想要推掉的工作
真的没有必要为了这无谓的东西而伤脑筋
所谓人生苦短，何苦为难自己呢？
突然想念起大学一起苦拼AIESEC业绩的战友们
想念我们为了共同目标而努力
即使意见不合依然可以公私分明
工作不带情绪
不会给予脸色给他人
坦率地面对彼此
没有说谁高谁低
没有尔虞我诈、没有心机心计
我想，真正工作的社会是不会有这些现象的
就把这些美好的回忆紧紧地锁在心头
好让在我绝望的时候，依然可以点燃那微微的曙光
文字心情|过境
拿起了虚拟中的笔
在这虚拟的纸张上犹豫了半天
想动笔写些文字
为这部落格增添一些生气
却没有什么概念要写些什么
前几篇的文章
显现了一片片的低迷阴霾
虽然现在的我不能说完全走出低迷的阴霾
但也不能说我依然被困住
当我不是一个人的时候
我可以轻易地把焦点放在别人身上
而让自己享受当下那快乐的情绪
不过当我回到一个人的宿舍时
我发现我很像一架机器
千篇一律地完成每天的生活条律
是生活上少了什么调剂品吗？
还是我一个人的生活有点是空虚、孤独吗？
我以为我习惯了一个人的生活
毕竟我是如此的享受着一个人的空间
还有那自由自在毫无牵挂的感觉
低迷了一个月
这个月我不想再情绪低落了
虽然说我还无法控制自己的情绪起伏
但我可以选择勇敢地面对它
纵然独自面对坦荡荡的情绪并不容易
我依然需要坚强地反抗它一次次的抨击
生活上的考验不是我的敌人
而是我的对手
只有战胜了它
我才会拥有晋级的能力
去面对未来生活上更加巨大的挑战
现在的我需要切切实实的文字来提醒自己
提醒自己说我还是有能力跨越这道坎
就让我沉醉在文字中
再让文字把我敲醒吧！
Stupidity
Haizzzz.. my stupidity causes me to delete one of my post.
Somemore is a post that I personally think that it is well written!!!!!!
Anyone has any idea on how to retrieve back the deleted post?
How can I be so careless and stupid lahhh??
Ishh... This stupidity is seriously cannot be forgive! >_<
Hate it Hate it Hate it!!!
Somemore is a post that I personally think that it is well written!!!!!!
Anyone has any idea on how to retrieve back the deleted post?
How can I be so careless and stupid lahhh??
Ishh... This stupidity is seriously cannot be forgive! >_<
Hate it Hate it Hate it!!!
Release anger
Just wanna released out my anger in a proper way.
My day sort of been ruined.
It's actually a small matter but the way the person handle it actually making it become worse.
Not to mention on his attitude in talking to us
Not to mention on the method he choose to deal with his own stress and feeling
I do not want to bad mouth about people in my own blog
but I seriously think that he should really think and reflect on his own actions.
It's okay to feel stress and to feel frustrated.
Everyone in the room feel the same
But please don't release it out and put it on us.
We don't deserve to receive all that.
I was sort of pissed-off and I decided to voice it out.
If you are pissed, never mind, but please don't stop others from continuing your stuff.
But guys, guess what happened?
I was been ASKED to keep my mouth shut and not to say anything.
I felt even worse, I was totally been pissed-off.
I posted on my status, just to release out my anger without mentioned anyone in particular.
I think I do have the right to post anything I want as long as I did not violate anyone's privacy
Guess what happened again?
He translated my status into English and posted it in our class group by saying some bad word.
I dunno what shall I say about that but I think I was not wrong, maybe I might not be right 100%, I admit that.
Just that I still believe I have the freedom to do things that I want as long as it does not violate anyone's right.
Anger management anger management... >_<
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My day sort of been ruined.
It's actually a small matter but the way the person handle it actually making it become worse.
Not to mention on his attitude in talking to us
Not to mention on the method he choose to deal with his own stress and feeling
I do not want to bad mouth about people in my own blog
but I seriously think that he should really think and reflect on his own actions.
It's okay to feel stress and to feel frustrated.
Everyone in the room feel the same
But please don't release it out and put it on us.
We don't deserve to receive all that.
I was sort of pissed-off and I decided to voice it out.
If you are pissed, never mind, but please don't stop others from continuing your stuff.
But guys, guess what happened?
I was been ASKED to keep my mouth shut and not to say anything.
I felt even worse, I was totally been pissed-off.
I posted on my status, just to release out my anger without mentioned anyone in particular.
I think I do have the right to post anything I want as long as I did not violate anyone's privacy
Guess what happened again?
He translated my status into English and posted it in our class group by saying some bad word.
I dunno what shall I say about that but I think I was not wrong, maybe I might not be right 100%, I admit that.
Just that I still believe I have the freedom to do things that I want as long as it does not violate anyone's right.
Anger management anger management... >_<
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人生无常
人生无常
最近的我体会很多
我们永远不知道下一刻会发生什么事
这一刻是晴天，下一刻可以是刮大风下大雨
前一刻还活蹦乱跳的，下一刻可以全然无力
外公的事件让我想起了《天天好天》里，
颜江翰说的：“父母只能看着我们的前半生，而我们只能看着父母的后半生”
这是很感伤的一句话但却无比的真实
父母可以养活几个孩子甚至十多个孩子
但到后来有多少孩子是会回头看看父母需不需要他们呢?
孩子的观念不外乎是我已经长大了、我有我的生活
过后开始嫌弃父母行动不便、父母的唠叨、父母的过于节省等等
其实这一切我看在眼里
我的心是很酸的
我不知道未来的我会如何去面对类似的情况
我不知道我的理智可不可以驾驭我的情绪
我不希望我崩溃在年迈的父母面前
我无法想象未来的我会如何面对父母的生老病死
当我看到星洲副刊的文章
尤其是关于遗憾父母的相关文字时
我会忍不住鼻头酸涩、雾水迷漫双眼
所以
我很认真的在学习如何当一个孝顺的孩子
我很认真的不去跟父母起争执
我很认真的训练自己的忍耐力跟EQ
为的是让我们一起开开心心，不去想不去吵
很珍惜的度过每一天
树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不待
这句话很早很早就已经牢牢地烙在我脑海
我并不了不起，我只是一个平凡的人
我不期望自己会有多大多大的成就
我只是想在我可以的时候
陪陪我的父母跟家人
其他的东西就随缘吧~
几乎烟灰魂散的情谊
你说如果
一段友情走到那种见面不懂要说什么
上网看到，也不会过问对方
跟不会关注对方的时候
我该为这段友情下什么评论呢？
我曾经心痛、愤怒、绝望
但此时此刻
我想为曾经存在过的情谊哀悼
或许我做人真的很失败
过往的多段友情都无法长存
我曾经以为这会是一段长存的友谊
毕竟大家同窗4年有多
曾经以为大家中只剩我和你时
我们会更为融洽
偏偏事实并非如此
我介意的是
原来我在你心目中，或许比普通朋友还普通
近几年来，相处时，若非我主动，否则我们之间就像处于冰点
陌生、尴尬、客气
这些不该有的全都出现了
介意的是
你把我好像当成了空气
回来了，也不通知一声
若非我姐告诉我，我不会知道
其实我一直都在等
等你发现其实我已经处于这敏感的地带
再多一点点，我就会崩溃
可是等了又等
始终等不到你的行动来告诉我说
“其实一切都是我多心了，那是根本没有的事”
敢相信你连我曾经崩溃、几乎想结束这情谊的事情
都一无所知
等着等着，
我的心也等到灰了、麻木了
我也几乎忘了这回事了
若非今天看到你很活跃的在网上
我不会被勾起这莫名的情绪
朋友们，不好意思
请容许我发泄一下吧！
容许我为这段几乎烟灰魂散的情谊做下记号
纪念我曾经心痛的片刻
人是先入为主的，既然我已认定她的态度，就很难更改得了
有没有人可以告诉我，其实这只是一个虚幻的情节
让我们回到有难同当、有福同享的片刻呢?
期待着..
一段友情走到那种见面不懂要说什么
上网看到，也不会过问对方
跟不会关注对方的时候
我该为这段友情下什么评论呢？
我曾经心痛、愤怒、绝望
但此时此刻
我想为曾经存在过的情谊哀悼
或许我做人真的很失败
过往的多段友情都无法长存
我曾经以为这会是一段长存的友谊
毕竟大家同窗4年有多
曾经以为大家中只剩我和你时
我们会更为融洽
偏偏事实并非如此
我介意的是
原来我在你心目中，或许比普通朋友还普通
近几年来，相处时，若非我主动，否则我们之间就像处于冰点
陌生、尴尬、客气
这些不该有的全都出现了
介意的是
你把我好像当成了空气
回来了，也不通知一声
若非我姐告诉我，我不会知道
其实我一直都在等
等你发现其实我已经处于这敏感的地带
再多一点点，我就会崩溃
可是等了又等
始终等不到你的行动来告诉我说
“其实一切都是我多心了，那是根本没有的事”
敢相信你连我曾经崩溃、几乎想结束这情谊的事情
都一无所知
等着等着，
我的心也等到灰了、麻木了
我也几乎忘了这回事了
若非今天看到你很活跃的在网上
我不会被勾起这莫名的情绪
朋友们，不好意思
请容许我发泄一下吧！
容许我为这段几乎烟灰魂散的情谊做下记号
纪念我曾经心痛的片刻
人是先入为主的，既然我已认定她的态度，就很难更改得了
有没有人可以告诉我，其实这只是一个虚幻的情节
让我们回到有难同当、有福同享的片刻呢?
期待着..
Imbalanced me
It's been the Holidays that I waited for so long..
While taking some break time, I discover something within myself..
I notice that I started to become imbalance.
Imbalance in term of everything..
I am not as healthy as before, easily fall sick and get tired..
I am not as rational as before, emotion comes and goes easily..
I am not as steady as before, I doubt myself more and more frequent recently..
When I look at my coursemates, some of them are getting closer and closer..
Meanwhile I felt that I been so far away from them.
I neither wanna talk nor think about why it happen..
This make me reflect back on the Friendship issue I brought last time..
Friend,
What make a friend?
How people can be good friends?
Why people willing to spend time, effort, and energy on people that they call friend but not to the others?
Where can find those that are "gam" to be friends?
Who are those that can be consider friends and what differentiate them from others?
When can these friendship last for long?
For me,
Relationship, either friendship or romantic kind of relationship,
is fragile, very fragile..
X can be friend with B when problem 1 occur
X can be friend with C or D when problem 2,3 occur but no longer friend B..
Simple problems might kill the relationship..
A simple misunderstanding will cause a big trouble in the relationship..
Since it is so fragile, should we give more time on it?
But the matter is HOW?
Every single individual in this world have their own thinking and way of doing things.
Your way might match with individual A,B,C,D but not with X,Y,Z
Aren't it been very tiring if to match all by altering our own style?
As stated in my own profile there,
I describe myself as a rational and radical person..
Yes, indeed, I am still a rational and radical person..
I been tired of adjusting
I been tired of waiting
I been tired of hoping other to understand me
I been tired of seeing all those easy changed world
YET
This is the reality world
This is what happen in real life
This is what we call as LIFE
This post gonna be a real long one..
Am trying very hard to release all my imbalance emotions..
If I got the time, I want to get close to everyone that I wish to..
If I got the patient, I want to listen to all friends problem..
If I got the passion, I want to change all the bad and negative thinking among friends..
The matter is, I don't have all that..
Who don't wish to have a lot of friends and people care for them?
Who don't wish to get people listen to them?
I didn't mention my problems always doesn't mean I don't have problem..
It doesn't means that I don't need time from other to listen to me..
It doesn't means that I been so selfish that I care so little about others..
Yet, I am glad I have a bunch of best pals with me..
Thanks again to you guys!
When I think of you all, I felt much better and balanced back!
This holiday would be a right timing for me to balance up all things and get back to the usual me again!
p/s: This post is just a sharing of emotion and thought, not referring to any single object nor people ^^
While taking some break time, I discover something within myself..
I notice that I started to become imbalance.
Imbalance in term of everything..
I am not as healthy as before, easily fall sick and get tired..
I am not as rational as before, emotion comes and goes easily..
I am not as steady as before, I doubt myself more and more frequent recently..
When I look at my coursemates, some of them are getting closer and closer..
Meanwhile I felt that I been so far away from them.
I neither wanna talk nor think about why it happen..
This make me reflect back on the Friendship issue I brought last time..
Friend,
What make a friend?
How people can be good friends?
Why people willing to spend time, effort, and energy on people that they call friend but not to the others?
Where can find those that are "gam" to be friends?
Who are those that can be consider friends and what differentiate them from others?
When can these friendship last for long?
For me,
Relationship, either friendship or romantic kind of relationship,
is fragile, very fragile..
X can be friend with B when problem 1 occur
X can be friend with C or D when problem 2,3 occur but no longer friend B..
Simple problems might kill the relationship..
A simple misunderstanding will cause a big trouble in the relationship..
Since it is so fragile, should we give more time on it?
But the matter is HOW?
Every single individual in this world have their own thinking and way of doing things.
Your way might match with individual A,B,C,D but not with X,Y,Z
Aren't it been very tiring if to match all by altering our own style?
As stated in my own profile there,
I describe myself as a rational and radical person..
Yes, indeed, I am still a rational and radical person..
I been tired of adjusting
I been tired of waiting
I been tired of hoping other to understand me
I been tired of seeing all those easy changed world
YET
This is the reality world
This is what happen in real life
This is what we call as LIFE
This post gonna be a real long one..
Am trying very hard to release all my imbalance emotions..
If I got the time, I want to get close to everyone that I wish to..
If I got the patient, I want to listen to all friends problem..
If I got the passion, I want to change all the bad and negative thinking among friends..
The matter is, I don't have all that..
Who don't wish to have a lot of friends and people care for them?
Who don't wish to get people listen to them?
I didn't mention my problems always doesn't mean I don't have problem..
It doesn't means that I don't need time from other to listen to me..
It doesn't means that I been so selfish that I care so little about others..
Yet, I am glad I have a bunch of best pals with me..
Thanks again to you guys!
When I think of you all, I felt much better and balanced back!
This holiday would be a right timing for me to balance up all things and get back to the usual me again!
p/s: This post is just a sharing of emotion and thought, not referring to any single object nor people ^^
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