定下心来..

事到如今，已经没有什么东西好顾虑的了

应该做的是定下心来

好好想想自己可以做些什么

我每次都很喜欢鼓励别人

很喜欢说这句话

“如果你自己都不相信自己，那别人凭什么相信你呢”

向来的我都是自信的，

我应该重新得看看自己的表现

我应该相信自己的..

我应该定下心来的..

Clear direction needed..

I think I need a very clear direction.

I need to know what is my strengths and weaknesses.

I need to know the qualities of mine.

I need to know the expectations.

I need all that before I proceed

I just cannot see a very clear view of it

I know I'm not that good

I am still in this self-doubting stage..

Must clear this off a.s.a.p

Feeling stressSSsSsSssssSsSsSs....

=(

打电话

刚收到信息说可以免费打电话时

有股冲动想打电话给人

打了回家，没人听

打了给一个朋友，也没能通

打了给我的“上司”交待东西，谁知他没空听电话

翻了翻电话簿

居然可怜到没有一个人我可以打电话去的

Psykid，我怕大家都很忙

怕烦到大家，不敢打

我好可悲哦~~

爱情专家？？

不懂为何

最近的我好像变成了爱情专家

身边好多朋友都陷入桃花泥里了

而我好巧的都在她们身边

不知不觉中就成为给予意见及看法的人

好笑的是，本小姐毫无实践经验可谈

贸贸然成了别人的爱情军师不懂会不会害了她们呢？？

=P

Thoughts..

Recently, I'm quite busy and quite free

Busy in the sense of the pack schedule of my study + AIESEC works

Free in the sense of my mind..

Whenever I have time, I used it just to play game, relax and things that I shouldn't pay attention on

Perhaps I'm too busy that whenever I have free time, I'll unconsciously ignored all the burdens and stuff

Maybe this is a way of releasing my stress?

Maybe this is one of the way for escaping?

Quite a lot of things happen in this month where I never expect it to happen,

One of the most unexpected is I'm going exchange

I'm now the VP elect of AIESEC

I'm facing problems with friend,

I'm facing too calm emotion during exam,

I'm too passive in term of making effort in the friendship that crack a little

These are the thing that I faced, I dunno why,

But I just cope it like that.

It is like I'm too ok with it

but I know that I'm not.

Talking about exchange,

there are things that I don't know and this would be my 1st time to go abroad

Besides wanted to be independent and to see the world,

Inside me, there is a corner in my heart that covered by fear..

Talking about taking up the responsibility of VP,

I'm scared whether I'm really that tough and strong to be the leader

I'm scared about my performances through out the term

I'm scared about it might affect my study

I wanna remain my results in the range that I wish it would be

Talking about the friendship problems,

I'm too passive to take action anymore

I'm tired of it already

I'm too busy to spend time to think about the problems

I'm afraid that if actions that I took will affect it even worst

There are lots of thing that happen

but I still having no clear direction on how to overcome it

Yet I'm too calm..

It's like these are things that not related to me..

I don't know what happen to me indeed.

Just hope that things will run smoothly as I wish it to happen.