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deCiSion...

after thinking for a while and listening to all my friends advice, finally i came up with the decision. i plan to do that in my way. as G say, when we are mad about something, only devil will be happy. i cannot control myself from not thinking about it. but i can try. why making myself suffer within all this. when i manage to do the two F, then I'll be free of this thing. i think now i can start trying, try to forgive and forget. start to think from her perspective and stop blamming her but look into myself. I'll still treat her as friend, even she might not want me to do that. If so, that is her part of problem already, as long as i'm comfort with what i'm doing, and as long as i'm not hurting people and myself in purpose.

by the way, thk G, SL and MW, you all did help me in this situation...

the trUth!!!

finally i kno the truth...

actually when i been told about tat, i was like strike by lighting..
i nvr have the intention to do that but she appear like turning all my meaning the other way round...

especially bout the dekan thing...
i can swear that i juz ask her as it is juz a normal chit-chat topic..
it's reali a "walau" for that lo...

when i thk of like wanna settle the thing, she is busy..
and when she is kind of free, then i'm busy...
for me, she is a bit self-centred.. but maybe so do me..
when two self-centred people meet, this is the consequences...
what to do??

now can only wait lo.. wait until she is free lo...
although that time i might not have time for it, but stil need to settle this things down...
although it's quite impossible for me, but to avoid her from misunderstanding anymore, this is the only way...

cannot say she is selfish when i was told that she claimed that i'm selfish also...
i dunno what's my feeling right now because i'm really blank!!!

just hoping that this thing will end soon..
only two outcome i'll get..
either be friend or not be friend..

失去方向感的我~~~

不懂为什么，感觉上，最近的我好像失去了方向感···

不管做什么都好，好像都不是我来的，就像失去了灵魂似的···

回到了房间，好像都不懂要做什么似的！

是忙到麻木了吗？

不懂···

是我没有把灵魂带回来吗？

不懂···

心在哪里？

神在哪里？

我不断的寻找着，因为我不想因为这样而失去自我···

最近，朋友不懂怎么了，好像都遇到问题··

他们遇到问题时，却不再向我提出了，反而渐渐的远离···

曾经，她跟我朋友说过， “你的朋友都在伤害我！！”

其实，这句话重重地伤害了我，

我不懂我哪里伤害了她， 也想不通，因为我们之间的交际已经越来越少了··

当一个人没有方向感时，就像是整个天地只剩下自己一个人了！！

慌张，恐惧，害怕···

就在这时候，爸爸像懂得我的困境似的，打了一通电话给我··

但了将近一个半小时， 也让我对困扰我的问题，有了比较明确的看法了··

但，我始终没将朋友之间的问题告诉了爸爸··

因为我知道这是我的人生，所以不可能要爸爸为我解决所有的的问题的！

无论如何，谢谢你，DADDY!!!