I neglected lots of things

I been so busy recently, that I just realized that I neglected a lot of things around me.
I been so used to people care about me, until I take it for granted

I neglected a lot of things around me..
Friends, Coursemates, Family

I didn't contact with the old bunch of best pals of mine.
I been missing them soOOoOoO much that I even think of booking flight ticket to find them when the air asia promotions are ON that time..
In the end, it is just a thought, I never have the chance to execute it out..

I didn't manage to know what happen among my coursemates,
There's a lot of things happen recently but I din manage to follow all.
I felt so BAD as in I'm not caring for all my sisters and brothers.. 0(->.<-)0

For my family, I felt even SORRY and BAD!
I can't even call back frequently to them
Normally, when I am free that time, it's already midnight or near midnight..
By that time, my Dad, Mom, and younger sister already slept
For elder sister, she almost sleep that time and I don't wish to disturb her though..
So, I can only call back around once a week
I felt so bad of being such a BAD daughter and sister..


I neglected some of my assignments as well..
There are bunch of assignments that awaiting me..
What I been doing all these while is that I think of the concept and frame work for that particular assignment
Hopefully that I can be productive in term of wording and essaying
I hope I can be efficient in both of my STUDY but not only AIESEC work..

I should really re-set my priority as in I din wish to see that my results drop just because of AIESEC work.
It is not What I been aiming all this while,
I have my target to reach and I need to maintain it so that I can get what I want at the end of the day..

Promising myself to re-set the priority as in I will make it to the fullest while enjoying the whole process =)

For my friends, coursemates and Family,
If you see this, please forgive me and give me some time to get everything done and I promise you that
I'LL BE BACK!!
Cheerful and optimistic EnWan will be back soon!!! =)

If it is not, kindly remind me on the promise that I made.
So that I'll been constantly remind on this!!

人生

最近真的发生太多太多事情了

昨天，我们学校有位学弟选择自尽了

刚开始我没想到会是跟我们有关系的人

只是很纯粹的散播这个消息

可是当我晚上回到房间

打开FB，看到的却是朋友们伤心的回应

原来，

原来他是我朋友的学弟，

事情发生的前一两天他们还一起努力为饥饿30奋斗

当下的我不知道应该如何反应

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人生的蓝图是由我们一笔一划去勾出来的

而为什么？

为什么会有人决定那么草率的结束

人生是短暂的

人生是充满了挑战的

人生使我们成长

人生让我们学会跌倒时哭泣

人生让我们学会哭泣后应该勇敢的站起来

人生是脆弱的

最近发生的事情，

让我更加地珍惜我所拥有的一切

朋友

家人

系友

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文章的最后，

愿忠祺安息

愿你在新的世界里寻回遗失的平静

阿弥陀佛，愿仙师保佑

重新出发

我决定了！

我不是这么容易给人家摆布的人

我不会这么容易妥协的

放长双眼看下去吧！

我没有这么傻，

因为你一个人，让我情绪失控

怒气冲天

我一定可以把你解决掉的！！

看下去吧~

Motivation

I should have motivate myself to start move..
I should have motivate myself to belief
I should have motivate myself to trust
I should have motivate myself to be happy
I should have motivate myself to think positively

I should, I should have did that..
But I am not doing it at all..
Haiz, what happen to me?
I dunno =(

你知道吗？

你知道吗？

我也是普通人

我也只是一个正在学习的人

我也不过是施行着我应该做的事

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你知道吗？

你不懂的就不要乱以为

你不懂就不要耍脾气

你不懂就不要看轻我

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你知道吗？

每个人都有脾气的

每个人都有自己的底线的

不要因为我一而再再而三的让步就以为你可以欺负我

我大不了使出最狠的一招

对我来说，

没什么的

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你知道吗？

每个人都有缺点的

不要以为你看得到我的缺点就拼命地踩

不要以为你大过我就等于我需要服从你

在这个世界上没有这回事的

对，

我应该尊敬年老的人

可是你有这资格吗？

问问你自己吧！

在我们要求别人尊重自己前，看看自己有没有值得让人尊重的那一点吧！

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抱歉，这是我一直以来很想发泄的情绪

我想自己应该好好的反省，但反省之前我想为自己做最后一次的反攻...

情绪哦情绪~

你何时才甘愿离我远去？？

A Better Time Management

It's around one month since my last update already!

Gosh, what I can say is that this would be the most busy month I had before...
I don't have any other time left for myself and what I can say about my life for the past one month is "HECTIC"
I really feel that I should have much better time management.

Not saying that I'm not having a nice one now,
Just that I felt that too much on both study and AIESEC work and there isn't any left for my personal space.

Yesterday, I decided to go to my sister house.
Just feel that wanna take a break from UKM..
Having a break in here really make me feel much better.
Because, at least I don't have to worry things that I need to worry on yet.

Kinda of irresponsible kind of thinking
but
If I don't do this, I think I will really turn into a very unhealthy EnWan..

There is much more for me to learn
learn how to coordinate with people
learn how to delegate jobs
learn how to get along with different people
learn how to control my stress and emotion
learn how to handle things within a short while

It's really been a stressful month for me,
There isn't any time for me to stop down and release my tension
There isn't any time for me to stop down and cry either

Family problems happened but I can't being influence by that
Luckily I have a very strong Dad, and Mum and sisters
They understand how my stand and they tried their very hard for me not to worry on them.
But sometimes, I felt that I am really a very bad daughter and sister.
I don't have time to call back home
I don't have time to care about my sister while she was sick

Felt so bad..
I wanted to get rid of my troublesome emotion as well as have a better time management
Can I make it?

忙里偷闲

忙

这个字，十足的形容了我这两个月的生活

难得昨天有机会去发泄发泄

难得有机会去唱 K

发泄完了，有事时候面对现实了

接下来的日子应该会更加地忙碌

而我，

应该反省一下自己的时间管理

好让自己有多点机会忙里偷闲

Busy Month!!

I thought that I'm able to share few of my thought regarding culture difference of both Malaysia and Taiwan..
But sorry to say, I'm too busy for this few days, almost none of the day I was free de..

Every night with 6 hours sleep, rushing to classes, meetings, planning stuff and dealing with officers..
What a GREAT start for the semester!

Hopefully can get slim down back and I gain almost 5kg while in Taiwan! ><
That's a lot! OMG, I cant image what I eat until can grow 5kg within 2 months!!

Anyhow, it's going to be a long time for me to update the blog..
Keep on busying ><