家。。。

家。。。对我很重要的家，没有了你，我并不存在！！

我记得有朋友问过我，对婚姻的看法，而我的看法是我不会踏入婚姻除非我真的有够格。。婚姻对我而言是神圣的，如果自己没有把我去经营一段婚姻，那为何要结婚呢？当时我的朋友很不了解我的看法，认为我太过认真了。。 哈！！也对啦！对于年龄不到二字头的我是没有什么资格发表这样的意见。。。

为何我会有如此的想法呢？我不懂，我知道家对我很重要，如果没有了我的家人，我无法相信我那接近一年在外的求学生活可以像现在一样。。我很早就了解到从我踏离家门的那一刻，我就开始了一个人的人生旅途。。没有别人，只有自己。。。可是家人就像是我的精神支柱，支柱着从未到为生活的我，那像温室里的小花的我！！在那个过程中我跌跌撞撞，可是家人们从未厌倦的一次又一次的鼓励我。。在那之前家人对我就很重要，经过那以后，他们在我心中的地位更稳固了！！没有人能动摇他们在我心中的地位的！！

在外可以靠朋友是没错，可是难道有问题是真的可以毫无保留的将心中的负担全盘托出吗？不！！朋友也有自己的负担，那对朋友太不公平了吧！可是家人却是你永远的“垃圾桶”，对你永远不离不弃的！！

所以，我爱你们！！我最最亲爱的家人们。。没有你们，我不会成长的那么快，也不会了解到很多东西。。。真得很谢谢你们！！

r3b0Rn...

aft all tat things ... i decide to hav a new life in tis brand new 2008!! no matter wat happen in the future, i'll kno how to handle it ad and ther's nothing tat can bother me anymore liao!!

new 2008 and new me!!

hw to face those problem, i dunno bt wat i kno is i'm no longer the same me liao... i hope i'll bcum more mature and handle things wit more caution...

i dun wan to talk about frenz anymore liao, juz let it be!! natural is the best !! i dun wan them to think of any of my problem and i oso dun wan me to think of their problem...

it's juz left bout 3 months and i'll b finishin my matric life, so let me enjoy the last few months here and do let me to hav a sweet memory here... tis is my onli matric time in my life and i dun wan to let anything tat can uglyfied my memory here...

so... god, pls complete my first wish of this year !!

fInaLLy

finally... is spoke out wat i wanna tell them d ... no matter wat happen next, i wont regret for what i had done cos tat's wat i wn to do sinc ei recover the problem...

wat i wanna say is tat the fault is not on u al , jus tat v hav different principle of life...so let the god to decide whether can continue our friendship onot !! mayb i need time to think bout it ..

anyway ... forgive me for everything that might hurt u al ... i'm reali sory

aGain

why? can u al tell why this happen to me again ?? is ti my own problem ? why this keep happening on me !!! suddenly i feel tat i'm al alone in here , no frens !!

maybe part of tis is my problem bt i ad give u al the 2nd chance and allow myself to reknow u al .. yet , it happen again and tis time i'm terriblely mad on tat !! u think i'm stupid and like an idiot tat can be play like tat de ma?? no u al are wrong !!!

so pls don regret for wat u had did and tat would b a vry "gd" memory for me in here !!!

Tiredness!!!!!!!

i'm damn tired toward the lifestyle tat i'm having nw!! i was wondering whether i am matured enough to handle things !! seems like my brain is not functioning well at this moment !! am i so stupid enough to choose the wrong pathway of mine wo???

actually wat's bodering me?? i dunno whether to write it out onot cos v'll stil b in here 2gether for less than half year de !! if i chose 2 do tat than i might b 2 cruel, if i'm not doing so, me myself 'll b suffering fr tat !! wat am i suppose 2 do ?who can tell me le?

it's a truth tat i cant choose my fren, they come 2 u actually! any of my fren nw, i din chose them , my destiny had chosen them 2 bcom my fren ... so, i cant blame who for wat had happen yet wat can i do is tat i can onli try to do my best toward wat i faced!!

sometimes i was wondering tat would tat b a stupid thing tat nw in the age of mine, stil having problems wit frens!! so silly !! still need some advice fr other ppl, then it would b a shame 2 me !! at lease me myself think like tat de!!!

i wanna tell the world wat i think and wat i feel bt there seems to b a huge invisible wall blocking me fr the outer world!!

here is a word tat i agree at this moment which is tat i totally agree with a fren of mine : v, al together here is fr all different world !!!

NeW!!!

nw, in here, facing the brand new semester 2, i wanna ask myself tat am i going to repeat wat i had done in the sem 1 or not... Or else wat should i do in tis semester?? i dunno !! mayb keep studying cos al my senior say tat sem 2 is harder than sem 1 much more... does tat mean tat i'll hav no more space for myself?? hopefully not !!

talking bout frens, aft the incident, i found out tat it's almost impossible to find the friendship tat i own tis b4... i cant find it right nw! mayb some of them might dissapointed wif me bt tat's hw i face it!! i wanna tel them tat if u dunno anything bout me then pls stop al ur though bout me !! me is me, not other... getting 2gether here is our fate and the matter is hw we face it!! mayb u al think tat i had change bt b4 tat pls think wat u al hav done...tat's wat i wanna say! b4 tis i was wondering tat m i suppose 2 tell u al, bt right nw i had decided 2 write it down in my blog, if u al had red it, then mayb u'll understand.. if u al don hav d opportunity 2 read it, then tat's mean tis would b the secret btwen us la ...

new symbolic wat? new semester? new frens? o new life style? let the God to decide it 4 me.. later v'll see de la !!

back in home

Ha! back in taiping for three days d ..yt i feel like it's never been enough for me . I dunoo why bt since I go 2 malacca, tis is my 2nd times back to taiping ... others for 3 o 4 times d !! does tat mean i'm not having home sick? NO!! of course nt, i miss my home town and al my frenz out there, juz tat i din express it out only!! I reali hope tat the time will freeze for me, juz to let me enjoy more time in taiping and together with my family ... yt it's impossible de!!

I knew tat tis few days won't b enough for me ...I wan my sisters to kno, if they saw tis blog, tat i'm so sorry for yesterday... I din mean it and I do appreciate wat u al had done for me !! reali sory !!!