Home..

I'm at home..
Love to be at home..
and yet I'm not always at home..

When I decided to take matriculation,
it started my own journey..
which away from home..'

I'm not the lucky person,
because the college or university that i get is far from my home..

Unlike those that staying near,
they can always going back home..

Me??
I can only go back home once a month
and only for about 2-3 days..

pity??
NO..
my sarawak friends even pity..
they cant even go back once a month..
but really once a while..

From this,
I realised that I'm not the worst..
so, I start not to blame..
but take this opportunity to learn more things..

Now, I'm at home..
home sweet home..
enjoying the peace and wondering environment at Taiping..

although soon, I'll be back to UKM
and supposedly not going back home until exam finish..
em.. this is really a good time for me to enjoy..
at least once last time before exam ma..

Taiping, I love to stay here..
things here are cheap,
foods are nice and cheap..
people here are nice and warm..
and of course,
my lovely Family members lo~~
muaks~~ :)

Decided...

Once decided, I won't look back
won't regret for my decision
won't feel sorry for anyone else

If really it appears that I make the wrong decision,
I won't blame myself for that but I'll take up the consequences..

So..
Friend, don't blame me for my decision..
It took me time to decide
and it seems like this is the best solution among all..
that suit both U and me..

朋友的定义~~

由始到今，我还在摸索着朋友的定义~~

我自认朋友不会少，可是真正走入我的世界的并不多~~

从小，我就羡慕姐姐可以有一个相识多年又了解她的好朋友~~

所以，我也很用心的去寻找属于我的好朋友~~

但，每每在我以为我找到的时候，就会发生些让我跌破眼镜的事~~

因为时间和距离上的关系，我很多段友情就这样没有了~~

现在，就算没有了距离和时间上的问题，

我和朋友之间还是有问题~~

我们的友情演变到真的比陌生人还要陌生~~~

算了吧！

我也不会再去勉强自己去继续这段友情了~~

一切都随缘了~~

当我狠下心要挽回的时候，

她的一举一动只会让我心灰意冷~~

好吧！既然你选择了以逃避的方式，

那我就成全你吧！

我想我以后都不会再理会她了吧！

这是我的方式~~

当朋友之间初现了问题的时候，

我曾经是过去解决，但她却……

既然她选择了一次又一次的逃避和糟蹋我的心思，

那代表着，她并不是我的朋友！！

因为，在我的定义里，朋友是不会一次又一次的伤害和糟蹋你的心思的~~

我已经给了她机会，让她选择，但她却以逃避来回应我~~

朋友，我没有多少时间陪你玩这种你逃我追的游戏~~

所以，再见啦！！

这是你希望的吧？

在你一次又一次的举动背后，是否隐藏着这个决定呢？

Seeking for true friendship~~

When I was in matriculation, I already wondering about this..
Now when I'm in Uni, still, I am thinking about this also..
I dare not say that I have plenty of bad experiences about friendship..
But from what I been through,
It makes me lost confidence on it..
I have plenty of friends, but those that able to enter my heart,
very few...
Not saying that I closed up myself but for me, friends are those who can understand you without saying another words..
I am now still seeking for true friendship..
althought I already lost the confidence and people around me are telling me the same thing..
I was wondering whether the friendship can last for how long??
How long can it stand??
Without quarrels?? With all the time and distand limit??
I was once being told by one of my friend's actions,
Friendship can end without a sign..
It can start without a sign and also end without a sign..
When it come to the end, both of us are like stranger to each other..
Not informing each other about the latest news of them,
Not wishing during new year or even birthday..
Or I shall say, it appears like we never know each other..
This is the sad part of the story..
and yet, I'll never give up on seeking true friendship..
No matter how long it can stand, I'll still put hope on it..
because no matter what,I did try my best on putting effort in it..

20岁的生日~~

20岁的生日了……

代表着我将永远告别十几岁的日子了……

20岁的生日过得有点混……

从星期四就开始庆祝了……

一直到星期六！！！

em……这次的生日我总共吃了5次的蛋糕，

其中有四次是不同时间吃的~~

天啊！难怪我会突然间肥去~~

要感谢陪我过生日的朋友们，

也要感谢没能陪我过但依然送上祝福的朋友……

还有感谢妈妈生我养我，还有爸爸的教诲让我比别人成长得更快~~

当然不会忘记亲爱的姐姐为我炮制的美味晚餐~~

20岁的生日正式的公布了我已经是成人了吗？

不，那还要等多一年，就是21岁时咯~~

不过有点想分享的~~

其实我同时间扮演了两个角色！！

在大学里，我是最小的~~

在我认识的朋友当中，我却是最大的~~

一时之间不能适应！！

我当老大当了十几年，来到这里却变成了小妹？？

哈哈，其实这很好啊！！

让我感受一下当最小的滋味吧~~