冲啊！！！

不知道为什么，突然之间有了很想冲的感觉~~

会不会太迟了呢？？

冲并不代表想拿到第一，只是不相信自己就这样被打败了~~

回想自己过去的种种，总觉得酱就放弃有点浪费……

可是，每每都提不起神来~~

好了，现在我终于有了股想冲的念头，可是我有的时间却越来越少了……

希望可以在这几天的时间内做最充分的冲刺，不让自己后悔！！

很想说：“我不是个追求完美的人，只是我希望自己能够做到最好”

尽力就好是我的座右铭吧！！

我不会强迫自己去达到某些要求，可是也不允许自己有半点的怠慢……

在这过去的几个月来，我似乎怠慢了许多，所以要好好的利用剩下的时间来弥补了……

自己加油吧！！

aM I mOtivated???

curious to know whether am i motivated??
suddenly I felt so motivated to study...
due to what i also dunno!!!

haha, but hopefully this late coming motivation can really bring me to the mood of study la!!
motivated to study,
motivated to try my best before surrender ma,
and also motivated to not being addicted to my laptop!!!

final is coming, really hope within these few days I can catch up what I miss during the pass few months..

tO alL mY frIenDs anD deAresT cOUrsemAtes: gAmBAtEh lO!!!

meMoRiEs....

Haiz... yesterday when i looked back all the photos me taken past few years, i found out that i really missed my friends ar..

actually i'm not a person that really like to take photo, the photos i had taken was really not much la.. i mean before enter UKM..
mostly is because i don't have a handphone with a camera and even though we have camera, it's the analog de..

when in form 4, finally we had the first ever digital camera in our house, but unfortunately, it is not that "hightech" that it is about 3 or 4 megapixel.. and it is reali heavy..
you can imagine the size of it de, it is almost the size of the normal analog camera..
SO, that means it make no different in our life..

the most photos i had taken is during the form 5.. i mean during secondary school...
and the worst is i always tumpang people camera and normally people will forget to give me the photo de.. so, quite cham de..

then is the time when i'm in matric..
that time lots of people got handphone which is with a at least 2.0 megapixel camera..
that make me took a bit more photo.. although is tumpang people camera also, but mostly can get back de la.. but still it is not enough..

there were too much that i wanted to remember, no matter is sweet memories or not..
i really missed all of them..
my friends, my roommates, my praticummates, my secondary classmates and even is NS company friends..

i had been through a lot, and all i have is just photo in my memory, but not the rigid one..
what i afraid is someday i might not able to remember all this already..

it is a sad thing to say about..

when i look back all the photo i had taken, i really missed all that..

missed the time we spend together in Matric, the time we chatting all around, the time we go all around taiping in jomin's car, the time we spend in penang, the time we spend all together in B4.2.4, the time we spend together in H6P4, the time we spend in 1A4,2A1,3A1, 4Sc1 and 5Sc1... and much more..

but still.. now i will appreciate what i have now..
i'll try to take more picture as my rigid memory, p/s: who knows i might get amnesia.. >.< appreciate the time, roommate, coursemates, collegemates and also friends in UKM la.. this will make sure that when i start working that time, the same things won't happen for twice lo..

i really missed you all...

-JM, PY, GK, WL, SB

-kem jiwa murni

- H6P4

-B4.2.4

-SMJK Hua Lian 2002-2006

-CY,MS

and much more..

tiREdnEsSsS...

wHaT hApPeneD tHis f3w dAys makE mE fE3L eXhaUstED aRH!!!!

tHe sTatIstIC AsSiGnment aNd aLsO tHE cOgnItIvE pSycHolOgy eXpeRiMEnt aLmOsT dRivE mE cRazY !!! @.@

fOr ThIS fEw dAys I dOn eVen hAv3 eNougH tImE tO sLe3p..

3-4 hOuRs pEr dAyS..

pLuS nOw iS cRitiCal pEriOd tIm3...

thIs MaKe tHingS b3cOme eVeN wOrSt...

I'm rEaLly V3Ry tIrED aLrEadY..

fiNaL iS cOmIng bUt I hAveN EveN toUCh tHe BoOks...

sO, I rEaLLy hOpE tHaT tHingS wiLL TurN InTo tHe BrIGht sId3..

I dOn'T EveN kNow hOw lOng I cAn sTaY wItH tHis tErRiBle lAcKing oF sL33p..

sO, dO pRaY fOr m3 fOr nOt faiNteD iN tHE mIDdl3 oF tH3 cLasS oR iN tH3 midDL3 Of tH3 rOaD lA...

bz season...

DIn UpDate thIs BlOg cOs rECently I aM qUitE buSy ar!!!

stArT fRom 14th Mac, I hAv 3 diNner folLowiNg eacH..

1st is AmiN mInG Hua stEamBoat ceLEbrAtion aT sErdAng...

2nd is aMin ABADI at DECTAR..

3rd is Pr diNNer Nite at HoteL eQ..

sO, u cAn imAgiNE hW maNy KG I gAin !!

haHA!!

sO, Nw neEd to reDUce weIgHt adY lO...

bY tHe wAy, I sHall Post sOme pIc dE...

I lIke thIs Pic Vry Much..

coOL AmIn FSsK gIRls...

AbadI nIt3.. me AnD mEI Wen...

tHis Is aFter cOmiNg baCk fRom eQ..

jInGwEn and mE.. aT eQ

deCiSion...

after thinking for a while and listening to all my friends advice, finally i came up with the decision. i plan to do that in my way. as G say, when we are mad about something, only devil will be happy. i cannot control myself from not thinking about it. but i can try. why making myself suffer within all this. when i manage to do the two F, then I'll be free of this thing. i think now i can start trying, try to forgive and forget. start to think from her perspective and stop blamming her but look into myself. I'll still treat her as friend, even she might not want me to do that. If so, that is her part of problem already, as long as i'm comfort with what i'm doing, and as long as i'm not hurting people and myself in purpose.

by the way, thk G, SL and MW, you all did help me in this situation...

the trUth!!!

finally i kno the truth...

actually when i been told about tat, i was like strike by lighting..
i nvr have the intention to do that but she appear like turning all my meaning the other way round...

especially bout the dekan thing...
i can swear that i juz ask her as it is juz a normal chit-chat topic..
it's reali a "walau" for that lo...

when i thk of like wanna settle the thing, she is busy..
and when she is kind of free, then i'm busy...
for me, she is a bit self-centred.. but maybe so do me..
when two self-centred people meet, this is the consequences...
what to do??

now can only wait lo.. wait until she is free lo...
although that time i might not have time for it, but stil need to settle this things down...
although it's quite impossible for me, but to avoid her from misunderstanding anymore, this is the only way...

cannot say she is selfish when i was told that she claimed that i'm selfish also...
i dunno what's my feeling right now because i'm really blank!!!

just hoping that this thing will end soon..
only two outcome i'll get..
either be friend or not be friend..

失去方向感的我~~~

不懂为什么，感觉上，最近的我好像失去了方向感···

不管做什么都好，好像都不是我来的，就像失去了灵魂似的···

回到了房间，好像都不懂要做什么似的！

是忙到麻木了吗？

不懂···

是我没有把灵魂带回来吗？

不懂···

心在哪里？

神在哪里？

我不断的寻找着，因为我不想因为这样而失去自我···

最近，朋友不懂怎么了，好像都遇到问题··

他们遇到问题时，却不再向我提出了，反而渐渐的远离···

曾经，她跟我朋友说过， “你的朋友都在伤害我！！”

其实，这句话重重地伤害了我，

我不懂我哪里伤害了她， 也想不通，因为我们之间的交际已经越来越少了··

当一个人没有方向感时，就像是整个天地只剩下自己一个人了！！

慌张，恐惧，害怕···

就在这时候，爸爸像懂得我的困境似的，打了一通电话给我··

但了将近一个半小时， 也让我对困扰我的问题，有了比较明确的看法了··

但，我始终没将朋友之间的问题告诉了爸爸··

因为我知道这是我的人生，所以不可能要爸爸为我解决所有的的问题的！

无论如何，谢谢你，DADDY!!!