changes in me...

I believe that me that you are looking now or knowing now is not the same as the me in the past..
Dare not say huge changes in me..
but I think I really change a lot la..

Changes are good, by the way..
I was once very hot tempter, impatient, rude
er.. although not much improvement
but at least the degree of each bad characteristic already decrease lo..

I'm still learning,
how to become a better person..
through all the social interactions
There's no one in this world is perfect de..
but I hope I can be a better person than now la..

We all learn from mistakes and obstacles
It makes us more strong and tough
and from there we know what's our weaknesses and strength..
After knowing that, then we can try to build up the strength and overcome the weaknesses..

I admit that I'm not a really "good" person...
As I mentioned in the profile description,
I am a quite "radical" person,
when I "beh song" that time I'll directly show out de..
I won't care so much la..
and perhaps because of that, I 得罪lots of people..

Haiz, what to do?
Sometimes really cannot control myself..
At least now better le
because at least now I can tahan not to release the anger out in front of that person...

Sharing all these just because I realise that there's really quite a lot of changes in me la..
If you know me since I was young, then I believe you get what I mean de..
hehe^^

Random~~

Was wondering what to do now~~

assignments still haven't really finish but.. not feeling doing it..

exam is coming and haven't really revision but.. not feeling starting it..

Lastly, think of writing something in this blog site lo~~

Yesterday I found out that my younger sister is currently facing some friendship problem

Thought of can talk to her in MSN or phone de.

but she seems like already go to bed le..

Never mind, I shall call her tomorrow la..

Thinking about her problems,

then I realize that she is actually facing the kind of same thing that I faced in the past..

Not knowing whether this is just a coincident or all the friendship problems are alike la..

Really hope that MM will handle the problem with wisdom lo..

Besides that, I was still wondering about my Psycho-drama..

According to Mr. Boe, it was impressive!!! although I don't know where's the part that impress him la..

Not only that, I think that it is a very simple story line wo~~

Plus we just practice for few hours on that day itself..

Hmm.. really should thank God la..

By the way, Mr. Boe is really a very nice person la

He so nice at sharing his knowledge and feel so glad that he is our tutor

although sometimes his homeworks and assignments almost drive me crazy!!!

Yesterday also,

I went pasar malam with Grace and Siew Chee..

It was a wonderful trip

I spend around RM35 within a single night

Including the transport and also one RM5 de T-Shirt which is very dai de!!!

The rest of it would be food lo~~

haha.. can imagine how much food that I eat within that particular night lo~~

Overall, it was fun... although just 3 of us.. ^^

This post is really random de lo..

I think of anything then me jao write lo..

a bit messy

a bit unrelated to each other

a bit ... too... LAME!!!

:p

New blog template

I just updated the blog template into a new one..
still it is green colour in major..
Because I like green.. ^^

changing the blog template means I lost some of the gadget as well..
so, I make some changes lo..

Personally, I like this new blog template..
seems cool and more artistic compare to the previous one...

Hope you guys like it as well lo~~
^_^

幸福

我发现自己真的很幸福

我身边有很多很多关心我的人

尤其当我post上上个部落时

身边的朋友都很关心

很想在这里告诉大家

我没事了~~

冷战即将步入和解了

因为我终于学会了放下

倍感孤独的中秋

今年的中秋

并没有回家

感到异常的孤独

人家说，独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲

现在的我

终于明白了

*

最近，为了面子和口气

跟姐姐闹得很不愉快

即使明白说那只是很小的一回事

我始终拉不下脸

即使姐姐已经不顾面子的拉下脸

我还是很狠心的把它推开

*

爱面子的我

总是喜欢把自己弄得进退两难的地步

很倔强地不愿道歉

很固执地坚守着自己的原则

*

其实我很想大哭一场

告诉她，其实她深深地伤到我了

也想告诉她，其实我很敏感

很想告诉她，我没有她想象中的坚强

我也会想要有依赖人的时刻

否则，我不会不时不时往她家跑

因为我渴望被人呵护的感觉

*

当事情发生后

没有谅解也没有原谅

我很想不计前嫌

可是我始终忘不了那被人背叛的感觉

就连爸爸，我也开不了口告诉他

这一切一切就这样埋在我的心里几个星期了

*

表面上的我好像若无其事

可是我知道

我的心是寒的

是失望的

是孤独的

*

当这样的我遇上了今年的中秋，

我崩溃了

Love=investment??

It's been a long time din update this blog le...
Was kind of busy past few weeks and this going to continue until the end of the final exam ba!!
By the way, yesterday during the AIESEC AG6,
while having the mega world cafe session, there was a guy who bring up this topic!!
"love is like an investment"

hmm... cannot deny what he said but I still don't think so lo..
He said that when people fallen in love, the mostly the guys will have to kind of invest
and the investment of course is about all the treating food, buying presents, time sacrificing and so on..

For me, love is basically build upon trust..
when talking all about "investment", it's kind of materialised the meaning of love already..
if you think lost at the first point you "invest", then what is the purpose of falling in love wor~~

Yala, cannot deny that romance love will fade when the component that of love fade..
It is an investment..
but not as that bad as the guy think lo..

选择性的回忆

如果我说，人生中有许多的回忆

而有些回忆是可以选择性的保留或删除

不知你们同意吗？

*

我曾经有过一段回忆

是连我自己都不知道要如何归位的回忆

曾经，我以为那是我不愿再提起的回忆

我以为它会从我生命中消失

只要我不再去触碰它

可惜，这只是我很鸵鸟的逃避心态

*

一旦成为了回忆，永远就是回忆

怎样都删除不了的

过去了的回忆

怎么改也改不了

错过的，也只能让它随烟而去

消失在空中

*

很想告诉自己

别再去想了

过去的是改变不了了

缅甸过去不是我一贯的作风

无可否认的，

在那过去中，我曾经很开心过

但始终，我最介意的不是那些

*

一个没有解决过的问题，

就像是被埋藏起来的地雷

不去触碰就被遗忘了

可是，当一不小心碰到时

所带来的爆发力

却是无穷地大...

*

今天的我，

不是想埋怨什么

而是想很平静地将我的想法透露

不想再引起任何的误会

不想再一味地沉迷在过去的伤痛中

也不想将这段回忆归类成“等待删除类“

如果可以的话，

我想知道真相

那也只是如果

因为我知道，你们伤得和我一样重

五味参杂...

今天，我的心情像一锅五味参杂的杂锦汤

痛，每月的报到让我身理心里都很不舒服

忧，为还没有做好准备的Quiz担心

乐，自己可以很有规律的完成所定下的目标

烦，今晚的meeting的出席率

恨，不负责任的“人”

其实还有的，

一切一切都应该从那刻开始，

发现“她”在Facebook Add 了我，

approve 了之后，发现她有个Blog

好奇之下，就把她的部落看完了

就在当下，勾起了太多太多回忆

算是美好回忆还是不堪回首的回忆呢？

我也不懂

但我知道，如果同样的事情一再的发生，

我应该还是会做一样的决定的

想了很久，决定在其中一个有关的部落上留言

我也不懂道理这样子做到底是对还是错

或许是因为身理上的不舒服吧！

看着看着，我的心情也跟着沉重起来

因为那一切都勾起了我在Matric不愉快的回忆

Matric时期，我很痛苦

我找不到了解我的人

感觉上每天都是一个人

曾经，她们是我依靠的对象

但日子久了，发现自己融不入

痛苦也随即而来

虽然这些都已经过了接近两年了

可是我忘不了

同样的，我发现我的缘故，使得大家都不好受

我很想知道，难道我是个这么令人讨厌的人吗？

我真的不懂得如何跟人家相处吗？

不然，为何我无法在那一年内寻得知心朋友呢？

朋友啊！

如果你看到这篇部落时，

请不要吝啬的写下你的意见..

虽然我不在意别人的看法，

但这是我个人人格问题吧！

终究应该知道的~~

因为这些回忆，让我苦哈哈得过了一个下午

相信没得到一个答案我是不会甘心的吧！