NATCON 2009

当我答应参与这个活动的时候，我就已经预算好会有几忙的了~~

当日子一天一天的靠近时，我们更加是忙得不可开交~~

但，无可否认的是，这活动让我学会了很多，同时，也献上我无数的第一次...

要从哪里说起呢？？

就从刚开始筹备的那边讲起吧！！

我被分派到LOGISTIC的部门，

顾名思义，就是要当跑腿~~

可以说是从几个星期前，我就不断地东跑西走的...

是很累，不过幸好一切都很顺利。

我遇到的人都很好，不但帮我顺利通过申请，还给予我些可贵的教导~~

到了要开始的前两三天，

我们更加卖力的为那活动做准备功夫..

那其中的一天竟然忙到凌晨三点钟~~

我的天，我从来没有开会到酱夜的...

回到房间，梳洗一番就接近四点了~~

真的很累！！

到了活动的开始，我们一样是那么累，

但整个过程中我都不曾后悔过，

我很享受这种很充实的感觉~~

讲回那些第一次吧！！

在这活动中，我第一次爬窗进去FST，

也第一次呆在FST酱久！！

第一次在DAM里睡觉，

第一次在DAM和DG唱K...

那里的音效还真的不错~~呵呵

第一次当秘书，而且还是很失败的秘书~~

人家当秘书是要写报告的，我什么都不用做，

会议主席帮我做完，我只需要记录些许的会议重点...

想回起来还真是有点点的过意不去了！！

到了现在，距离活动结束已经有几天了，

我还是很怀念，

但愿自己还有机会很我的团友们一起努力的搞活动吧！！

tired learning experience

finally, it come to the end..
NATCON 2009

honestly, we did not prepare it in a enough time mode but it is like last minute work
due to lack of time, so we need to rush up lots of things,
so, we all don really have time to rest during two whole weeks..

yet, i do learn a lot from it,
i learn how to deal with people...
i learn how to setup the LCD layar, and projector
i learn how to setup the PA system, at learn some of it la..
i learn how to communicate better with people..
i learn how to jot down important points during meeting
and i learn quite a lot of AIESEC square dance..

not only that,
during the national convention,
i did contribute lots of my first time...
first time explore in FST,
first time sing K in DAM and DG,
first time sleep in DAM,
first time dance in front of so many people,
first time climb into a building through windows,
first time go JPP and Pusat Penerbitan, etc...

this event really give me a great experience and also impact in my life..
although it is really tiring but i never blame for not enough sleep..
yet, I'm glad of becoming one of the OC of NATCON 2009..

结束时的感想~~

当一段友情走不下去时，我们该怎么办才是最好的方法？？
曾经，我是那个逃避的人……
所以我明白那感受和想法……

当我现在站在这里，
看着朋友以逃避着的方式面对着我时，
就像看到以前的自己……

我应该体谅的，
在我如此明白的时候，
可是，或许太了解了，
让我对彼此失去了信心~~

结束，或许是件好事..
我不想再逼任何人，
既然你已经做出了决定~~

但，始终我还是不知道事情的真相，
算了吧！就让我死得不明不白吧！
因为我累了，我不想再迁就下去，不想再妥协了~

就算是真的没了她当我的朋友，
我也觉得算了，
我没有力去理会了……

无论如何，是结束了..
但，曾经，我们是朋友~~

Home..

I'm at home..
Love to be at home..
and yet I'm not always at home..

When I decided to take matriculation,
it started my own journey..
which away from home..'

I'm not the lucky person,
because the college or university that i get is far from my home..

Unlike those that staying near,
they can always going back home..

Me??
I can only go back home once a month
and only for about 2-3 days..

pity??
NO..
my sarawak friends even pity..
they cant even go back once a month..
but really once a while..

From this,
I realised that I'm not the worst..
so, I start not to blame..
but take this opportunity to learn more things..

Now, I'm at home..
home sweet home..
enjoying the peace and wondering environment at Taiping..

although soon, I'll be back to UKM
and supposedly not going back home until exam finish..
em.. this is really a good time for me to enjoy..
at least once last time before exam ma..

Taiping, I love to stay here..
things here are cheap,
foods are nice and cheap..
people here are nice and warm..
and of course,
my lovely Family members lo~~
muaks~~ :)

Decided...

Once decided, I won't look back
won't regret for my decision
won't feel sorry for anyone else

If really it appears that I make the wrong decision,
I won't blame myself for that but I'll take up the consequences..

So..
Friend, don't blame me for my decision..
It took me time to decide
and it seems like this is the best solution among all..
that suit both U and me..

朋友的定义~~

由始到今，我还在摸索着朋友的定义~~

我自认朋友不会少，可是真正走入我的世界的并不多~~

从小，我就羡慕姐姐可以有一个相识多年又了解她的好朋友~~

所以，我也很用心的去寻找属于我的好朋友~~

但，每每在我以为我找到的时候，就会发生些让我跌破眼镜的事~~

因为时间和距离上的关系，我很多段友情就这样没有了~~

现在，就算没有了距离和时间上的问题，

我和朋友之间还是有问题~~

我们的友情演变到真的比陌生人还要陌生~~~

算了吧！

我也不会再去勉强自己去继续这段友情了~~

一切都随缘了~~

当我狠下心要挽回的时候，

她的一举一动只会让我心灰意冷~~

好吧！既然你选择了以逃避的方式，

那我就成全你吧！

我想我以后都不会再理会她了吧！

这是我的方式~~

当朋友之间初现了问题的时候，

我曾经是过去解决，但她却……

既然她选择了一次又一次的逃避和糟蹋我的心思，

那代表着，她并不是我的朋友！！

因为，在我的定义里，朋友是不会一次又一次的伤害和糟蹋你的心思的~~

我已经给了她机会，让她选择，但她却以逃避来回应我~~

朋友，我没有多少时间陪你玩这种你逃我追的游戏~~

所以，再见啦！！

这是你希望的吧？

在你一次又一次的举动背后，是否隐藏着这个决定呢？

Seeking for true friendship~~

When I was in matriculation, I already wondering about this..
Now when I'm in Uni, still, I am thinking about this also..
I dare not say that I have plenty of bad experiences about friendship..
But from what I been through,
It makes me lost confidence on it..
I have plenty of friends, but those that able to enter my heart,
very few...
Not saying that I closed up myself but for me, friends are those who can understand you without saying another words..
I am now still seeking for true friendship..
althought I already lost the confidence and people around me are telling me the same thing..
I was wondering whether the friendship can last for how long??
How long can it stand??
Without quarrels?? With all the time and distand limit??
I was once being told by one of my friend's actions,
Friendship can end without a sign..
It can start without a sign and also end without a sign..
When it come to the end, both of us are like stranger to each other..
Not informing each other about the latest news of them,
Not wishing during new year or even birthday..
Or I shall say, it appears like we never know each other..
This is the sad part of the story..
and yet, I'll never give up on seeking true friendship..
No matter how long it can stand, I'll still put hope on it..
because no matter what,I did try my best on putting effort in it..

20岁的生日~~

20岁的生日了……

代表着我将永远告别十几岁的日子了……

20岁的生日过得有点混……

从星期四就开始庆祝了……

一直到星期六！！！

em……这次的生日我总共吃了5次的蛋糕，

其中有四次是不同时间吃的~~

天啊！难怪我会突然间肥去~~

要感谢陪我过生日的朋友们，

也要感谢没能陪我过但依然送上祝福的朋友……

还有感谢妈妈生我养我，还有爸爸的教诲让我比别人成长得更快~~

当然不会忘记亲爱的姐姐为我炮制的美味晚餐~~

20岁的生日正式的公布了我已经是成人了吗？

不，那还要等多一年，就是21岁时咯~~

不过有点想分享的~~

其实我同时间扮演了两个角色！！

在大学里，我是最小的~~

在我认识的朋友当中，我却是最大的~~

一时之间不能适应！！

我当老大当了十几年，来到这里却变成了小妹？？

哈哈，其实这很好啊！！

让我感受一下当最小的滋味吧~~