坚强的心

何时我才会有颗坚强的心呢？

不是因为最近又受了什么委屈

也不是因为什么大事发生了

就很纯粹的感慨吧~

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刚刚看了赵薇演的花木兰，有些感慨

戏里说：“如果不割舍感情的牵盼，心无论如何都硬不起来的”

当时听了觉得很残忍，因为感情就使分辨人和禽兽的关键要点

如果连感情都割舍了，那我们还有什么值得我们去追求的呢？

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要坚强就一定要变得那样吗？

坚强的心可以让我无论遇到什么都可以站起来

就像我之前的post，

对我来说，坚强的心就是当伤口再次被撒上盐，不再觉得疼痛吧~

不过我想那应该是不可能的吧！

伤口痛了，遇上盐更痛了..

那是定律，当觉得不痛时，是麻木了而不是不痛了~

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在意越多，受伤的机率也越多

有时候很想告诉自己，算了吧！

别在意那么多了，你在意的，人家可能都不稀罕呢

可偏偏就是控制不了自己

这就是当年我的想法，

有时候偏执的在意和执着反而让自己受到更大的伤

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过了这么多年在外闯荡的日子，

经历过许许多多的悲欢离合、起起伏伏

我应该变得更加地坚强

这么反而变得更加地多愁善感呢？

正在思考着~~

初恋红豆冰~

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由本地制作的另一部电影..

我看了觉得很好看，至少我感受到了阿牛想带出的感觉吧

电影本身就像是一部时光机，

它把我们带回小时候，

让我们回忆我们曾经度过的岁月和那味道..

虽然有些人会觉得电影本身太过本土化，有点低水准的感觉

可是，就是那些熟悉的语言、熟悉的画面和熟悉的举动，把我们带进了更深的境界

让我们自己去体会电影想带出的意义..

初恋通常都是最让人回味的，因为往往的初恋都是无疾而终

我想电影本身想到出的不止是那样吧！

它把青少年们的彷徨无助、天真、叛逆、勇气

都一一地刻画在电影的帆布上..

看了很感慨，也很感动..

我觉得初恋红豆冰真的是很值得捧场的本地电影！

大家，如果有机会的话，去戏院捧捧场吧~~

Exam=Memory Test???

Ya, I dunno why but I had this feeling since this semester..
Exam nowadays is more like a memory test to me rather than testing knowledge..

Every time when there is exam coming, people tend to do last minutes work..
Ya, of course including myself.. ><
But the main point here is that, all of us are trying to memorize the details/facts/theories and bla bla bla

No one seems to remember the real purpose of exam already..
It's been distorted since a very long time ago..
Now people are concern about the results, but not the knowledge..
So, in order to get a good results, you need to score well in your exam..
In order to score well in the exam, you need to know all the thing that you learn in 14 weeks time and answer the exam questions correctly..
In order to answer them correctly, you need to know how to put in nice words so that the lecturer will understand you..
In order to put in nice words, the best way is to memorize all those notes given by them!!!

You see, maybe this is not exactly what happen but it seemed like to me..
I'm not a person that like to memorize or neither used it
I always love to understand the concepts behind the facts/theories/systems and bla bla bla..
BUT, when I go further and further, I discover that sometimes, it is not just understand sufficient..
I understand but I cant put in into the words that the lecturer want it to be, then WHAT's the point??

Memorizing won't make the knowledge stay, so most of the courses that I had taken in my 1st year, I barely remember them except for those that I like..
Haiz, the reason why I wrote this is because I really tired of every time memorizing just to face the exam..
This is not what it suppose to be~

No mood to memorize = no mood to study
no mood to study = no good answers
no good answers = no good results
no good results = no good job secure in the future

Does all that sound logic???
=.=

疯狂的吃~~

对，我们刚刚的确是疯狂的吃~

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刚考完第一张Paper就疯狂的吃！！

虽然说目的是为了庆祝生日的人，可是我觉得大家都是为了bonanza而去的啦~

吃得开心就好啦~~

我们真的很疯狂，

六个人就吃了39盘

而且我想有超过一半是紫色盘的

也就是RM6的，

所以说啊，这次真的是超划算的

上次我们去Kajang那里吃，

不但没有吃到很多RM6的，

而且还要排队.. 真是的！！

下次懂了，我们就去Alamanda就好啦~~ 耶！！！

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疯狂完后，就是时候回到现实了吧！

接下来还有5张Paper要考

可是好像都没有考试的气氛和情绪呐

怎么办呢？

刚刚的考试都好像是假的，完全没有感觉

做就做咯

考嘛考咯

就是这样，真的不懂自己在搞什么~~

无论如何，告诉自己一定可以的，

因为我是我啊~~ =)

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还有，我match到了

确定可以去台湾了

现在正在等台湾的文件，只要一接到就可以去做Visa了

开心开心

也有点怕怕

因为第一次出国嘛~

还要是单身匹马的去~~

不过还是老话一句，

相信自己，我可以的

因为我是我啊~~ =）

Good Luck for exam

Yea, everyone in UKM..
GOOD LUCK for the coming exam..


p/s: Finally I changed the blog's title to "Look upon my world"..
sound sentimental to me~
I feel is much better where it suit for a blog compare to FrEedoOoM!!!!
It's 1.20am now and I still have two chapter of the child psychology haven't read for twice..
So, It's time to back to reality and face the challenges already..


I swear to myself that I will try my best and strive for the exam de!!
Add Oil ba everyone!!

Another New Template..

How's the new template??

I like it pretty much..

Although the font is a bit too small for the sidebar,

it don't look nice when I change it into medium size,

this is the best where it fits the size of the sidebar..

Thought of changing the Blog's name into something else

but in the end din do that because I feel like wanna remain the originality of this blog..

Having another English based blog can help me improve and strengthen my English

Although there is no nice quoting, nice wording nor nice sharing..

I still wanna keep this as my another blog..

For those that wish to read in Chinese,

kindly visit http://n1523.blog.friendster.com

I often share my views and thoughts and feelings there in my native Language

and I like it very very much..

Ok la, it's time to say goodbye to blogspot for few days..

Wanna focus on my coming exam already

Since I've been wasting almost the whole study week doing nothing..

So, it's time to pay back~~

我的家人..

突然间想写写关于我的家人..

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爸爸

我想现在这世界上最了解我的人就是爸爸了吧！！

我和爸爸的关系很玄

我们是父女，可是我觉得我们比较像朋友、师徒

从小到大，我跟爸爸的关系就很密切

听妈妈说，小时候的我谁都不黏，就是黏爸爸

爸爸给我的远远超过一个父亲给予女儿的

爸爸就像是我人生的导师，指引我正确的方向

点亮了我渐渐昏暗的世界

爸爸对我来说，

很伟大、很有知识，是我第一个想依赖的靠山..

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妈妈

我的妈妈很伟大，为了我们默默的付出了很多很多

联通的成功也是因为妈妈那傲人的厨艺和创意

妈妈不喜欢也不擅长表达她对我们的爱

以前的我不明白，

应该算是做了许许多多伤害妈妈的事吧

妈妈有着标准的刀子嘴豆腐心

嘴巴上可能说不在乎，但心里可能在意得要命

妈妈的厨艺很棒，虽然我并没有得到任何超群厨艺的遗传

妈妈对我来说，是我应该爱惜的对象，

尤其是在我浪费和伤害了妈妈这么多年后，这个感觉特别的强烈

最近变得很喜欢向妈妈撒娇，不懂为什么..

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姐姐

我的姐姐很棒

可能她不知道她自己有多棒吧~

姐姐总觉得我的光芒一直闪耀着

让人家忽略了她

可是我想说，姐姐有的是我没有的

姐姐有坚强无比的毅力

一个人只身前来吉隆坡

没有其他人，一个人独立的生活

在我来了这里后，常常为了我东奔西跑的

为我准备了很多东西

让我的大学生活中注入了家的温暖

姐姐常常不知道她其实在我生命中注入了很温暖的元素吧

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妹妹

我的妹妹很可爱

还记得在和妹妹讲电话时，朋友还以为是在和六岁的妹妹讲话

明明那时就已经中三了

妹妹很爱撒娇，但也很懂事

尤其是当我们都不在家里时

是妹妹扛下属于我们的责任

妹妹的内心也藏着许多的东西

妹妹其实是成熟的

只是妹妹从来不表现出来

我欣赏妹妹的乐天和贴心的行为

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他们是我的家人

是我挚爱的家人

我无法形容他们在我心里的地位

我从来都不知道的，

一直到我离开了家

从2007年3月16日起

我离开了家，就没有长期的呆在家里了

离开后，才知道他们有多重要

才知道愚蠢的自己浪费了多少的时间

所以，现在的我很努力的在做着弥补的动作

希望我可以对她们好一点

让他们感受到我的爱

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爱是不需要说出口的，

爱是用行动来表示的..

Study Week without Studying..

Yes, it is just like the title of this blog..

Study week without studying..

It's already Thursday and I haven't really get in touch with books in details..

For the first time in my life, I don't know how to start and where to start..

I think I'm going to kill myself if I still wasting time and effort like this..

No idea what I can do to motivate myself back to study..

No idea man..

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