20岁的生日了……
代表着我将永远告别十几岁的日子了……
20岁的生日过得有点混……
从星期四就开始庆祝了……
一直到星期六！！！
em……这次的生日我总共吃了5次的蛋糕，
其中有四次是不同时间吃的~~
天啊！难怪我会突然间肥去~~
要感谢陪我过生日的朋友们，
也要感谢没能陪我过但依然送上祝福的朋友……
还有感谢妈妈生我养我，还有爸爸的教诲让我比别人成长得更快~~
当然不会忘记亲爱的姐姐为我炮制的美味晚餐~~
20岁的生日正式的公布了我已经是成人了吗？
不，那还要等多一年，就是21岁时咯~~
不过有点想分享的~~
其实我同时间扮演了两个角色！！
在大学里，我是最小的~~
在我认识的朋友当中，我却是最大的~~
一时之间不能适应！！
我当老大当了十几年，来到这里却变成了小妹？？
哈哈，其实这很好啊！！
让我感受一下当最小的滋味吧~~
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20 years old le~~
what does it means le??
means i'm getting older le??
haha.. actually it does not mean much to me..
because i din wait for 20 years old only then become mature..
i'm already mature enough (p/s: i mean thinking la)
haha.. maybe some don't agree but still I think I mature enough in some part de~~
what I do on 23rd May 2009??
em... I spent half day in timesquare with my old buddy and another half day at my sister house at sri serdang~~
honestly, I don't really know how I spent the time..
It was like wow then is 24th May already~~
by the way, still wanna say thank you to those who spent time together with me for celebration whether on 21st, 22nd, 23rd or 24th May and also on 6th May(genting trip)..
thanks those who greeting me and wishing me, whether on friendster, facebook, blogspot, or through sms de..
thanks my sister, MeiHorng for preparing such a wonderful dinner for me..
thanks her housemates, Psykids, Grace, MeiYi and Mei for the lovely cakes,
thanks LayMei and MeiWen for the presents and cards...
and thanks lot and lot of people ar~~
and of course never forget to thank my parents for raising me up...
em.. 20 years old le, really need to think of what is the next plan lo~~
means i'm getting older le??
haha.. actually it does not mean much to me..
because i din wait for 20 years old only then become mature..
i'm already mature enough (p/s: i mean thinking la)
haha.. maybe some don't agree but still I think I mature enough in some part de~~
what I do on 23rd May 2009??
em... I spent half day in timesquare with my old buddy and another half day at my sister house at sri serdang~~
honestly, I don't really know how I spent the time..
It was like wow then is 24th May already~~
by the way, still wanna say thank you to those who spent time together with me for celebration whether on 21st, 22nd, 23rd or 24th May and also on 6th May(genting trip)..
thanks those who greeting me and wishing me, whether on friendster, facebook, blogspot, or through sms de..
thanks my sister, MeiHorng for preparing such a wonderful dinner for me..
thanks her housemates, Psykids, Grace, MeiYi and Mei for the lovely cakes,
thanks LayMei and MeiWen for the presents and cards...
and thanks lot and lot of people ar~~
and of course never forget to thank my parents for raising me up...
em.. 20 years old le, really need to think of what is the next plan lo~~
落寞心情~~
这几天都很落寞，不懂为了什么………
在房间里，就快要发霉了，也不懂得要做些什么！！
一个人，过着这种孤单寂寞的日子，真是难熬~~
我并不是害怕孤单的人，
感觉上，从小，我就不曾孤单过，一直到Matric的时候~~
当时的我，只身到马六甲去，没有朋友~~
在那儿找到的朋友却又不是自己想要的，
做人原则不一样，让我们的友情就这样结束了~~
我想，我是那时候开始习惯一个人的生活吧！！
一个人回家，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人发呆……
这种情况到了大学并没有多大的改变吧！
很多时候，我也是一个人的……
一个人在房间，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人出去，一个人回家等等……
感觉上，自己好像很独立……
可是，很多时候，我是逼不得已的让自己学会了独立~~
当中的辛酸没有人会懂，除了自己~~
很多时候，我告诉自己要坚强，不可以哭，不可以懦弱……
因为我只有一个人……
家人们都不在身边了，不想做些让他们担心的事~~
所以一切一切，我都扛下了~~
朋友曾经说过，“像你一样的独立女性是不会明白的”
当时很想告诉她说，如果可以选的话，我也希望我可以不用酱独立~~
能有个可以让我依赖的人来分担~~
家人是我可以依赖的人，可是我不想再为他们添麻烦了……
我已经长大了，有了可以独当一面的能力了！
不想白发渐渐冒出的父母为我操心，不想姐姐在烦恼她的事情时还要分神来照顾我，也不想妹妹在努力读书时为了我而忧心~~
为了这一切一切，我让自己很早就学会了独立~
是独立惯了吗？
现在无论怎样，我很自动的就武装自己，
不让人家看得出自己的懦弱……
不想让人家为我操心~~
今天的我很感性，也不懂得为什么~~
写部落格是我发泄的方法之一吧！！
也可能是因为最近在想着到底要不要留在这里过生日吧！！
回家会很累也很浪费车票钱……
可是，留在这里，就真的是自己孤孤单单的过生日了~~
也不是说完全没有朋友在这里，
只是，大家都有彼此忙碌的生活……
生日真的那么重要吗？？
也还好吧！
只是，我需要时间好好调息自己的情绪和思想了~~
在房间里，就快要发霉了，也不懂得要做些什么！！
一个人，过着这种孤单寂寞的日子，真是难熬~~
我并不是害怕孤单的人，
感觉上，从小，我就不曾孤单过，一直到Matric的时候~~
当时的我，只身到马六甲去，没有朋友~~
在那儿找到的朋友却又不是自己想要的，
做人原则不一样，让我们的友情就这样结束了~~
我想，我是那时候开始习惯一个人的生活吧！！
一个人回家，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人发呆……
这种情况到了大学并没有多大的改变吧！
很多时候，我也是一个人的……
一个人在房间，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人出去，一个人回家等等……
感觉上，自己好像很独立……
可是，很多时候，我是逼不得已的让自己学会了独立~~
当中的辛酸没有人会懂，除了自己~~
很多时候，我告诉自己要坚强，不可以哭，不可以懦弱……
因为我只有一个人……
家人们都不在身边了，不想做些让他们担心的事~~
所以一切一切，我都扛下了~~
朋友曾经说过，“像你一样的独立女性是不会明白的”
当时很想告诉她说，如果可以选的话，我也希望我可以不用酱独立~~
能有个可以让我依赖的人来分担~~
家人是我可以依赖的人，可是我不想再为他们添麻烦了……
我已经长大了，有了可以独当一面的能力了！
不想白发渐渐冒出的父母为我操心，不想姐姐在烦恼她的事情时还要分神来照顾我，也不想妹妹在努力读书时为了我而忧心~~
为了这一切一切，我让自己很早就学会了独立~
是独立惯了吗？
现在无论怎样，我很自动的就武装自己，
不让人家看得出自己的懦弱……
不想让人家为我操心~~
今天的我很感性，也不懂得为什么~~
写部落格是我发泄的方法之一吧！！
也可能是因为最近在想着到底要不要留在这里过生日吧！！
回家会很累也很浪费车票钱……
可是，留在这里，就真的是自己孤孤单单的过生日了~~
也不是说完全没有朋友在这里，
只是，大家都有彼此忙碌的生活……
生日真的那么重要吗？？
也还好吧！
只是，我需要时间好好调息自己的情绪和思想了~~
落寞的心情~~
这几天都很落寞，不懂为了什么………
在房间里，就快要发霉了，也不懂得要做些什么！！
一个人，过着这种孤单寂寞的日子，真是难熬~~
我并不是害怕孤单的人，
感觉上，从小，我就不曾孤单过，一直到Matric的时候~~
当时的我，只身到马六甲去，没有朋友~~
在那儿找到的朋友却又不是自己想要的，
做人原则不一样，让我们的友情就这样结束了~~
我想，我是那时候开始习惯一个人的生活吧！！
一个人回家，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人发呆……
这种情况到了大学并没有多大的改变吧！
很多时候，我也是一个人的……
一个人在房间，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人出去，一个人回家等等……
感觉上，自己好像很独立……
可是，很多时候，我是逼不得已的让自己学会了独立~~
当中的辛酸没有人会懂，除了自己~~
很多时候，我告诉自己要坚强，不可以哭，不可以懦弱……
因为我只有一个人……
家人们都不在身边了，不想做些让他们担心的事~~
所以一切一切，我都扛下了~~
朋友曾经说过，“像你一样的独立女性是不会明白的”
当时很想告诉她说，如果可以选的话，我也希望我可以不用酱独立~~
能有个可以让我依赖的人来分担~~
家人是我可以依赖的人，可是我不想再为他们添麻烦了……
我已经长大了，有了可以独当一面的能力了！
不想白发渐渐冒出的父母为我操心，不想姐姐在烦恼她的事情时还要分神来照顾我，也不想妹妹在努力读书时为了我而忧心~~
为了这一切一切，我让自己很早就学会了独立~
是独立惯了吗？
现在无论怎样，我很自动的就武装自己，
不让人家看得出自己的懦弱……
不想让人家为我操心~~
今天的我很感性，也不懂得为什么~~
写部落格是我发泄的方法之一吧！！
也可能是因为最近在想着到底要不要留在这里过生日吧！！
回家会很累也很浪费车票钱……
可是，留在这里，就真的是自己孤孤单单的过生日了~~
也不是说完全没有朋友在这里，
只是，大家都有彼此忙碌的生活……
生日真的那么重要吗？？
也还好吧！
只是，我需要时间好好调息自己的情绪和思想了~~
back to school~~
Last weekend, I went back Taiping for few purposes...
The first one is to celebrate my mum birthday which fall on 17th May..
The second one is to go back to SMJK HUA LIAN..
Why going back??
Since the headmaster now don't really like us to go back..
hehe..
Actually, I went back is because of CHOIR~~~
I was once the leader of Choir and now is my sister..
When we talked in the phone, she keep telling me that they havent really ready for the competition which fall on 16th May..
So, as a sister and also as a senior of Choir..
I decided to go back and try to help them..
I took 7am rapid bus from UKM and reach perhentian kajang around 7.30am..
I waited for about half and hour then only I get into the E2 rapid bus..
That is the 1st time I took E2 bus..
since it is an express bus, so it took me about one hour to reach petaling street..
I thought I will miss the 9 o'clock bus,
but luckily, the bus havent depart and I'm able to take that bus..
after about 4 hours, I reach Taiping..
then without wasting another minutes, I rush back to SMJK Hua Lian..
when I enter the hall and listen to all my juniors singing..
I nearly fainted..
It is really a mess..
all the tempo, pitch and expression are totally out..
due to we just have another one more day to go before the competition..
I can't do much changes to them but just trying to polish up the whole song.
In the meantime, I try to apply the motivation that I learn to them..
It seems like really work..
They all change from the learn helplessness to a more motivated state..
Although they didn't manage to become the champion but the 1st runner up..
It still means a lot to me..
within few hours,
and they let me see the huge improvement..
I'm really touch and din regret for my decision..
although it is tired to rush back but it means something to me..
from what I saw,
I saw the shadow of myself..
three years before,
I was one of them..
we all fight for our dreams,
fight for the competitions..
hope to beat up convent who are damn arrogant..
we cry when we won and also cry when we lose..
In the choir team,
we all share both tears and laughters..
I'll never forget about what I been through
and it helps me a lot in facing daily uni life..
To all my juniors,
like what I said, winning and losing is not important,
the main things that you all should look through is the process..
it is the process that make you grow up, not the winning or the lossing...
never give up and fight for the best...
The first one is to celebrate my mum birthday which fall on 17th May..
The second one is to go back to SMJK HUA LIAN..
Why going back??
Since the headmaster now don't really like us to go back..
hehe..
Actually, I went back is because of CHOIR~~~
I was once the leader of Choir and now is my sister..
When we talked in the phone, she keep telling me that they havent really ready for the competition which fall on 16th May..
So, as a sister and also as a senior of Choir..
I decided to go back and try to help them..
I took 7am rapid bus from UKM and reach perhentian kajang around 7.30am..
I waited for about half and hour then only I get into the E2 rapid bus..
That is the 1st time I took E2 bus..
since it is an express bus, so it took me about one hour to reach petaling street..
I thought I will miss the 9 o'clock bus,
but luckily, the bus havent depart and I'm able to take that bus..
after about 4 hours, I reach Taiping..
then without wasting another minutes, I rush back to SMJK Hua Lian..
when I enter the hall and listen to all my juniors singing..
I nearly fainted..
It is really a mess..
all the tempo, pitch and expression are totally out..
due to we just have another one more day to go before the competition..
I can't do much changes to them but just trying to polish up the whole song.
In the meantime, I try to apply the motivation that I learn to them..
It seems like really work..
They all change from the learn helplessness to a more motivated state..
Although they didn't manage to become the champion but the 1st runner up..
It still means a lot to me..
within few hours,
and they let me see the huge improvement..
I'm really touch and din regret for my decision..
although it is tired to rush back but it means something to me..
from what I saw,
I saw the shadow of myself..
three years before,
I was one of them..
we all fight for our dreams,
fight for the competitions..
hope to beat up convent who are damn arrogant..
we cry when we won and also cry when we lose..
In the choir team,
we all share both tears and laughters..
I'll never forget about what I been through
and it helps me a lot in facing daily uni life..
To all my juniors,
like what I said, winning and losing is not important,
the main things that you all should look through is the process..
it is the process that make you grow up, not the winning or the lossing...
never give up and fight for the best...
bAcK to ScHool....
Last weekend, I went back Taiping for few purposes...
The first one is to celebrate my mum birthday which fall on 17th May..
The second one is to go back to SMJK HUA LIAN..
Why going back??
Since the headmaster now don't really like us to go back..
hehe..
Actually, I went back is because of CHOIR~~~
I was once the leader of Choir and now is my sister..
When we talked in the phone, she keep telling me that they havent really ready for the competition which fall on 16th May..
So, as a sister and also as a senior of Choir..
I decided to go back and try to help them..
I took 7am rapid bus from UKM and reach perhentian kajang around 7.30am..
I waited for about half and hour then only I get into the E2 rapid bus..
That is the 1st time I took E2 bus..
since it is an express bus, so it took me about one hour to reach petaling street..
I thought I will miss the 9 o'clock bus,
but luckily, the bus havent depart and I'm able to take that bus..
after about 4 hours, I reach Taiping..
then without wasting another minutes, I rush back to SMJK Hua Lian..
when I enter the hall and listen to all my juniors singing..
I nearly fainted..
It is really a mess..
all the tempo, pitch and expression are totally out..
due to we just have another one more day to go before the competition..
I can't do much changes to them but just trying to polish up the whole song.
In the meantime, I try to apply the motivation that I learn to them..
It seems like really work..
They all change from the learn helplessness to a more motivated state..
Although they didn't manage to become the champion but the 1st runner up..
It still means a lot to me..
within few hours,
and they let me see the huge improvement..
I'm really touch and din regret for my decision..
although it is tired to rush back but it means something to me..
from what I saw,
I saw the shadow of myself..
three years before,
I was one of them..
we all fight for our dreams,
fight for the competitions..
hope to beat up convent who are damn arrogant..
we cry when we won and also cry when we lose..
In the choir team,
we all share both tears and laughters..
I'll never forget about what I been through
and it helps me a lot in facing daily uni life..
To all my juniors,
like what I said, winning and losing is not important,
the main things that you all should look through is the process..
it is the process that make you grow up, not the winning or the lossing...
never give up and fight for the best...
The first one is to celebrate my mum birthday which fall on 17th May..
The second one is to go back to SMJK HUA LIAN..
Why going back??
Since the headmaster now don't really like us to go back..
hehe..
Actually, I went back is because of CHOIR~~~
I was once the leader of Choir and now is my sister..
When we talked in the phone, she keep telling me that they havent really ready for the competition which fall on 16th May..
So, as a sister and also as a senior of Choir..
I decided to go back and try to help them..
I took 7am rapid bus from UKM and reach perhentian kajang around 7.30am..
I waited for about half and hour then only I get into the E2 rapid bus..
That is the 1st time I took E2 bus..
since it is an express bus, so it took me about one hour to reach petaling street..
I thought I will miss the 9 o'clock bus,
but luckily, the bus havent depart and I'm able to take that bus..
after about 4 hours, I reach Taiping..
then without wasting another minutes, I rush back to SMJK Hua Lian..
when I enter the hall and listen to all my juniors singing..
I nearly fainted..
It is really a mess..
all the tempo, pitch and expression are totally out..
due to we just have another one more day to go before the competition..
I can't do much changes to them but just trying to polish up the whole song.
In the meantime, I try to apply the motivation that I learn to them..
It seems like really work..
They all change from the learn helplessness to a more motivated state..
Although they didn't manage to become the champion but the 1st runner up..
It still means a lot to me..
within few hours,
and they let me see the huge improvement..
I'm really touch and din regret for my decision..
although it is tired to rush back but it means something to me..
from what I saw,
I saw the shadow of myself..
three years before,
I was one of them..
we all fight for our dreams,
fight for the competitions..
hope to beat up convent who are damn arrogant..
we cry when we won and also cry when we lose..
In the choir team,
we all share both tears and laughters..
I'll never forget about what I been through
and it helps me a lot in facing daily uni life..
To all my juniors,
like what I said, winning and losing is not important,
the main things that you all should look through is the process..
it is the process that make you grow up, not the winning or the lossing...
never give up and fight for the best...
黑夜彩虹~~
这是我写过的一首新诗，现在看回觉得感触很大！！
同样的事情一再的发生，可心态是否一样呢？？
不意外的，我对这首新诗情有独钟，是我写过酱多新诗中，最爱的一首~~
现在就和大家分享吧！！
“
同样的事情一再的发生，可心态是否一样呢？？
不意外的，我对这首新诗情有独钟，是我写过酱多新诗中，最爱的一首~~
现在就和大家分享吧！！
“
路灯，
把我的影子拉长，
刹那间，
世界只剩下我和影子，
周遭的一切
已不再与我有关联。
静静的，
我一步步的踏出去，
踏在我成长的路上，
那途中或许有很多过客
给了我
一次次不同的
快乐、想法、感受、
及伤害…
也许过客们无心，
但听者有意！
那无心的伤害
一次次地
刺痛了我的心….
偏偏，路途中需要
过客们的存在，
否则成长也不再有意义。
一个人的路上，
除了自己没有他人
也只能硬着头皮，
扛下那伤害…
也许伤害过后，
会有意想不到彩虹
降临那独有
我和影子的世界
望着月亮，
不禁期待着那
黑夜彩虹的降临….
22/9/2007 ”
黑夜彩虹~~
这是我写过的一首新诗，当中包含了我当时的感触……
本人蛮爱这首诗的，因为它很贴切的带出了我的感想~~
纯粹想和大家分享咯！！
“
本人蛮爱这首诗的，因为它很贴切的带出了我的感想~~
纯粹想和大家分享咯！！
“
路灯，
把我的影子拉长，
刹那间，
世界只剩下我和影子，
周遭的一切
已不再与我有关联。
静静的，
我一步步的踏出去，
踏在我成长的路上，
那途中或许有很多过客
给了我
一次次不同的
快乐、想法、感受、
及伤害…
也许过客们无心，
但听者有意！
那无心的伤害
一次次地
刺痛了我的心….
偏偏，路途中需要
过客们的存在，
否则成长也不再有意义。
一个人的路上，
除了自己没有他人
也只能硬着头皮，
扛下那伤害…
也许伤害过后，
会有意想不到彩虹
降临那独有
我和影子的世界
望着月亮，
不禁期待着那
黑夜彩虹的降临….
22/9/2007”
黑夜里的彩虹是不可能出现的，就如同奇迹般…………
现在看回自己写过的诗，感触特别大~~
相同的事情又在发生了，可是心态一样吗？？
无言…………
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