不知道为什么，突然之间有了很想冲的感觉~~
会不会太迟了呢？？
冲并不代表想拿到第一，只是不相信自己就这样被打败了~~
回想自己过去的种种，总觉得酱就放弃有点浪费……
可是，每每都提不起神来~~
好了，现在我终于有了股想冲的念头，可是我有的时间却越来越少了……
希望可以在这几天的时间内做最充分的冲刺，不让自己后悔！！
很想说：“我不是个追求完美的人，只是我希望自己能够做到最好”
尽力就好是我的座右铭吧！！
我不会强迫自己去达到某些要求，可是也不允许自己有半点的怠慢……
在这过去的几个月来，我似乎怠慢了许多，所以要好好的利用剩下的时间来弥补了……
自己加油吧！！
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aM I mOtivated???
curious to know whether am i motivated??
suddenly I felt so motivated to study...
due to what i also dunno!!!
haha, but hopefully this late coming motivation can really bring me to the mood of study la!!
motivated to study,
motivated to try my best before surrender ma,
and also motivated to not being addicted to my laptop!!!
final is coming, really hope within these few days I can catch up what I miss during the pass few months..
tO alL mY frIenDs anD deAresT cOUrsemAtes: gAmBAtEh lO!!!
suddenly I felt so motivated to study...
due to what i also dunno!!!
haha, but hopefully this late coming motivation can really bring me to the mood of study la!!
motivated to study,
motivated to try my best before surrender ma,
and also motivated to not being addicted to my laptop!!!
final is coming, really hope within these few days I can catch up what I miss during the pass few months..
tO alL mY frIenDs anD deAresT cOUrsemAtes: gAmBAtEh lO!!!
meMoRiEs....
Haiz... yesterday when i looked back all the photos me taken past few years, i found out that i really missed my friends ar..
actually i'm not a person that really like to take photo, the photos i had taken was really not much la.. i mean before enter UKM..
mostly is because i don't have a handphone with a camera and even though we have camera, it's the analog de..
when in form 4, finally we had the first ever digital camera in our house, but unfortunately, it is not that "hightech" that it is about 3 or 4 megapixel.. and it is reali heavy..
you can imagine the size of it de, it is almost the size of the normal analog camera..
SO, that means it make no different in our life..
the most photos i had taken is during the form 5.. i mean during secondary school...
and the worst is i always tumpang people camera and normally people will forget to give me the photo de.. so, quite cham de..
then is the time when i'm in matric..
that time lots of people got handphone which is with a at least 2.0 megapixel camera..
that make me took a bit more photo.. although is tumpang people camera also, but mostly can get back de la.. but still it is not enough..
there were too much that i wanted to remember, no matter is sweet memories or not..
i really missed all of them..
my friends, my roommates, my praticummates, my secondary classmates and even is NS company friends..
i had been through a lot, and all i have is just photo in my memory, but not the rigid one..
what i afraid is someday i might not able to remember all this already..
it is a sad thing to say about..
when i look back all the photo i had taken, i really missed all that..
missed the time we spend together in Matric, the time we chatting all around, the time we go all around taiping in jomin's car, the time we spend in penang, the time we spend all together in B4.2.4, the time we spend together in H6P4, the time we spend in 1A4,2A1,3A1, 4Sc1 and 5Sc1... and much more..
but still.. now i will appreciate what i have now..
i'll try to take more picture as my rigid memory, p/s: who knows i might get amnesia.. >.< appreciate the time, roommate, coursemates, collegemates and also friends in UKM la.. this will make sure that when i start working that time, the same things won't happen for twice lo..
i really missed you all...
- H6P4
-B4.2.4
actually i'm not a person that really like to take photo, the photos i had taken was really not much la.. i mean before enter UKM..
mostly is because i don't have a handphone with a camera and even though we have camera, it's the analog de..
when in form 4, finally we had the first ever digital camera in our house, but unfortunately, it is not that "hightech" that it is about 3 or 4 megapixel.. and it is reali heavy..
you can imagine the size of it de, it is almost the size of the normal analog camera..
SO, that means it make no different in our life..
the most photos i had taken is during the form 5.. i mean during secondary school...
and the worst is i always tumpang people camera and normally people will forget to give me the photo de.. so, quite cham de..
then is the time when i'm in matric..
that time lots of people got handphone which is with a at least 2.0 megapixel camera..
that make me took a bit more photo.. although is tumpang people camera also, but mostly can get back de la.. but still it is not enough..
there were too much that i wanted to remember, no matter is sweet memories or not..
i really missed all of them..
my friends, my roommates, my praticummates, my secondary classmates and even is NS company friends..
i had been through a lot, and all i have is just photo in my memory, but not the rigid one..
what i afraid is someday i might not able to remember all this already..
it is a sad thing to say about..
when i look back all the photo i had taken, i really missed all that..
missed the time we spend together in Matric, the time we chatting all around, the time we go all around taiping in jomin's car, the time we spend in penang, the time we spend all together in B4.2.4, the time we spend together in H6P4, the time we spend in 1A4,2A1,3A1, 4Sc1 and 5Sc1... and much more..
but still.. now i will appreciate what i have now..
i'll try to take more picture as my rigid memory, p/s: who knows i might get amnesia.. >.< appreciate the time, roommate, coursemates, collegemates and also friends in UKM la.. this will make sure that when i start working that time, the same things won't happen for twice lo..
i really missed you all...
-JM, PY, GK, WL, SB
-kem jiwa murni
- H6P4
-B4.2.4
-SMJK Hua Lian 2002-2006
-CY,MS
and much more..
-CY,MS
tiREdnEsSsS...
wHaT hApPeneD tHis f3w dAys makE mE fE3L eXhaUstED aRH!!!!
tHe sTatIstIC AsSiGnment aNd aLsO tHE cOgnItIvE pSycHolOgy eXpeRiMEnt aLmOsT dRivE mE cRazY !!! @.@
fOr ThIS fEw dAys I dOn eVen hAv3 eNougH tImE tO sLe3p..
3-4 hOuRs pEr dAyS..
pLuS nOw iS cRitiCal pEriOd tIm3...
thIs MaKe tHingS b3cOme eVeN wOrSt...
I'm rEaLly V3Ry tIrED aLrEadY..
fiNaL iS cOmIng bUt I hAveN EveN toUCh tHe BoOks...
sO, I rEaLLy hOpE tHaT tHingS wiLL TurN InTo tHe BrIGht sId3..
I dOn'T EveN kNow hOw lOng I cAn sTaY wItH tHis tErRiBle lAcKing oF sL33p..
sO, dO pRaY fOr m3 fOr nOt faiNteD iN tHE mIDdl3 oF tH3 cLasS oR iN tH3 midDL3 Of tH3 rOaD lA...
tHe sTatIstIC AsSiGnment aNd aLsO tHE cOgnItIvE pSycHolOgy eXpeRiMEnt aLmOsT dRivE mE cRazY !!! @.@
fOr ThIS fEw dAys I dOn eVen hAv3 eNougH tImE tO sLe3p..
3-4 hOuRs pEr dAyS..
pLuS nOw iS cRitiCal pEriOd tIm3...
thIs MaKe tHingS b3cOme eVeN wOrSt...
I'm rEaLly V3Ry tIrED aLrEadY..
fiNaL iS cOmIng bUt I hAveN EveN toUCh tHe BoOks...
sO, I rEaLLy hOpE tHaT tHingS wiLL TurN InTo tHe BrIGht sId3..
I dOn'T EveN kNow hOw lOng I cAn sTaY wItH tHis tErRiBle lAcKing oF sL33p..
sO, dO pRaY fOr m3 fOr nOt faiNteD iN tHE mIDdl3 oF tH3 cLasS oR iN tH3 midDL3 Of tH3 rOaD lA...
bz season...
DIn UpDate thIs BlOg cOs rECently I aM qUitE buSy ar!!!
stArT fRom 14th Mac, I hAv 3 diNner folLowiNg eacH..
1st is AmiN mInG Hua stEamBoat ceLEbrAtion aT sErdAng...
2nd is aMin ABADI at DECTAR..
3rd is Pr diNNer Nite at HoteL eQ..
sO, u cAn imAgiNE hW maNy KG I gAin !!
haHA!!
sO, Nw neEd to reDUce weIgHt adY lO...
bY tHe wAy, I sHall Post sOme pIc dE...
I lIke thIs Pic Vry Much..
deCiSion...
after thinking for a while and listening to all my friends advice, finally i came up with the decision. i plan to do that in my way. as G say, when we are mad about something, only devil will be happy. i cannot control myself from not thinking about it. but i can try. why making myself suffer within all this. when i manage to do the two F, then I'll be free of this thing. i think now i can start trying, try to forgive and forget. start to think from her perspective and stop blamming her but look into myself. I'll still treat her as friend, even she might not want me to do that. If so, that is her part of problem already, as long as i'm comfort with what i'm doing, and as long as i'm not hurting people and myself in purpose.
by the way, thk G, SL and MW, you all did help me in this situation...
by the way, thk G, SL and MW, you all did help me in this situation...
the trUth!!!
finally i kno the truth...
actually when i been told about tat, i was like strike by lighting..
i nvr have the intention to do that but she appear like turning all my meaning the other way round...
especially bout the dekan thing...
i can swear that i juz ask her as it is juz a normal chit-chat topic..
it's reali a "walau" for that lo...
when i thk of like wanna settle the thing, she is busy..
and when she is kind of free, then i'm busy...
for me, she is a bit self-centred.. but maybe so do me..
when two self-centred people meet, this is the consequences...
what to do??
now can only wait lo.. wait until she is free lo...
although that time i might not have time for it, but stil need to settle this things down...
although it's quite impossible for me, but to avoid her from misunderstanding anymore, this is the only way...
cannot say she is selfish when i was told that she claimed that i'm selfish also...
i dunno what's my feeling right now because i'm really blank!!!
just hoping that this thing will end soon..
only two outcome i'll get..
either be friend or not be friend..
actually when i been told about tat, i was like strike by lighting..
i nvr have the intention to do that but she appear like turning all my meaning the other way round...
especially bout the dekan thing...
i can swear that i juz ask her as it is juz a normal chit-chat topic..
it's reali a "walau" for that lo...
when i thk of like wanna settle the thing, she is busy..
and when she is kind of free, then i'm busy...
for me, she is a bit self-centred.. but maybe so do me..
when two self-centred people meet, this is the consequences...
what to do??
now can only wait lo.. wait until she is free lo...
although that time i might not have time for it, but stil need to settle this things down...
although it's quite impossible for me, but to avoid her from misunderstanding anymore, this is the only way...
cannot say she is selfish when i was told that she claimed that i'm selfish also...
i dunno what's my feeling right now because i'm really blank!!!
just hoping that this thing will end soon..
only two outcome i'll get..
either be friend or not be friend..
失去方向感的我~~~
不懂为什么，感觉上，最近的我好像失去了方向感···
不管做什么都好，好像都不是我来的，就像失去了灵魂似的···
回到了房间，好像都不懂要做什么似的！
是忙到麻木了吗？
不懂···
是我没有把灵魂带回来吗？
不懂···
心在哪里？
神在哪里？
我不断的寻找着，因为我不想因为这样而失去自我···
最近，朋友不懂怎么了，好像都遇到问题··
他们遇到问题时，却不再向我提出了，反而渐渐的远离···
曾经，她跟我朋友说过， “你的朋友都在伤害我！！”
其实，这句话重重地伤害了我，
我不懂我哪里伤害了她， 也想不通，因为我们之间的交际已经越来越少了··
当一个人没有方向感时，就像是整个天地只剩下自己一个人了！！
慌张，恐惧，害怕···
就在这时候，爸爸像懂得我的困境似的，打了一通电话给我··
但了将近一个半小时， 也让我对困扰我的问题，有了比较明确的看法了··
但，我始终没将朋友之间的问题告诉了爸爸··
因为我知道这是我的人生，所以不可能要爸爸为我解决所有的的问题的！
无论如何，谢谢你，DADDY!!!
不管做什么都好，好像都不是我来的，就像失去了灵魂似的···
回到了房间，好像都不懂要做什么似的！
是忙到麻木了吗？
不懂···
是我没有把灵魂带回来吗？
不懂···
心在哪里？
神在哪里？
我不断的寻找着，因为我不想因为这样而失去自我···
最近，朋友不懂怎么了，好像都遇到问题··
他们遇到问题时，却不再向我提出了，反而渐渐的远离···
曾经，她跟我朋友说过， “你的朋友都在伤害我！！”
其实，这句话重重地伤害了我，
我不懂我哪里伤害了她， 也想不通，因为我们之间的交际已经越来越少了··
当一个人没有方向感时，就像是整个天地只剩下自己一个人了！！
慌张，恐惧，害怕···
就在这时候，爸爸像懂得我的困境似的，打了一通电话给我··
但了将近一个半小时， 也让我对困扰我的问题，有了比较明确的看法了··
但，我始终没将朋友之间的问题告诉了爸爸··
因为我知道这是我的人生，所以不可能要爸爸为我解决所有的的问题的！
无论如何，谢谢你，DADDY!!!
HurT...
am i getting hurt?
due to what she say?
"all your frens are hurting me!!"
ya...
honestly, I'm hurt..
yesterday, we are rushing for her birthday present and birthday card..
and try to giv it to her at sharp 12.00 o'clock..
something happened and this make us unable to do as we wish..
but, she's like not happy with it..
as if we never celebrate her birthday, she's still ok with it..
i was hoping that she would feel our heart when we give her the surprise..
but , it is not!!!
ish... what actually happened??
can anyone tell me?
can u be honest to be?
telling wat make u feel that i'm hurting you..
due to what she say?
"all your frens are hurting me!!"
ya...
honestly, I'm hurt..
yesterday, we are rushing for her birthday present and birthday card..
and try to giv it to her at sharp 12.00 o'clock..
something happened and this make us unable to do as we wish..
but, she's like not happy with it..
as if we never celebrate her birthday, she's still ok with it..
i was hoping that she would feel our heart when we give her the surprise..
but , it is not!!!
ish... what actually happened??
can anyone tell me?
can u be honest to be?
telling wat make u feel that i'm hurting you..
友情=人生？？
其实，一段堪称完美的友情有可能出现吗？
所谓的完美是指没有裂痕，没有起伏不定的时候..
可是，问问自己，有可能吗？
我们会期待，可是有可能发生吗？
这么多年来，自己经历过许许多多的风风雨雨..
每次都让我感受到人的多变...
可能前一刻，我们之间的友情是好好的；
可是到了下一刻，她可以转过身来反问你是谁？
友情不可能完美无缺，
就像人生一样，是有起有落的...
经历过各种各样的人和事，
看透了不少，也参透了不少...
我想，重点是在原谅和忘记..
就像两个F，FORGIVE + FORGET
是一个信主的朋友告诉我的...
可是要做到这两个‘F’，很难..
可时间会是最好的冲缓剂，
当事情渐渐的在心中褐下它的踪迹时，
其实我们已经不在意了...
试问有谁不曾和朋友发生摩擦？
可是有谁又愿意因为小小的摩擦而失去珍贵的友情呢？
所谓的完美是指没有裂痕，没有起伏不定的时候..
可是，问问自己，有可能吗？
我们会期待，可是有可能发生吗？
这么多年来，自己经历过许许多多的风风雨雨..
每次都让我感受到人的多变...
可能前一刻，我们之间的友情是好好的；
可是到了下一刻，她可以转过身来反问你是谁？
友情不可能完美无缺，
就像人生一样，是有起有落的...
经历过各种各样的人和事，
看透了不少，也参透了不少...
我想，重点是在原谅和忘记..
就像两个F，FORGIVE + FORGET
是一个信主的朋友告诉我的...
可是要做到这两个‘F’，很难..
可时间会是最好的冲缓剂，
当事情渐渐的在心中褐下它的踪迹时，
其实我们已经不在意了...
试问有谁不曾和朋友发生摩擦？
可是有谁又愿意因为小小的摩擦而失去珍贵的友情呢？
自己的选择
当我很忙的时候，就会怨天为何一天只有二十四小时呢？
可是，现在我明白了..
当时间太多时，我们并不会真正的去珍惜它··
惟有当时间是有限时，我们才会不断地去利用每分每秒..
可笑吧！人性就是酱吧！！
最近都过着蛮忙碌的生活，忙到很少打电话回家··
想象真的有点惭愧吧···
即时几忙也好，也应该打电话回家抱个平安的··
这是我应该改进的地方！！
以前在matric 时， 家人的声音就像是我的精神粮食，支撑着我！！
可是来到了这里，有了各种各样的娱乐和忙碌的生活，电话已经变得不这么重要了！！
真的很不应该！惭愧中****
这些日子里，那忙碌可是充实的生活让我觉得自己真的变了··
习惯了离家的感觉，对生活在外已麻木了··
可是依然想念家人的声音，想念妈妈的厨艺，想念家乡的朋友们··
但一旦我披上大学生这个大衣时，很多时候我并不被允许这么做··
因为我已经忙到天昏地暗的地步了···
有时想到家人，鼻子会酸，眼眶会积满了泪水··
可是给予由他人在现场，眼泪只能在眼眶里打转而不能掉下来！！
可是我告诉自己这是我自己选的路，所以要很勇敢地走下去！！！
家人会使我永远的避风港，可是我并不能永远依靠他们，有一天，我总得自己生活的···
想到这里，眼泪真的忍不住掉了下来··
独立的牺牲真的要这么大吗？
强迫自己独立真的这么痛苦吗？
我爱我的家人，真的很爱···
可是想到我无法在他们身边陪伴着他们，心就痛得无法呼吸···
这是我的选择，我选择离开家乡，来到了这个陌生的天地去求学··
也因为时间的关系，最近没法子跟他们好好的联络，真的很惭愧··
也是为了生活，为了将来，那代价会否太大了吗？
爸爸会说，这是天给予你的考验，经过了，就代表自己有成长了··
其实我都明白的，可是为何这过程中要这么的折磨呢？
平时，我都不曾表现出来，因为那是因为我很理智的明白这是我成长的一部分··
所以，当那不理智的我无法承受时，就会像现在酱吧！！
想想，明天我就回家了··
那会是我一个很好的机会，一定要好好地珍惜很家人相处的时光了··
因为我不懂几时还会回家了···
可能会要等到九月的放假吧！！
我开始明白我沙捞越的朋友了，他们比我更惨吧！！
加油吧！！相信自己~~
可是，现在我明白了..
当时间太多时，我们并不会真正的去珍惜它··
惟有当时间是有限时，我们才会不断地去利用每分每秒..
可笑吧！人性就是酱吧！！
最近都过着蛮忙碌的生活，忙到很少打电话回家··
想象真的有点惭愧吧···
即时几忙也好，也应该打电话回家抱个平安的··
这是我应该改进的地方！！
以前在matric 时， 家人的声音就像是我的精神粮食，支撑着我！！
可是来到了这里，有了各种各样的娱乐和忙碌的生活，电话已经变得不这么重要了！！
真的很不应该！惭愧中****
这些日子里，那忙碌可是充实的生活让我觉得自己真的变了··
习惯了离家的感觉，对生活在外已麻木了··
可是依然想念家人的声音，想念妈妈的厨艺，想念家乡的朋友们··
但一旦我披上大学生这个大衣时，很多时候我并不被允许这么做··
因为我已经忙到天昏地暗的地步了···
有时想到家人，鼻子会酸，眼眶会积满了泪水··
可是给予由他人在现场，眼泪只能在眼眶里打转而不能掉下来！！
可是我告诉自己这是我自己选的路，所以要很勇敢地走下去！！！
家人会使我永远的避风港，可是我并不能永远依靠他们，有一天，我总得自己生活的···
想到这里，眼泪真的忍不住掉了下来··
独立的牺牲真的要这么大吗？
强迫自己独立真的这么痛苦吗？
我爱我的家人，真的很爱···
可是想到我无法在他们身边陪伴着他们，心就痛得无法呼吸···
这是我的选择，我选择离开家乡，来到了这个陌生的天地去求学··
也因为时间的关系，最近没法子跟他们好好的联络，真的很惭愧··
也是为了生活，为了将来，那代价会否太大了吗？
爸爸会说，这是天给予你的考验，经过了，就代表自己有成长了··
其实我都明白的，可是为何这过程中要这么的折磨呢？
平时，我都不曾表现出来，因为那是因为我很理智的明白这是我成长的一部分··
所以，当那不理智的我无法承受时，就会像现在酱吧！！
想想，明天我就回家了··
那会是我一个很好的机会，一定要好好地珍惜很家人相处的时光了··
因为我不懂几时还会回家了···
可能会要等到九月的放假吧！！
我开始明白我沙捞越的朋友了，他们比我更惨吧！！
加油吧！！相信自己~~
EXAM ANXIETY!!
What happened to me??
i cant even calm myself and try on doing revision..
things are getting worst but now me still havent really get ready..
am i too confident in myself or i'm too afraid of it??
My mind get blank while thinking tomorrow's mid sem exam...
I cant even imagine how m i going to answer the question!
I read already but things happen that juz couldn't remember it..
I guess i'm facing exam anxiety, under stress ar!!!
Really have no idea what's going on with me..
blur blur and blur...@_@
i cant even calm myself and try on doing revision..
things are getting worst but now me still havent really get ready..
am i too confident in myself or i'm too afraid of it??
My mind get blank while thinking tomorrow's mid sem exam...
I cant even imagine how m i going to answer the question!
I read already but things happen that juz couldn't remember it..
I guess i'm facing exam anxiety, under stress ar!!!
Really have no idea what's going on with me..
blur blur and blur...@_@
exam cuming...
wat to do?? exam is coming and i'm stil haven prepared...
haiz, reali not a gd thing to share lo... althought mostly the assignment ad done..
juz left statistic asas, persepsi and pr..
but i'm stil like not having the feeling to study ar...
reali gonna be mad ad le..
wat m i going 2 do??
haiz, reali not a gd thing to share lo... althought mostly the assignment ad done..
juz left statistic asas, persepsi and pr..
but i'm stil like not having the feeling to study ar...
reali gonna be mad ad le..
wat m i going 2 do??
menganyam rotan in zaba~~~
wanna share wit u all bout it..
anyam rotan~~
it's reali hard le, at1st i nvr thought tat it'll be tat hard when seeing d demonstrater doing it easily..
but when i try it by myself, god!! it's so hard...
d rotan is so hard and v need 2 lentur it..
aft finishing, my hand turn red d.. luckily din hurt ..
but 1 thing tat wanna complain is tat they promise us 2 provide lunch but when we went outside, the food ad finish and it's onli mee goreng..
somemore gt no more fork d..
when i told d person in charge, u kno what she tell me??
she ask 2 pick one of those used fork then wash it and use...
it's quite over, izit??
i'm so angry lo, some more din provide transport 4 us...
but since they provide a knowledge 4 us.. then juz let it go la...
but zaba is reali vry big lo, no kolej de gan jue ..
mei you qing qie gan ar!!!
btw, d pencil holder tat i did is quite ugly, but stil it'ss my 1st ever hasil kraft tangan rotan ...
anyam rotan~~
it's reali hard le, at1st i nvr thought tat it'll be tat hard when seeing d demonstrater doing it easily..
but when i try it by myself, god!! it's so hard...
d rotan is so hard and v need 2 lentur it..
aft finishing, my hand turn red d.. luckily din hurt ..
but 1 thing tat wanna complain is tat they promise us 2 provide lunch but when we went outside, the food ad finish and it's onli mee goreng..
somemore gt no more fork d..
when i told d person in charge, u kno what she tell me??
she ask 2 pick one of those used fork then wash it and use...
it's quite over, izit??
i'm so angry lo, some more din provide transport 4 us...
but since they provide a knowledge 4 us.. then juz let it go la...
but zaba is reali vry big lo, no kolej de gan jue ..
mei you qing qie gan ar!!!
btw, d pencil holder tat i did is quite ugly, but stil it'ss my 1st ever hasil kraft tangan rotan ...
冲动~~
因为一时的冲动，我花了几个小时的时间去看完楼雨晴《情关》系列的小说...
真的太好看了吧！！或许我应该说楼雨晴的小说还蛮对我的味...
可是，有点不切实际的是，书中的男主角都是帅的、即使是不帅，也是有型的！！
哈哈！！ 那还符合了现代人重视外貌的标准哦！！
可是，回到现实生活中，这些东西发生的机率可说是百分之一..
那些又帅又好的人哪里可能像书中所提到的那么多啊！！
这不是悲观，而是面对现实...
书中的情景可以成为空闲时来娱乐自己、让自己发发呆的工具之一..
可是，千万别把那不可能发生的事情一再地放在心上，转则为幻想..
谈完了小说，说回那冲动吧！！
为了那冲动，我可是有付出代价的..
为了空出那几个小时，我把我的功课挪后了，然后现在才在赶！！
活该吧！！
无言啊！！
真的太好看了吧！！或许我应该说楼雨晴的小说还蛮对我的味...
可是，有点不切实际的是，书中的男主角都是帅的、即使是不帅，也是有型的！！
哈哈！！ 那还符合了现代人重视外貌的标准哦！！
可是，回到现实生活中，这些东西发生的机率可说是百分之一..
那些又帅又好的人哪里可能像书中所提到的那么多啊！！
这不是悲观，而是面对现实...
书中的情景可以成为空闲时来娱乐自己、让自己发发呆的工具之一..
可是，千万别把那不可能发生的事情一再地放在心上，转则为幻想..
谈完了小说，说回那冲动吧！！
为了那冲动，我可是有付出代价的..
为了空出那几个小时，我把我的功课挪后了，然后现在才在赶！！
活该吧！！
无言啊！！
文字上的感动···
刚看完那楼雨晴的小说，真的很感触··
在阅读的同时，我的心情就随着内容的高低起伏不一...
读到伤心的PART时，我的心会像被揪着一样，很痛...
可读到开心的PART时，却会不自觉地笑了起来..
搞不好，我室友以为我神经了！！哈哈
这些文字上的感动是不会再电影或电视剧中找到的..
不管呢演员的演技有多棒，我很难去感受到那确确在在的感觉...
是个人问题吧！！
我曾经想过要当一名作家，要为人们带来文字上的享受和震撼..
可是，日子久了，就发现自己的文笔并没有想象中棒，只好放弃咯！！
有时候真的很佩服那些作家，居然可以写到让人家泪流满面，仿佛自身才是男女主角...
佩服的同时，也很羡慕...
问问自己，什么时候我才能做到酱的地步呢？？
哈哈，老了，江郎才尽了，灵感也没有了...
可悲！！
透过文字，我好像真的经历了那数不尽的爱情、亲情、友情...
作家最大的本事，我想应该是让人家透过文字，感受到自己的喜怒哀乐，反映出自身的感受...
读着书中的每一字每一句，每个情景都可以反映出自己曾经历过的，即使没经历过，那深切的感受也很逼真啊！！
朋友们，如果有机会，去看看楼雨晴的小说吧！！
在阅读的同时，我的心情就随着内容的高低起伏不一...
读到伤心的PART时，我的心会像被揪着一样，很痛...
可读到开心的PART时，却会不自觉地笑了起来..
搞不好，我室友以为我神经了！！哈哈
这些文字上的感动是不会再电影或电视剧中找到的..
不管呢演员的演技有多棒，我很难去感受到那确确在在的感觉...
是个人问题吧！！
我曾经想过要当一名作家，要为人们带来文字上的享受和震撼..
可是，日子久了，就发现自己的文笔并没有想象中棒，只好放弃咯！！
有时候真的很佩服那些作家，居然可以写到让人家泪流满面，仿佛自身才是男女主角...
佩服的同时，也很羡慕...
问问自己，什么时候我才能做到酱的地步呢？？
哈哈，老了，江郎才尽了，灵感也没有了...
可悲！！
透过文字，我好像真的经历了那数不尽的爱情、亲情、友情...
作家最大的本事，我想应该是让人家透过文字，感受到自己的喜怒哀乐，反映出自身的感受...
读着书中的每一字每一句，每个情景都可以反映出自己曾经历过的，即使没经历过，那深切的感受也很逼真啊！！
朋友们，如果有机会，去看看楼雨晴的小说吧！！
人性··
看了那tvb的长剧《珠光宝气》时， 就想到说，人真的就像戏里的角色吗？？
人家说戏如人生，人生如戏···
在很多时候，我们看到的只是表面上的东西。
人家的内心在想些什么，我们并不会知道··
可能每天更你很亲密的人，可能会在下一秒出卖你···
可是酱的人生不就过得很提心吊胆吗？
每天都要担心和堤防身边的每个人···很累吧？？
我不敢去想以后如果我的人生会否变得那样，
我并不想被身边的朋友、家人出卖··
但这是人性，没有人可以确保自己不会变···
是要变坏还是变好，那要看情况和自己的心态···
当我选择相信一个人的时候，我就会相信他，就像戏里的泰禾一样，义无反顾地相信小妹···
可是我和他不一样的地方是，一旦我发现他欺骗了我，我会崩溃，而后我永远都不会再相信他了··对谁都一样，没有例外！
所以我很真心的对待每个人，尤其是这个SEM开始···
我希望我的朋友们看到我的真心，而不会选择欺骗或出卖我··
人家说，冷漠可以保护自己不受到伤害，可是就要承受寂寞的滋味··
我曾是个冷漠的人，冷漠到我也快认不得自己了··
所以我乘还可以改变的时候，改变了自己对待人家的方式··
也因此希望人家可以感受到我的改变和真心！！
可是可能会再次受到伤害，但我觉得如果要我蒙蔽我的真心，我做不到！！
人家说戏如人生，人生如戏···
在很多时候，我们看到的只是表面上的东西。
人家的内心在想些什么，我们并不会知道··
可能每天更你很亲密的人，可能会在下一秒出卖你···
可是酱的人生不就过得很提心吊胆吗？
每天都要担心和堤防身边的每个人···很累吧？？
我不敢去想以后如果我的人生会否变得那样，
我并不想被身边的朋友、家人出卖··
但这是人性，没有人可以确保自己不会变···
是要变坏还是变好，那要看情况和自己的心态···
当我选择相信一个人的时候，我就会相信他，就像戏里的泰禾一样，义无反顾地相信小妹···
可是我和他不一样的地方是，一旦我发现他欺骗了我，我会崩溃，而后我永远都不会再相信他了··对谁都一样，没有例外！
所以我很真心的对待每个人，尤其是这个SEM开始···
我希望我的朋友们看到我的真心，而不会选择欺骗或出卖我··
人家说，冷漠可以保护自己不受到伤害，可是就要承受寂寞的滋味··
我曾是个冷漠的人，冷漠到我也快认不得自己了··
所以我乘还可以改变的时候，改变了自己对待人家的方式··
也因此希望人家可以感受到我的改变和真心！！
可是可能会再次受到伤害，但我觉得如果要我蒙蔽我的真心，我做不到！！
重新出发~~~
当回到UKM后， 那代表着以后的日子是有够我忙的！！
每个科目都有个ASSIGNMENT，再加上PSS的ASSIGNMENT我是第一组，时间上很仓促，并没有多余的时间各我做其它东西。
可能是因为放假太久了，我的步伐开始慢了下来，很多事情并不想做。
可是时间是不会等人的，一旦我错失那时间，我就没有地回头了，那代表着我将会为我那颓废的心情而后悔！！
很烦，也很大压力···
烦着功课上的问题，烦着KOLEJ的活动为何没有我的参与、担心着明年是否可以STAY COM、担心着MID SEM EXAM 是何时···一大堆的问题一直缠着我，让我在回来的这个星期里，好像失去了动力和真心的微笑··
我想，我是时候重新出发了，带着那重振的心态和全新的态度去面对着新的一年吧！！
有时候，真的期待说一天可以不止24小时··
可是我知道那是不可能的，所以只能牺牲自身的娱乐时间了···
@·@
每个科目都有个ASSIGNMENT，再加上PSS的ASSIGNMENT我是第一组，时间上很仓促，并没有多余的时间各我做其它东西。
可能是因为放假太久了，我的步伐开始慢了下来，很多事情并不想做。
可是时间是不会等人的，一旦我错失那时间，我就没有地回头了，那代表着我将会为我那颓废的心情而后悔！！
很烦，也很大压力···
烦着功课上的问题，烦着KOLEJ的活动为何没有我的参与、担心着明年是否可以STAY COM、担心着MID SEM EXAM 是何时···一大堆的问题一直缠着我，让我在回来的这个星期里，好像失去了动力和真心的微笑··
我想，我是时候重新出发了，带着那重振的心态和全新的态度去面对着新的一年吧！！
有时候，真的期待说一天可以不止24小时··
可是我知道那是不可能的，所以只能牺牲自身的娱乐时间了···
@·@
goin home
2mr gonna go home d.. hehe..tat's mean cny is juz around d corner d..
so happy cos gt so mny food waiting 4 me..
mum's cooking always is d best... am i rite?? haha
yet, going home nt representing tat i'm free 4 d holidays...
i stil nid 2 brin back 2 damn thick books juz bcos i hav a presentation on week 7th..
omg!!! hw come my lecturer so cruel tat she make me suffering with assignment during d cny time le??
but anyhw, no point blaming at her anymore cos it's ad bcum a fact...
d only thing tat i can do is tat trying 2 finish up it asap le ma...
by the way, hope u guys enjoy ur cny as well la...
hermit, jia you o~~ ^^
so happy cos gt so mny food waiting 4 me..
mum's cooking always is d best... am i rite?? haha
yet, going home nt representing tat i'm free 4 d holidays...
i stil nid 2 brin back 2 damn thick books juz bcos i hav a presentation on week 7th..
omg!!! hw come my lecturer so cruel tat she make me suffering with assignment during d cny time le??
but anyhw, no point blaming at her anymore cos it's ad bcum a fact...
d only thing tat i can do is tat trying 2 finish up it asap le ma...
by the way, hope u guys enjoy ur cny as well la...
hermit, jia you o~~ ^^
回忆..
看回以前的照片，和朋友谈回以前的种种， 让我不断地回忆以前所拥有的时光..
和朋友们一起度过的时光！！
既然是回忆，那也就代表是回不去的过去了。
不管我们有多么的不舍，它终究会成为过去的..
也许是因为这样，才显得回忆的美好吧！！
有很多时候，我是靠着回忆来支撑我们的友谊··
因为人会随着岁月，渐渐长大··
而在长大的同时，人生也步入了另个阶段··
人永远不可能停留在原地、停留在同一个阶段的··
而在这个时候，曾经拥有过的美好时光就是鼓励我们继续的动力之一！！
没错，我们是不可能回到过去，可是我们可以把握现在！！
之后的友谊将要靠我们的力量才能继续燃烧下去的！！
每个人在不同的人生阶段中会遇到不一样的朋友，而每个朋友都是珍贵的！！
因为能在茫茫人海中遇见，又成为朋友的话，那是多难得的一件事啊！！
所以，我会很珍惜上天给予我的每一位朋友，也会很真心地对待每个朋友的··
不求回报，只愿大家都活得开心！！！
和朋友们一起度过的时光！！
既然是回忆，那也就代表是回不去的过去了。
不管我们有多么的不舍，它终究会成为过去的..
也许是因为这样，才显得回忆的美好吧！！
有很多时候，我是靠着回忆来支撑我们的友谊··
因为人会随着岁月，渐渐长大··
而在长大的同时，人生也步入了另个阶段··
人永远不可能停留在原地、停留在同一个阶段的··
而在这个时候，曾经拥有过的美好时光就是鼓励我们继续的动力之一！！
没错，我们是不可能回到过去，可是我们可以把握现在！！
之后的友谊将要靠我们的力量才能继续燃烧下去的！！
每个人在不同的人生阶段中会遇到不一样的朋友，而每个朋友都是珍贵的！！
因为能在茫茫人海中遇见，又成为朋友的话，那是多难得的一件事啊！！
所以，我会很珍惜上天给予我的每一位朋友，也会很真心地对待每个朋友的··
不求回报，只愿大家都活得开心！！！
bcum understanding.. hehe
finally, i found out tat myself start 2 bcum understanding d..
i'm x longer struggling juz 2 figure out wat fren reali like...
yesterday, i talk 2 my fren and she seems like having d same problem i face in d past 2 years..
i'm glad tat i ad been through all tat and tat make me feel like i'm qualified 2 giv my fren some of my opinion...
i kno it's hard 2 pretend tat nothing happen since it hurt us so much..
but tat is d best way 2 solve tis kind of problem..
juz 2 kno 1 thing , tat is v ppl r human, x like animals, v hav feeling and thinking de..
when 2 ppl bcum close fren, d 1st thing 2 do is 2 kno ur fren..
once u discover ur fren r nt as u thought, tis doesnt mean tat ur fren change..
it's juz tat u din kno her so well..
it's impossible 2 controll, o not 2 say control but understand ur frens' behavior.
v r all different person, no matter hw close v are, ther's stil a gap within us de..
and my opinion is tat, once u discover ur fren is nt as wat u expect, dont ever blame them..
juz tell urself tat u haven kno her so well lo..
don ever bcos of different point of view/principle/style of life, and turn down ur frenship..
i tel u, it's nt worth de..
trust me la..
我已经变得不在乎了.. 也明白说有缘成为朋友是前世修来的福，不论是怎样的朋友也好，在茫茫人海中能遇见，已不容易了。所以要珍惜！！
i bcum x so care bout it d, and oso start 2 understand tat it's hard 2 hav fren and no matter wat kind of fren, once v bcum fren, it's ad x easy lo.. since d world r so big, so, v hav 2 appreciate al our frens..
i'm x longer struggling juz 2 figure out wat fren reali like...
yesterday, i talk 2 my fren and she seems like having d same problem i face in d past 2 years..
i'm glad tat i ad been through all tat and tat make me feel like i'm qualified 2 giv my fren some of my opinion...
i kno it's hard 2 pretend tat nothing happen since it hurt us so much..
but tat is d best way 2 solve tis kind of problem..
juz 2 kno 1 thing , tat is v ppl r human, x like animals, v hav feeling and thinking de..
when 2 ppl bcum close fren, d 1st thing 2 do is 2 kno ur fren..
once u discover ur fren r nt as u thought, tis doesnt mean tat ur fren change..
it's juz tat u din kno her so well..
it's impossible 2 controll, o not 2 say control but understand ur frens' behavior.
v r all different person, no matter hw close v are, ther's stil a gap within us de..
and my opinion is tat, once u discover ur fren is nt as wat u expect, dont ever blame them..
juz tell urself tat u haven kno her so well lo..
don ever bcos of different point of view/principle/style of life, and turn down ur frenship..
i tel u, it's nt worth de..
trust me la..
我已经变得不在乎了.. 也明白说有缘成为朋友是前世修来的福，不论是怎样的朋友也好，在茫茫人海中能遇见，已不容易了。所以要珍惜！！
i bcum x so care bout it d, and oso start 2 understand tat it's hard 2 hav fren and no matter wat kind of fren, once v bcum fren, it's ad x easy lo.. since d world r so big, so, v hav 2 appreciate al our frens..
1st time..
erm... actually me reali rare to post my blog here lo..
usually i'll update my blog within d frenster de..
but ever since i opened this blog site, so me ma try 2 wrote something la..
i'll oso try 2 import my blog into here de..
btw, nw i reali hav nothing 2 do..
hehe..
it's reali terible 2 say tat when i saw all my fren is bz everyday de..
this is wat i going 2 face lo, free for half of d sem then damn bz for d rest..
hope life 'll bcum better this year..
usually i'll update my blog within d frenster de..
but ever since i opened this blog site, so me ma try 2 wrote something la..
i'll oso try 2 import my blog into here de..
btw, nw i reali hav nothing 2 do..
hehe..
it's reali terible 2 say tat when i saw all my fren is bz everyday de..
this is wat i going 2 face lo, free for half of d sem then damn bz for d rest..
hope life 'll bcum better this year..
结束了...
经过了几个月的努力，终于在10/1/09， 我们民华的新春活动圆满成功..
在那结束的霎那间，真的觉得时间过得很快..
那一幕幕我们熬夜开会，绞尽脑汁地筹备的过程一一重现我眼前..
当然，在筹备过程中，不愉快的事情曾经发生，可是毕竟大家都是为了民华的利益而有所冲突..
当今天最后一个节目为我们民华新春活动画下一个完美的句点时，当下真的很感动咯！！
至少之前的努力并没有白费，那被牺牲掉的睡眠也算值得了.. ^^
虽然离新年还有一段时间，然而在当晚我却深深地感受到那浓浓的新年气氛..
想到新年，就想到回家；
想到回家，就想到妈妈的佳肴..
好像回家吃妈妈煮的东西哦！！
过了今晚，我终于可以好好的睡上一觉了..
身体的免疫系统经过这几天便得很差，喉咙痛了很多天..
药吃了也没有用，还是很痛..
不过没关系，过了今天就可以好好的休息了..
除此，我也恭喜每位民华舍民，也谢谢你们...
因为大家的努力，所以我们才会酱成功的！！
在那结束的霎那间，真的觉得时间过得很快..
那一幕幕我们熬夜开会，绞尽脑汁地筹备的过程一一重现我眼前..
当然，在筹备过程中，不愉快的事情曾经发生，可是毕竟大家都是为了民华的利益而有所冲突..
当今天最后一个节目为我们民华新春活动画下一个完美的句点时，当下真的很感动咯！！
至少之前的努力并没有白费，那被牺牲掉的睡眠也算值得了.. ^^
虽然离新年还有一段时间，然而在当晚我却深深地感受到那浓浓的新年气氛..
想到新年，就想到回家；
想到回家，就想到妈妈的佳肴..
好像回家吃妈妈煮的东西哦！！
过了今晚，我终于可以好好的睡上一觉了..
身体的免疫系统经过这几天便得很差，喉咙痛了很多天..
药吃了也没有用，还是很痛..
不过没关系，过了今天就可以好好的休息了..
除此，我也恭喜每位民华舍民，也谢谢你们...
因为大家的努力，所以我们才会酱成功的！！
无题~~
今天就只是很纯粹的想和大家分享我的感觉而已~~~
今天只是借情绪这个比较有发挥的话题来写，希望大家看得出我想要表达的意思..
看了几篇的文章，有感而发就把它写下来了...
其实很多的决定是在于自己而已，就只是看你愿不愿意去付出，一旦决定了，就不要后悔..
不然的话，那会是一条白走的路而已, 并没有任何的意义...
情绪，究竟有多大的本领？？
它可以让一个人失去理智、蒙蔽一个人的眼睛，
让他来操控我们，
去做些伤害自己也伤害别人的东西...
不管我们的本领有多高，也不敢说永远不会情绪化！！
有些人的情绪是收在内心的，有些人则是表露在外...
人非草木皆有情, 人是不可能没有情绪的...
那为什么我们会在情绪化的时候，往往都会做出些伤害别人的事，过后又后悔不已呢？
为何要这么的矛盾？
既然选择了伤害，就不要后悔；既然怕会后悔，就别伤害人..
要知道的是，人心是用肉做的，是有感觉的..
一旦伤口一划上，疤痕永远都会在..
时间会将疤痕淡化，可是不是将它消除。
不过，如果往另外个方向去思考的话，没了伤害，人是不会成长的..
伤害让我们学会了保护自己，如果当初不曾有人伤害过我们，我们就不会知道受伤害的滋味...
也因为受伤了，所以才会更加的警惕..
也从受伤中学会了许多，成长了许多..
站在一个第三者的角度来看，
是人都用着极端的看法去对待“伤害”，
有的人宁愿受伤害，因为他认为至少他曾经勇敢过；
也有人宁愿去逃避，也不愿意去面对，因为他害怕伤害..
人就是要在各种各样的选择中徘徊，
然后做出自己的决定，决定自己的人生...
我相信人的一生是注定的，可是至于怎样去走，那是你自己决定的..
今天只是借情绪这个比较有发挥的话题来写，希望大家看得出我想要表达的意思..
看了几篇的文章，有感而发就把它写下来了...
其实很多的决定是在于自己而已，就只是看你愿不愿意去付出，一旦决定了，就不要后悔..
不然的话，那会是一条白走的路而已, 并没有任何的意义...
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