我不应该再相信的
我真的很笨
谁对我好
谁是象征似的做出来
看下去就懂了
我应该把娇的话听下去
应该开始停止相信
停止给予希望
渐渐地离开和划开距离
为的就是不让我自己再次受到伤害
Search Engine
自定义搜索
承诺
我承诺过
说放假回来的我会不一样
承诺过的话
就应该实现它
我说过我会很拼
我就一定会
我说过我不会让他打败我
我就一定会解决问题
我说过我会如何应对问题
我就会完美地解决它
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感谢关心我的朋友
到了现在，
谁是关心我的
谁对我好的
我有眼睛的
我看得明白、看得透彻
谢谢鼓励我的朋友
你们的用心还有话语
我都收起来了
我把它放在心里面的一个重要位置
好提醒自己
以后的路要怎么走
*
我不是一个典型的双子
我有点像金牛
我很别扭
我很重感情
我不是像你们想象中的那么坚强、勇敢
我也会有害怕的时候
我也会有不想向前冲的时候
可是
谢谢你，
是你提醒了我
我是个不让自己后悔的人
如果我继续颓废下去的话
那我真的一定会后悔
*
所以，
承诺就是承诺
不管有多难、有多苦
我都一定可以跨越这难题的
只要我相信我自己~
说放假回来的我会不一样
承诺过的话
就应该实现它
我说过我会很拼
我就一定会
我说过我不会让他打败我
我就一定会解决问题
我说过我会如何应对问题
我就会完美地解决它
*
感谢关心我的朋友
到了现在，
谁是关心我的
谁对我好的
我有眼睛的
我看得明白、看得透彻
谢谢鼓励我的朋友
你们的用心还有话语
我都收起来了
我把它放在心里面的一个重要位置
好提醒自己
以后的路要怎么走
*
我不是一个典型的双子
我有点像金牛
我很别扭
我很重感情
我不是像你们想象中的那么坚强、勇敢
我也会有害怕的时候
我也会有不想向前冲的时候
可是
谢谢你，
是你提醒了我
我是个不让自己后悔的人
如果我继续颓废下去的话
那我真的一定会后悔
*
所以，
承诺就是承诺
不管有多难、有多苦
我都一定可以跨越这难题的
只要我相信我自己~
敏感度
敏感度高的人像刺猬
一旦发现自己周遭隐藏危机
立即浑身解数，
积极地保护自己
*
敏感度低的人
就像是鸵鸟一样
既然发现危机，一样不会逃跑
只会傻傻地站在原地，
把头埋在土里
以眼不见为净来安慰自己
*
刺猬，为了保护自己
往往都会伤害接近自己的人
*
鸵鸟，由于不会躲避
因而都会很友善地面对所有的人
*
那
我是什么呢？
我想
我应该是刺猬
因为一旦我发现让我不开心的事情时
我做的
不是冷静的面对
而是
残酷的对战
*
有一句话
深深地表明了我的心态
“伤口，不管过了多久，伤疤依然存在”
我的心算是伤痕累累了
我承受不了再大的伤害了
我怕我会崩溃
我怕我以后都不会再相信
*
有时候
我反而期望自己是鸵鸟
看不到的，就不用去面对
神经大条一点，有时候也是件好事
*
我很希望现在有人可以借借我耳朵
听听我的情绪
结结我的困惑
*
突然之间我很想念你们
想念每次你们听我发牢骚的时候
就只是静静地听
听我说完，让我舒坦一点
现在的我
终于明白为什么你总是说，
你讲就好，我听
黄品莹，你给我回来啊！！！！！！！
=(
一旦发现自己周遭隐藏危机
立即浑身解数，
积极地保护自己
*
敏感度低的人
就像是鸵鸟一样
既然发现危机，一样不会逃跑
只会傻傻地站在原地，
把头埋在土里
以眼不见为净来安慰自己
*
刺猬，为了保护自己
往往都会伤害接近自己的人
*
鸵鸟，由于不会躲避
因而都会很友善地面对所有的人
*
那
我是什么呢？
我想
我应该是刺猬
因为一旦我发现让我不开心的事情时
我做的
不是冷静的面对
而是
残酷的对战
*
有一句话
深深地表明了我的心态
“伤口，不管过了多久，伤疤依然存在”
我的心算是伤痕累累了
我承受不了再大的伤害了
我怕我会崩溃
我怕我以后都不会再相信
*
有时候
我反而期望自己是鸵鸟
看不到的，就不用去面对
神经大条一点，有时候也是件好事
*
我很希望现在有人可以借借我耳朵
听听我的情绪
结结我的困惑
*
突然之间我很想念你们
想念每次你们听我发牢骚的时候
就只是静静地听
听我说完，让我舒坦一点
现在的我
终于明白为什么你总是说，
你讲就好，我听
黄品莹，你给我回来啊！！！！！！！
=(
感触
这个礼拜的我超级忙
因为我们需要准备个LLDS，像个领导激励营酱的东西
第一次设计真么大的Session
第一次正式当Faci,
第一次兼任Faci，OC
总的来说，我真的是感触良多~
看到很Proactive的members
看到大家对自己的肯定
看到大家对自己的评语
真的让我深深地提醒了自己当初为何做出这个决定
*
我是个要求很高的人
对自己相对地也严格许多
很多时候，我好像忘了“乐”这个字
我忘了忙中取乐
我忘了说把我应该做的事看成了一种乐趣、一种享受
是我太过于执着了
我把责任这两个字看得太重太重
重到让自己差点喘不过气了
*
这个营让我体验了不同的东西
虽然我依然不太相信自己
但，当中有几句话是让我听进了心坎去了
我一直把自己放在自己觉得舒服的位置上
一旦不符合时，我便急急忙忙地想改变现状
可是，我没有想过，其实，那也是一种体验
体验失败，才会感受到成功的美好
正所谓失败为成功之母
这么简单的道理，我居然完完全全地忘了
是自己太久没有失败过了吧
忘了失败的滋味
也忘了珍惜成功的美好
*
对了，看到大家写给我的小纸条
真的很感动、很开心
它让我重新反省自己
开始有点点相信自己的能力
相信说，自己并不是那么差
*
谢谢你们，
让我有个美好的回忆，
我想，
这会是我最后一LLDS吧，除非以后的我回来当Faci
也感到欣慰，
这个星期的严重缺眠是值得的!
因为我们需要准备个LLDS，像个领导激励营酱的东西
第一次设计真么大的Session
第一次正式当Faci,
第一次兼任Faci，OC
总的来说，我真的是感触良多~
看到很Proactive的members
看到大家对自己的肯定
看到大家对自己的评语
真的让我深深地提醒了自己当初为何做出这个决定
*
我是个要求很高的人
对自己相对地也严格许多
很多时候，我好像忘了“乐”这个字
我忘了忙中取乐
我忘了说把我应该做的事看成了一种乐趣、一种享受
是我太过于执着了
我把责任这两个字看得太重太重
重到让自己差点喘不过气了
*
这个营让我体验了不同的东西
虽然我依然不太相信自己
但，当中有几句话是让我听进了心坎去了
我一直把自己放在自己觉得舒服的位置上
一旦不符合时，我便急急忙忙地想改变现状
可是，我没有想过，其实，那也是一种体验
体验失败，才会感受到成功的美好
正所谓失败为成功之母
这么简单的道理，我居然完完全全地忘了
是自己太久没有失败过了吧
忘了失败的滋味
也忘了珍惜成功的美好
*
对了，看到大家写给我的小纸条
真的很感动、很开心
它让我重新反省自己
开始有点点相信自己的能力
相信说，自己并不是那么差
*
谢谢你们，
让我有个美好的回忆，
我想，
这会是我最后一LLDS吧，除非以后的我回来当Faci
也感到欣慰，
这个星期的严重缺眠是值得的!
老了
最近，总是觉得自己苍老了许多
不知道是不是真的因为年纪越来越大
做起事情来，总是觉得力不从心
容易觉得累
累的不只是身体上的累，
更是心灵上的累
我常常觉得我很累了
我不想去面对
我想逃避
我想走开，到远远的地方
让自己好好的放松一下
本来想藉助假期
让自己抛开沉重的包袱、压力
重新的调理心态，好重新出发
可是，
我办不到
我是停下了脚步
可是我调理不回我的心态
是否因为我真的老了呢？
已经不复当年的英勇……
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最近的我，常常看到自己的缺点
常常怀疑自己的能力
常常觉得我应该可以做到更好
常常睡很少
常常早出晚归
常常把功课搁在一边
常常忘了联络朋友、家人
常常情绪失控
天啊！这不是老人才有的症状吗？
*
我原本的心灵年龄就已经比现实的来的大许多
现在我想我已经去到老年人的心态了~
好像就是Erik Erikson里第6或第7各阶段酱..
我到底要怎样才能突破自己，
再次寻回那青春的思想、英勇的姿态呢？
不知道是不是真的因为年纪越来越大
做起事情来，总是觉得力不从心
容易觉得累
累的不只是身体上的累，
更是心灵上的累
我常常觉得我很累了
我不想去面对
我想逃避
我想走开，到远远的地方
让自己好好的放松一下
本来想藉助假期
让自己抛开沉重的包袱、压力
重新的调理心态，好重新出发
可是，
我办不到
我是停下了脚步
可是我调理不回我的心态
是否因为我真的老了呢？
已经不复当年的英勇……
*
最近的我，常常看到自己的缺点
常常怀疑自己的能力
常常觉得我应该可以做到更好
常常睡很少
常常早出晚归
常常把功课搁在一边
常常忘了联络朋友、家人
常常情绪失控
天啊！这不是老人才有的症状吗？
*
我原本的心灵年龄就已经比现实的来的大许多
现在我想我已经去到老年人的心态了~
好像就是Erik Erikson里第6或第7各阶段酱..
我到底要怎样才能突破自己，
再次寻回那青春的思想、英勇的姿态呢？
爱情
爱情，在不同时代有不同的定义。现代定义为两个人基于一定的物质条件和共同的人生理想，在各自内心形成的对对方的最真挚的仰慕，并渴望对方成为自己终生伴侣的最强烈、最稳定、最专一的感情。但在远古的母系社会、古代的父系社会，爱情有另一种体验，并不是单纯的一夫一妻制。爱是生命的渴望，情是青春的畅想，爱情的意义在于：让智慧和勤劳酿造生活的芳香，用期待与持守演绎生命的乐章，用真诚和理解还有包容和信任去谱写人生的信仰。
那，是百度百科内爱情的定义~
我对爱情的定义还没到那么深，我认为，爱情是留给有资格的人去享受的。如果你是有了足够的心理准备、有了成熟的思想、有了包容的心，那你将会有条件去谈一场轰轰烈烈的爱情；可是如果你没有哪一些条件的话，那你注定要被爱情所伤、被爱情所困。爱情不是一切，可是它却能点缀你的人生~
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而这是爱情心理学的分法
喜欢式
爱情，只有亲密，没有激情和承诺，如友谊。
迷恋式
爱情，只有激情，没有亲密和承诺，如初恋。
空洞式
爱情，只有承诺，缺乏亲密和激情，如纯粹为了结婚的爱情。
浪漫式
爱情，只有激情和亲密，没有承诺，这种“爱情”崇尚过程，不在乎结果。
伴侣式
爱情，只有亲密和承诺，没有激情。这里指的是四平八稳的婚姻，只有权利、义务却没有感觉。
愚蠢式
爱情，只有激情和承诺，没有亲密。没有亲密的激情顶多只是生理上的冲动，而没有亲密的承诺只不过是空头支票。
完美式
爱情，包含激情、承诺和亲密。只有在这一类型中我们才能看到爱情的庐山真面目。
社会学家J.A.Lee将爱情分成六大类
：
(1). 性爱型（eros）：是激情爱（迷恋）的典型，重点放在性的吸引以及感官的满足。
(2). 分享型（storge）：是友谊爱的典型，特征是相互关心和有相同的兴趣与理想，以相互信任为基础的长期关系。
(3). 狂爱型（mania）：是一种占有和强迫式的爱，特征是缺乏安全感以及相当依赖，占有情人且容易吃醋。
(4). 无私型（agape）：是无我的爱，愿为伴侣牺牲自己，只管付出不管回报，将倾其所有与爱人分享一切，并致力让伴侣快乐。
(5). 实际型（pragma）：讲求实际的爱情，特点是重视回报。
(6). 游戏型（ludus）：将爱情看做是一种游戏，玩弄爱情，关系不稳定。
那是由Robert Sternberg写的Triangular theory of Love. 说明了爱情有3大成分组成~
那是他的理论，那我的呢？
我绝对同意因为那3大成分几乎是基本的元素来的~
除此之外，爱情包含的应该是适当的时机吧！
有时候，有了亲密、承诺、激情，偏偏就不是对的时候
有时候，对象来了，可是却少了些化学作用
有时候，到你想要谈恋爱的时候，却没有对象啊
所以，我看来，爱情是需要4大成份的：
亲密、激情、承诺和时机！！
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最近眼看身边的朋友一一地陷入爱情的世界
进进出出的
看得我眼花缭乱~
有的甜蜜、有的哀愁
而身边的朋友、家人也异常的关心我的感情世界
不懂是不是大家认为我年纪不轻了，
是时候应该尝尝爱情的滋味了呢？
想泼一泼冷水说，
本小姐还没有心理准备、没有成熟的思想、没有绝佳的包容心
所以，那种遍体鳞伤的爱情我不想要~
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想看我陷入爱情世界的朋友们，
谢谢关心了！
我想，应该还会有一段日子吧！
除非，我突然改变主意吧~
不过应该几率很小吧！=P
Imbalanced me
It's been the Holidays that I waited for so long..
While taking some break time, I discover something within myself..
I notice that I started to become imbalance.
Imbalance in term of everything..
I am not as healthy as before, easily fall sick and get tired..
I am not as rational as before, emotion comes and goes easily..
I am not as steady as before, I doubt myself more and more frequent recently..
When I look at my coursemates, some of them are getting closer and closer..
Meanwhile I felt that I been so far away from them.
I neither wanna talk nor think about why it happen..
This make me reflect back on the Friendship issue I brought last time..
Friend,
What make a friend?
How people can be good friends?
Why people willing to spend time, effort, and energy on people that they call friend but not to the others?
Where can find those that are "gam" to be friends?
Who are those that can be consider friends and what differentiate them from others?
When can these friendship last for long?
For me,
Relationship, either friendship or romantic kind of relationship,
is fragile, very fragile..
X can be friend with B when problem 1 occur
X can be friend with C or D when problem 2,3 occur but no longer friend B..
Simple problems might kill the relationship..
A simple misunderstanding will cause a big trouble in the relationship..
Since it is so fragile, should we give more time on it?
But the matter is HOW?
Every single individual in this world have their own thinking and way of doing things.
Your way might match with individual A,B,C,D but not with X,Y,Z
Aren't it been very tiring if to match all by altering our own style?
As stated in my own profile there,
I describe myself as a rational and radical person..
Yes, indeed, I am still a rational and radical person..
I been tired of adjusting
I been tired of waiting
I been tired of hoping other to understand me
I been tired of seeing all those easy changed world
YET
This is the reality world
This is what happen in real life
This is what we call as LIFE
This post gonna be a real long one..
Am trying very hard to release all my imbalance emotions..
If I got the time, I want to get close to everyone that I wish to..
If I got the patient, I want to listen to all friends problem..
If I got the passion, I want to change all the bad and negative thinking among friends..
The matter is, I don't have all that..
Who don't wish to have a lot of friends and people care for them?
Who don't wish to get people listen to them?
I didn't mention my problems always doesn't mean I don't have problem..
It doesn't means that I don't need time from other to listen to me..
It doesn't means that I been so selfish that I care so little about others..
Yet, I am glad I have a bunch of best pals with me..
Thanks again to you guys!
When I think of you all, I felt much better and balanced back!
This holiday would be a right timing for me to balance up all things and get back to the usual me again!
p/s: This post is just a sharing of emotion and thought, not referring to any single object nor people ^^
While taking some break time, I discover something within myself..
I notice that I started to become imbalance.
Imbalance in term of everything..
I am not as healthy as before, easily fall sick and get tired..
I am not as rational as before, emotion comes and goes easily..
I am not as steady as before, I doubt myself more and more frequent recently..
When I look at my coursemates, some of them are getting closer and closer..
Meanwhile I felt that I been so far away from them.
I neither wanna talk nor think about why it happen..
This make me reflect back on the Friendship issue I brought last time..
Friend,
What make a friend?
How people can be good friends?
Why people willing to spend time, effort, and energy on people that they call friend but not to the others?
Where can find those that are "gam" to be friends?
Who are those that can be consider friends and what differentiate them from others?
When can these friendship last for long?
For me,
Relationship, either friendship or romantic kind of relationship,
is fragile, very fragile..
X can be friend with B when problem 1 occur
X can be friend with C or D when problem 2,3 occur but no longer friend B..
Simple problems might kill the relationship..
A simple misunderstanding will cause a big trouble in the relationship..
Since it is so fragile, should we give more time on it?
But the matter is HOW?
Every single individual in this world have their own thinking and way of doing things.
Your way might match with individual A,B,C,D but not with X,Y,Z
Aren't it been very tiring if to match all by altering our own style?
As stated in my own profile there,
I describe myself as a rational and radical person..
Yes, indeed, I am still a rational and radical person..
I been tired of adjusting
I been tired of waiting
I been tired of hoping other to understand me
I been tired of seeing all those easy changed world
YET
This is the reality world
This is what happen in real life
This is what we call as LIFE
This post gonna be a real long one..
Am trying very hard to release all my imbalance emotions..
If I got the time, I want to get close to everyone that I wish to..
If I got the patient, I want to listen to all friends problem..
If I got the passion, I want to change all the bad and negative thinking among friends..
The matter is, I don't have all that..
Who don't wish to have a lot of friends and people care for them?
Who don't wish to get people listen to them?
I didn't mention my problems always doesn't mean I don't have problem..
It doesn't means that I don't need time from other to listen to me..
It doesn't means that I been so selfish that I care so little about others..
Yet, I am glad I have a bunch of best pals with me..
Thanks again to you guys!
When I think of you all, I felt much better and balanced back!
This holiday would be a right timing for me to balance up all things and get back to the usual me again!
p/s: This post is just a sharing of emotion and thought, not referring to any single object nor people ^^
Friends...
I am glad that I have such nice friends with me now~
I might be busy that I couldn't always ask and care about others..
But my friends are understanding!
They are those people that make me feel warm always!
They are those people that make me feel that I worth for their care..
They are those people that care about me when I am stress up, when I am sad, when I am tired!
I am glad that I have you all! =)
am glad that the problems between us gone!
am glad that I found another best friend!
am glad that when I am depress, there are someone that knocked me and chat with me!
am glad when I feel down and want to express my feeling, there are someone that willing to listen to me!
Thanks to Grace,
Thanks to MeiWen,
Thanks to ChingMan,
Thanks to Patrick,
Thanks to Jarod,
Thanks to Timmy,
Thanks to ShuShean
and all those that care about me=)
最后的赶工+感想！
现在步入最后的阶段
还有一点点就完成了！
感觉上好累哦~
这真不是人过的生活啊！
排山倒海的功课、责任等等
真的让我充分的学习时间管理~
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以前的我，
凡事都想要要求完美，
功课我总是老早就解决！
每天闲闲没事做，上网看戏等等的
*
现在的我，
想要要求完美也没有那个本事了
一天24小时对我来说并不足够！
对于需要充分睡眠的我来说，
这两个月的睡眠量肯定是我人生以来最少的了！
时间管理，
看似容易，做时难！！！
*
套一句我常常对members说的话，
我们都在学习啊！
对，我真的是彻彻底底地重新学习一向以来我引以为傲的时间管理！
还有人事……
站在这里看到的，
原来是充满缺点的自己
越做下去，我越没有自信
真的好惭愧
咳，真不知道该如何让自己重拾信心~
还有一点点就完成了！
感觉上好累哦~
这真不是人过的生活啊！
排山倒海的功课、责任等等
真的让我充分的学习时间管理~
*
以前的我，
凡事都想要要求完美，
功课我总是老早就解决！
每天闲闲没事做，上网看戏等等的
*
现在的我，
想要要求完美也没有那个本事了
一天24小时对我来说并不足够！
对于需要充分睡眠的我来说，
这两个月的睡眠量肯定是我人生以来最少的了！
时间管理，
看似容易，做时难！！！
*
套一句我常常对members说的话，
我们都在学习啊！
对，我真的是彻彻底底地重新学习一向以来我引以为傲的时间管理！
还有人事……
站在这里看到的，
原来是充满缺点的自己
越做下去，我越没有自信
真的好惭愧
咳，真不知道该如何让自己重拾信心~
Decided to take a break!
I decided to give myself a break after Merdeka!
I clash all things together before Merdeka and promised all that I'll complete all those assignments, presentation preparation, thesis framework ideas, TM stuff and etc.
Here, am on my way of completing my 2nd assignment, two part more to go..
3rd assignment is awaiting me with the SPA and Job Malaysia stuff,
4th assignment is awaiting me with the SPSS analysis,
Abnormal psychology presentation slides,
Thesis framework to Dr. Rozainee..
and lastly, My TM LLDS preparations as well as the coaching syllabus for the newly entered TMers!
I wish I have a perfect time management!
I clash all things together before Merdeka and promised all that I'll complete all those assignments, presentation preparation, thesis framework ideas, TM stuff and etc.
Here, am on my way of completing my 2nd assignment, two part more to go..
3rd assignment is awaiting me with the SPA and Job Malaysia stuff,
4th assignment is awaiting me with the SPSS analysis,
Abnormal psychology presentation slides,
Thesis framework to Dr. Rozainee..
and lastly, My TM LLDS preparations as well as the coaching syllabus for the newly entered TMers!
I wish I have a perfect time management!
我一定可以完美地完成我的功课的！！！！I neglected lots of things
I been so busy recently, that I just realized that I neglected a lot of things around me.
I been so used to people care about me, until I take it for granted
I neglected a lot of things around me..
Friends, Coursemates, Family
I didn't contact with the old bunch of best pals of mine.
I been missing them soOOoOoO much that I even think of booking flight ticket to find them when the air asia promotions are ON that time..
In the end, it is just a thought, I never have the chance to execute it out..
I didn't manage to know what happen among my coursemates,
There's a lot of things happen recently but I din manage to follow all.
I felt so BAD as in I'm not caring for all my sisters and brothers.. 0(->.<-)0
For my family, I felt even SORRY and BAD!
I can't even call back frequently to them
Normally, when I am free that time, it's already midnight or near midnight..
By that time, my Dad, Mom, and younger sister already slept
For elder sister, she almost sleep that time and I don't wish to disturb her though..
So, I can only call back around once a week
I felt so bad of being such a BAD daughter and sister..
I neglected some of my assignments as well..
There are bunch of assignments that awaiting me..
What I been doing all these while is that I think of the concept and frame work for that particular assignment
Hopefully that I can be productive in term of wording and essaying
I hope I can be efficient in both of my STUDY but not only AIESEC work..
I should really re-set my priority as in I din wish to see that my results drop just because of AIESEC work.
It is not What I been aiming all this while,
I have my target to reach and I need to maintain it so that I can get what I want at the end of the day..
Promising myself to re-set the priority as in I will make it to the fullest while enjoying the whole process =)
For my friends, coursemates and Family,
If you see this, please forgive me and give me some time to get everything done and I promise you that
I'LL BE BACK!!
Cheerful and optimistic EnWan will be back soon!!! =)
If it is not, kindly remind me on the promise that I made.
So that I'll been constantly remind on this!!
I been so used to people care about me, until I take it for granted
I neglected a lot of things around me..
Friends, Coursemates, Family
I didn't contact with the old bunch of best pals of mine.
I been missing them soOOoOoO much that I even think of booking flight ticket to find them when the air asia promotions are ON that time..
In the end, it is just a thought, I never have the chance to execute it out..
I didn't manage to know what happen among my coursemates,
There's a lot of things happen recently but I din manage to follow all.
I felt so BAD as in I'm not caring for all my sisters and brothers.. 0(->.<-)0
For my family, I felt even SORRY and BAD!
I can't even call back frequently to them
Normally, when I am free that time, it's already midnight or near midnight..
By that time, my Dad, Mom, and younger sister already slept
For elder sister, she almost sleep that time and I don't wish to disturb her though..
So, I can only call back around once a week
I felt so bad of being such a BAD daughter and sister..
I neglected some of my assignments as well..
There are bunch of assignments that awaiting me..
What I been doing all these while is that I think of the concept and frame work for that particular assignment
Hopefully that I can be productive in term of wording and essaying
I hope I can be efficient in both of my STUDY but not only AIESEC work..
I should really re-set my priority as in I din wish to see that my results drop just because of AIESEC work.
It is not What I been aiming all this while,
I have my target to reach and I need to maintain it so that I can get what I want at the end of the day..
Promising myself to re-set the priority as in I will make it to the fullest while enjoying the whole process =)
For my friends, coursemates and Family,
If you see this, please forgive me and give me some time to get everything done and I promise you that
I'LL BE BACK!!
Cheerful and optimistic EnWan will be back soon!!! =)
If it is not, kindly remind me on the promise that I made.
So that I'll been constantly remind on this!!
人生
最近真的发生太多太多事情了
昨天，我们学校有位学弟选择自尽了
刚开始我没想到会是跟我们有关系的人
只是很纯粹的散播这个消息
可是当我晚上回到房间
打开FB，看到的却是朋友们伤心的回应
原来，
原来他是我朋友的学弟，
事情发生的前一两天他们还一起努力为饥饿30奋斗
当下的我不知道应该如何反应
*
人生的蓝图是由我们一笔一划去勾出来的
而为什么？
为什么会有人决定那么草率的结束
人生是短暂的
人生是充满了挑战的
人生使我们成长
人生让我们学会跌倒时哭泣
人生让我们学会哭泣后应该勇敢的站起来
人生是脆弱的
最近发生的事情，
让我更加地珍惜我所拥有的一切
朋友
家人
系友
*
文章的最后，
愿忠祺安息
愿你在新的世界里寻回遗失的平静
阿弥陀佛，愿仙师保佑
昨天，我们学校有位学弟选择自尽了
刚开始我没想到会是跟我们有关系的人
只是很纯粹的散播这个消息
可是当我晚上回到房间
打开FB，看到的却是朋友们伤心的回应
原来，
原来他是我朋友的学弟，
事情发生的前一两天他们还一起努力为饥饿30奋斗
当下的我不知道应该如何反应
*
人生的蓝图是由我们一笔一划去勾出来的
而为什么？
为什么会有人决定那么草率的结束
人生是短暂的
人生是充满了挑战的
人生使我们成长
人生让我们学会跌倒时哭泣
人生让我们学会哭泣后应该勇敢的站起来
人生是脆弱的
最近发生的事情，
让我更加地珍惜我所拥有的一切
朋友
家人
系友
*
文章的最后，
愿忠祺安息
愿你在新的世界里寻回遗失的平静
阿弥陀佛，愿仙师保佑
Motivation
I should have motivate myself to start move..
I should have motivate myself to belief
I should have motivate myself to trust
I should have motivate myself to be happy
I should have motivate myself to think positively
I should, I should have did that..
But I am not doing it at all..
Haiz, what happen to me?
I dunno =(
I should have motivate myself to belief
I should have motivate myself to trust
I should have motivate myself to be happy
I should have motivate myself to think positively
I should, I should have did that..
But I am not doing it at all..
Haiz, what happen to me?
I dunno =(
你知道吗？
你知道吗？
我也是普通人
我也只是一个正在学习的人
我也不过是施行着我应该做的事
*
你知道吗？
你不懂的就不要乱以为
你不懂就不要耍脾气
你不懂就不要看轻我
*
你知道吗？
每个人都有脾气的
每个人都有自己的底线的
不要因为我一而再再而三的让步就以为你可以欺负我
我大不了使出最狠的一招
对我来说，
没什么的
*
你知道吗？
每个人都有缺点的
不要以为你看得到我的缺点就拼命地踩
不要以为你大过我就等于我需要服从你
在这个世界上没有这回事的
对，
我应该尊敬年老的人
可是你有这资格吗？
问问你自己吧！
在我们要求别人尊重自己前，看看自己有没有值得让人尊重的那一点吧！
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抱歉，这是我一直以来很想发泄的情绪
我想自己应该好好的反省，但反省之前我想为自己做最后一次的反攻...
情绪哦情绪~
你何时才甘愿离我远去？？
A Better Time Management
It's around one month since my last update already!
Gosh, what I can say is that this would be the most busy month I had before...
I don't have any other time left for myself and what I can say about my life for the past one month is "HECTIC"
I really feel that I should have much better time management.
Not saying that I'm not having a nice one now,
Just that I felt that too much on both study and AIESEC work and there isn't any left for my personal space.
Yesterday, I decided to go to my sister house.
Just feel that wanna take a break from UKM..
Having a break in here really make me feel much better.
Because, at least I don't have to worry things that I need to worry on yet.
Kinda of irresponsible kind of thinking
but
If I don't do this, I think I will really turn into a very unhealthy EnWan..
There is much more for me to learn
learn how to coordinate with people
learn how to delegate jobs
learn how to get along with different people
learn how to control my stress and emotion
learn how to handle things within a short while
It's really been a stressful month for me,
There isn't any time for me to stop down and release my tension
There isn't any time for me to stop down and cry either
Family problems happened but I can't being influence by that
Luckily I have a very strong Dad, and Mum and sisters
They understand how my stand and they tried their very hard for me not to worry on them.
But sometimes, I felt that I am really a very bad daughter and sister.
I don't have time to call back home
I don't have time to care about my sister while she was sick
Felt so bad..
I wanted to get rid of my troublesome emotion as well as have a better time management
Can I make it?
Gosh, what I can say is that this would be the most busy month I had before...
I don't have any other time left for myself and what I can say about my life for the past one month is "HECTIC"
I really feel that I should have much better time management.
Not saying that I'm not having a nice one now,
Just that I felt that too much on both study and AIESEC work and there isn't any left for my personal space.
Yesterday, I decided to go to my sister house.
Just feel that wanna take a break from UKM..
Having a break in here really make me feel much better.
Because, at least I don't have to worry things that I need to worry on yet.
Kinda of irresponsible kind of thinking
but
If I don't do this, I think I will really turn into a very unhealthy EnWan..
There is much more for me to learn
learn how to coordinate with people
learn how to delegate jobs
learn how to get along with different people
learn how to control my stress and emotion
learn how to handle things within a short while
It's really been a stressful month for me,
There isn't any time for me to stop down and release my tension
There isn't any time for me to stop down and cry either
Family problems happened but I can't being influence by that
Luckily I have a very strong Dad, and Mum and sisters
They understand how my stand and they tried their very hard for me not to worry on them.
But sometimes, I felt that I am really a very bad daughter and sister.
I don't have time to call back home
I don't have time to care about my sister while she was sick
Felt so bad..
I wanted to get rid of my troublesome emotion as well as have a better time management
Can I make it?
Busy Month!!
I thought that I'm able to share few of my thought regarding culture difference of both Malaysia and Taiwan..
But sorry to say, I'm too busy for this few days, almost none of the day I was free de..
Every night with 6 hours sleep, rushing to classes, meetings, planning stuff and dealing with officers..
What a GREAT start for the semester!
Hopefully can get slim down back and I gain almost 5kg while in Taiwan! ><
That's a lot! OMG, I cant image what I eat until can grow 5kg within 2 months!!
Anyhow, it's going to be a long time for me to update the blog..
Keep on busying ><
But sorry to say, I'm too busy for this few days, almost none of the day I was free de..
Every night with 6 hours sleep, rushing to classes, meetings, planning stuff and dealing with officers..
What a GREAT start for the semester!
Hopefully can get slim down back and I gain almost 5kg while in Taiwan! ><
That's a lot! OMG, I cant image what I eat until can grow 5kg within 2 months!!
Anyhow, it's going to be a long time for me to update the blog..
Keep on busying ><
Back to Malaysia~
oOH.. It's been around 5 days since I left Taiwan..
Didn't really had a extreme post-leaving syndrome like other did
Perhaps is because I'm a person that can easily adapt and easily accept ba..
It's around 3 more days then it would be Uni reopen..
Sad to say but I didn't prepare much on my study...
Thought I could have think deeply regarding my thesis topic, BUT i didn't..
I was too enjoy and too relax when I was in Taiwan..
So, after ignorance, it's time to pay back.
Oh ya, I cut my hair..
But I think it make me look like aunty..
Don't wish to upload photos because it really look UGLY!!!
If you met me anywhere, and suspecting whether the OLD looking girl is me or not,
YES!! Is me and please don't laugh at me!!
Or else I will fan min
o(︶︿︶)o
Ok la, it's time to end here as tomorrow morning need to go back to UKM for a recruitment drive in Burhan College~
Add Oil Add Oil!!!
↖(^ω^)↗
Didn't really had a extreme post-leaving syndrome like other did
Perhaps is because I'm a person that can easily adapt and easily accept ba..
It's around 3 more days then it would be Uni reopen..
Sad to say but I didn't prepare much on my study...
Thought I could have think deeply regarding my thesis topic, BUT i didn't..
I was too enjoy and too relax when I was in Taiwan..
So, after ignorance, it's time to pay back.
Oh ya, I cut my hair..
But I think it make me look like aunty..
Don't wish to upload photos because it really look UGLY!!!
If you met me anywhere, and suspecting whether the OLD looking girl is me or not,
YES!! Is me and please don't laugh at me!!
Or else I will fan min
o(︶︿︶)o
Ok la, it's time to end here as tomorrow morning need to go back to UKM for a recruitment drive in Burhan College~
Add Oil Add Oil!!!
↖(^ω^)↗
毕业典礼
6月18日，是玛陵国小的毕业典礼
而我就得穿上那丑丑的bajuKebaya当起招待人员
当中不少人看到觉得无比地奇怪
有人说我像主婚人
有人说我在穿睡袍
有人说我当场老了十岁
有人看了就觉得好笑
haiz，真是的！
BAJU Kebaya 是马来西亚最最最隆重的传统服装勒
我这么看重这毕业典礼，却落得这种尴尬的场面
撇开我的服装不说，玛陵国小毕业典礼有16人毕业
6个幼稚园大班，10个国小六年级
场面很温馨，跟我以往看过的毕业典礼完全不同
校长在致辞时落下了眼泪
我看了自己的眼眶也红了
六年级生却没有一人掉泪
后来我问她们为什么，
他们说其实有被感动到，可是就是逞强，硬是不哭
即将迈入叛逆期的小孩总是那么地倔强
看着她们一个一个上台拿奖，家长就在旁边看，一同领奖
我不禁的想起以前的自己
不管我表现是多么的标青
家长依然不可能出席我的毕业典礼
我想就只有我大学毕业典礼上才可能看到家人的身影吧
我不会埋怨，因为我知道说父母都在忙碌地赚钱给我们
而身为女儿的我除了努力地读好书，考好成绩
让缺席的父母依然脸上光彩，让他们光荣地告诉他人自己女儿的标青成绩
我就已经很满足了
人总是不能要求太多，知足就好
而我就得穿上那丑丑的bajuKebaya当起招待人员
当中不少人看到觉得无比地奇怪
有人说我像主婚人
有人说我在穿睡袍
有人说我当场老了十岁
有人看了就觉得好笑
haiz，真是的！
BAJU Kebaya 是马来西亚最最最隆重的传统服装勒
我这么看重这毕业典礼，却落得这种尴尬的场面
撇开我的服装不说，玛陵国小毕业典礼有16人毕业
6个幼稚园大班，10个国小六年级
场面很温馨，跟我以往看过的毕业典礼完全不同
校长在致辞时落下了眼泪
我看了自己的眼眶也红了
六年级生却没有一人掉泪
后来我问她们为什么，
他们说其实有被感动到，可是就是逞强，硬是不哭
即将迈入叛逆期的小孩总是那么地倔强
看着她们一个一个上台拿奖，家长就在旁边看，一同领奖
我不禁的想起以前的自己
不管我表现是多么的标青
家长依然不可能出席我的毕业典礼
我想就只有我大学毕业典礼上才可能看到家人的身影吧
我不会埋怨，因为我知道说父母都在忙碌地赚钱给我们
而身为女儿的我除了努力地读好书，考好成绩
让缺席的父母依然脸上光彩，让他们光荣地告诉他人自己女儿的标青成绩
我就已经很满足了
人总是不能要求太多，知足就好
Kao Hsiung Trip
hmm.. It's been a long time I din't update.
Sorry for that because I been very busy for the past few days..
So, let's catch up on what happen in Taiwan for this few weeks ba..
On the 11/6-13/6, we went to Kao Hsiung, another city in South Taiwan.
It's around 4 and a half hour journey from Taipei to Kao Hsiung and due to financial budget, we decided to take night bus rather than GaoTie..
Although it is tiring but somehow it is worthy for me.
The first day in KH was a bit too boring where we didn't actually went a lot of place but mostly shopping malls.
For people like me that not interested in shopping, what we did for the whole day le??
Me, and SheyMun gather around and took lotz of photos, loitering around the kids play ground.
It's been a nice afternoon for us to hang out around and play around like kids.. ^^
After that, we went to the Dream Mall and took a ride of Ferris Wheel.
KH's night view is nice and luckily that time when we took the ride, sky start to turn dark and light started to turn on.
It's been cool to see that happen and enjoy the 10 min with SheyMun, Tomo and David
The next day, we went to JinYuan, a nice place to visit
Although the food there very expensive, but the view and the place there are awesome.
Manage to make some handmade card for my lovely friends.
PhinYing, WanLin, JuoMin and GeokKiew take note la..
I purposely handmade cards for you guys le, should be satisfied ba.. ^^
Around evening time, we went to QiJing (旗津)
and there is a tunnel which is very beautiful at night, enjoyed the moment we spent over there.
Actually there still lots more place I went last week.
I went to YiLan(宜兰), Miramar(美丽华), BiTan(碧潭) and MaoKong(猫空)
What a satisfied but tired week!!
Sorry for that because I been very busy for the past few days..
So, let's catch up on what happen in Taiwan for this few weeks ba..
On the 11/6-13/6, we went to Kao Hsiung, another city in South Taiwan.
It's around 4 and a half hour journey from Taipei to Kao Hsiung and due to financial budget, we decided to take night bus rather than GaoTie..
Although it is tiring but somehow it is worthy for me.
The first day in KH was a bit too boring where we didn't actually went a lot of place but mostly shopping malls.
For people like me that not interested in shopping, what we did for the whole day le??
Me, and SheyMun gather around and took lotz of photos, loitering around the kids play ground.
It's been a nice afternoon for us to hang out around and play around like kids.. ^^
posing pula.. xD
After that, we went to the Dream Mall and took a ride of Ferris Wheel.
The next day, we went to JinYuan, a nice place to visit
Although the food there very expensive, but the view and the place there are awesome.
Manage to make some handmade card for my lovely friends.
PhinYing, WanLin, JuoMin and GeokKiew take note la..
I purposely handmade cards for you guys le, should be satisfied ba.. ^^
Around evening time, we went to QiJing (旗津)
and there is a tunnel which is very beautiful at night, enjoyed the moment we spent over there.
Actually there still lots more place I went last week.
I went to YiLan(宜兰), Miramar(美丽华), BiTan(碧潭) and MaoKong(猫空)
What a satisfied but tired week!!
最充实的一天！！
每个礼拜四会是我最充实的一天！！
因为每个礼拜四都会有个家长成长班
会从早上8点到11点
而且每个礼拜四都会是最多东西吃的一天
因为每个星期的家长成长班，
都会有家长带不一样的食物给大家品尝
再教会大家怎么弄的
*
为什么我将今天称为最充实的一天呢？
因为今天的我做了好多东西
早上帮家长们照相，用来做她们的梦想书
后来就编辑她们梦想书的封面
过后去拿豆浆给她们分享
11点以后，我就开始继续编写我的企划案
第一次写，不是很懂得
大概就写写看，再看回以前的一些企划案
写写下就到了午餐时间
这次我不吃了，只喝汤而已
因为早上吃了三明治、沙拉、豆浆、粽子、葱油饼！！！
真是超多的~
下午以后就开始帮忙剪辑一些布置毕业典礼的东西
还有一些零零碎碎的东西
虽然一直跑来跑去
但是我觉得很开心
真的好过我每天没事情做，
等待4.30pm的到来，再带路队出去
那好无聊哦~~
希望往后的日子都会好像这样充实吧！！
因为每个礼拜四都会有个家长成长班
会从早上8点到11点
而且每个礼拜四都会是最多东西吃的一天
因为每个星期的家长成长班，
都会有家长带不一样的食物给大家品尝
再教会大家怎么弄的
*
为什么我将今天称为最充实的一天呢？
因为今天的我做了好多东西
早上帮家长们照相，用来做她们的梦想书
后来就编辑她们梦想书的封面
过后去拿豆浆给她们分享
11点以后，我就开始继续编写我的企划案
第一次写，不是很懂得
大概就写写看，再看回以前的一些企划案
写写下就到了午餐时间
这次我不吃了，只喝汤而已
因为早上吃了三明治、沙拉、豆浆、粽子、葱油饼！！！
真是超多的~
下午以后就开始帮忙剪辑一些布置毕业典礼的东西
还有一些零零碎碎的东西
虽然一直跑来跑去
但是我觉得很开心
真的好过我每天没事情做，
等待4.30pm的到来，再带路队出去
那好无聊哦~~
希望往后的日子都会好像这样充实吧！！
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