hmm.. it's been a hot topic for our psykid blog, that's why i want to post one here as well.. haha
what i really feel about the juniors?
kind of complicated la..
i cant say all are rude and not respecting me and also other seniors~~
just that some are really not putting us inside "eye field" lo~~
there are still some juniors that are nice and polite, i never deny it de..
they will like say hi to you when they meet you or simply a smile or a nod..
actually that's enough to satisfy me as a senior!!
not to say about others la, me myself as one of the person incharge of the fac orientation, i really hope to see that they are respecting us..
or else what's the point of arranging everything for them, and even the signature part, we simplified it and saying no humilation and ect just to protect them..
when flash back what they did to us, it's like what we have done is just nothing but wasting time..
this batch de juniors really that bad ma??
hey man, i'm also 1989 de le.. don make me feel shame of it la!!
people born in 1989 are not rude ok??
at least me myself are polite!! XD
juniors back in college also very rude and not respecting...
when they saw you, they just look at you like you're a nerd or what so ever..
again, no hi, no nodding, no smilling, and don't expect for conversations~~
hmm.. should i really need to think again that am i doing the right thing?
or it is worthwhile for me to spend so many time in preparing the orientation le??
but somehow, it's coming to the end of it le~~
worth or not worth already become the past liao!!
no point keep wandering on the same point..
hey juniors, let me see who you really are la!!
don't make me feel that disappointed again~~
and don't let people think that people born in 1989 are that rude la~~
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gOOd NeWS!!!
just came back from the kok night class..
and so happy to know that my kok change to every tuesday night 8-10pm le~~
wohoo!!!
that means I can go back or go to my sis place every weekend le~~
no saturday class anymore!!!
luckily I manage to change my set to set 12~~
the lecturer is damn nice and funny!!
haha!!
so happy~~ =P
and so happy to know that my kok change to every tuesday night 8-10pm le~~
wohoo!!!
that means I can go back or go to my sis place every weekend le~~
no saturday class anymore!!!
luckily I manage to change my set to set 12~~
the lecturer is damn nice and funny!!
haha!!
so happy~~ =P
郊游踏青~~
有一段时间没有在这写BLOG了，因为很懒，也没有什么话题啦！！
今天终于，有了新话题，所以要好好地和大家分享分享咯~~
就在上个星期天，也就是两天前，
我们到沙亚南郊游去了~~~
是否觉得很奇怪，
为何要到这么远呢？？
老实说
我也不懂为什么！！
hehe
我们大概八点钟到KTM站吧！
无奈的是，等了快半个小时，KTM才姗姗来迟，
将近9.30AM， 我们终于到了KL SENTRAL..
在那，看到了等了许久的PANG..
很阳光的阿PANG~~
好了，废话不多，快快进入重点吧~~
从KL SENTRAL 到BUKIT CAHAYA，
也就是我们的目的地
大概要一个小时吧！！
在漫长的等待中，
我们拍了不少的照片~~
而在KTM里头，我们依然面色不改，成为了最吵的！！
真有点惭愧***
汗颜啊~~
到了目的地后，我们搭上了那里的巴士，
打算绕场一周~~
谁知道，巴士居然没有位了
只好摸摸鼻子，暗叫倒霉的站上去咯
巴士司机很不怜惜的将我们一群人震颠的有点晕眩~~
天啊！还真想吐呢~~
到了终点时，我们决定去踩脚踏车~~
原以为一切可以顺顺利利的，
谁知道脚踏车早就没了
还要排队等
而且是要等大约20个号码~~
在等待的当儿，我们很搞笑的居然追起了巴士~~
那无情的巴士司机，很冷酷的喷了我们一脸的黑烟就扬长而去
无奈无奈
经过了一番的等候，
我们终于拿到了脚踏车
骑上脚踏车的感觉真是爽啊~~
可是，本小姐在骑上不到15分钟的时间
就很不幸的宣告死亡了~~
体力不佳的我，
在面对那遥远的队友们时，
只好无奈的推着我的铁马，
一步一步地朝队友们前进咯~~
说真的，这真是我第一次骑脚踏车去郊游踏青~~
很累，不过也很爽咯！！
我们一路上看到很漂亮的景色就会忍不住停下来拍照~~
也很成功的拍到了许多的“艺术照”
骑了将近4个小时的脚踏车，
在屁股真的很痛的时候，
我们离开了那里~~
朝向下个目的地出发！！！
下个目标就巴生的肉骨茶咯~~
同样的事情一再的重复
等待拍照，等待拍照
到了那里，
大家都饿得发慌了吧！
当食物一上桌时，
大家都不顾仪态的把桌上的食物杀得个清光~~
折腾了一整天，大家都累和饿了吧！！
再回到UKM的间断，
还有许许多多的插曲
没能一一列出
因为实在太多了吧！！
不过，这次的郊游踏青真的很好玩！！
很爽啊！！
siCk...
it's really unfortune to say but i fall sick already..
i think since monday night i already not feeling well but i thought that was just because of too tired..
then it continued until thursday noon..
while i was in the class, i felt so uncomfortable and my headache was terribly serious..
then i decided to go pusat kesihatan that afternoon as well..
when i entered there, i was lots of people queueing up and i waited for almost half and hour..
finally, it was my turn and the doc seems like wanted to finish as fast as possible then she din't check my body temperature..
it was kind of strange because now everyone is concern about H1N1 ma..
after that i went back and start doing my stuff at library,
i was so lazy to go out so i cook porridge,
maybe because of the porridge or lack of rest,
the next morning i feel so sick..
i think i got fever already..
but since i got the fac orientation program that noon,
i din't go for pusat kesihatan..
yet, i felt so uncomfortable and ill..
my senior joshua kindly offer me to fetch me to clinic if let say i don want to go pusat kesihatan..
after consider here and there,
i decided to go pusat kesihatan again, although later i have class..
along the way, grace accompany me to pusat kesihatan..
thanks to her so much.. ^^
after going to the class and told the lecturer that i'm not feeling well,
i went back my room and start sleeping for almost 3 hours..
3 hours sleep really make me feel better and today even better..
i really think i need more rest to recover lo..
jiayou~~
i think since monday night i already not feeling well but i thought that was just because of too tired..
then it continued until thursday noon..
while i was in the class, i felt so uncomfortable and my headache was terribly serious..
then i decided to go pusat kesihatan that afternoon as well..
when i entered there, i was lots of people queueing up and i waited for almost half and hour..
finally, it was my turn and the doc seems like wanted to finish as fast as possible then she din't check my body temperature..
it was kind of strange because now everyone is concern about H1N1 ma..
after that i went back and start doing my stuff at library,
i was so lazy to go out so i cook porridge,
maybe because of the porridge or lack of rest,
the next morning i feel so sick..
i think i got fever already..
but since i got the fac orientation program that noon,
i din't go for pusat kesihatan..
yet, i felt so uncomfortable and ill..
my senior joshua kindly offer me to fetch me to clinic if let say i don want to go pusat kesihatan..
after consider here and there,
i decided to go pusat kesihatan again, although later i have class..
along the way, grace accompany me to pusat kesihatan..
thanks to her so much.. ^^
after going to the class and told the lecturer that i'm not feeling well,
i went back my room and start sleeping for almost 3 hours..
3 hours sleep really make me feel better and today even better..
i really think i need more rest to recover lo..
jiayou~~
my short semester break~~
it's been quite some time din't update the blog already..
because my house don have fast internet connection, but still using the dail-up..
what i do during my 10 days holiday ar??
erm.. i think i acted as a 宅女lo..
morning i wake up, then i cook something to eat,
accompany mum to buy somethings,
watch drama, read novels and bla bla bla..
for the whole holidays, i only go out with friend once, that is with suba..
we went taiping sentral for Transformer 2..
it's really a good movie to watch!!
really enjoy watching it la~~
talking about my holidays, i feel so proud that i didn't really waste my time..
at least, i did what i want to do!!
that is---- cook!!
it is a great sucess that i'm able to cook a quite nice korean food and oso japanese food~~
i'm gonna missed all of it~~
that's the korean food that i cook~~
because my house don have fast internet connection, but still using the dail-up..
what i do during my 10 days holiday ar??
erm.. i think i acted as a 宅女lo..
morning i wake up, then i cook something to eat,
accompany mum to buy somethings,
watch drama, read novels and bla bla bla..
for the whole holidays, i only go out with friend once, that is with suba..
we went taiping sentral for Transformer 2..
it's really a good movie to watch!!
really enjoy watching it la~~
talking about my holidays, i feel so proud that i didn't really waste my time..
at least, i did what i want to do!!
that is---- cook!!
it is a great sucess that i'm able to cook a quite nice korean food and oso japanese food~~
i'm gonna missed all of it~~
that's the korean food that i cook~~
妹妹
放假回来，我的第一件任务就是帮妹妹到学校去拿成绩单！！
有点可笑，刚满20岁一个月多的我居然当起了家长咯…
还好，妹妹的级任曾经是我的老师
所以她也并没有多说些什么，只是让我明确的知道妹妹的弱点和可以补救的方法..
因为这样，所以我今天的主题是妹妹！！^^
其实，坦白的说，我并没有很完美地达到一个身位姐姐的责任…
我还记得在我还未离开家里的时候，也就是还没有履行国民服务时，
我和我的家人的关系并没有酱好，
虽然在我的心中，他们永远是最重要的；
偏偏，我就生了张不服输的嘴
是很典型的刀子嘴豆腐心
所以只要我看到妹妹犯了错，就会狠狠的骂她一顿
也从来不顾虑什么的
可是，当我一离开家里，很多所谓的坚持已经不重要了
我开始变得珍惜我们相处的每一分钟
暴躁的脾气也慢慢地磨掉了
每每看到妹妹那张可爱的脸，就很想疼惜她
我想，家里面每个人都是酱想的吧！！
在我们的心目中，妹妹就像永远长不大的孩子
大家都想把最好的买给她
“我爱你妹妹”
这句话我想，应该是说不出口吧！
或许以前的我错过了很多
但，现在我很努力的在弥补
弥补一个身位姐姐应该负起的责任
我不知道我还有多少的时间可以宠你
因为大家可以相聚的时间越来越少了
妹妹，你很乖、很听话也很懂事
在我和姐姐离开家里，到外求学时
一个人很努力的扮演着女儿的角色
一个人扛起了属于我和姐姐的家务
一个人很懂事的不让父母多加操心
在短短的一两年内，成长了许多
其实我每每都很羡慕你的乐天
如果我对自己的要求不是这么高，
只要一点点的快乐，就可以满足我
那我每天是否可以活得像你一样呢？
可是，这是你，而我是我
也许这就是你的特点了！！
我曾经告诉你说
“人要对自己有信心！！有付出就一定有回报的，所以要相信你自己”
不要活在我的影子下
我知道我在校的表现可能让你压力很大
可是你是你，你有你自己的特色
我不希望看到你因为我的成绩而倍感压力！
要走出属于自己的一条路
一条属于你张恩惠的路！！
妹，加油咯！！希望你会看到这篇部落格吧~~
en hwei
Good bye my junior year...
one more day and I'm no longer junior anymore..
so sad to say that..
throughout this year, I learn a lot of things and have a lot of fun..
no matter how, it will always hatch in my memory..
i still remember the first day entering UKM, i don even know where is Kolej Aminnudin Baki..
and terpaksa ask someone at the roadside near kolej Dato Onn..
it was so funny that time..
then, finally we manage to find my kolej..
then, it's the pendaftaran time..
I remember that abang Lai who register for me.. because he is the only Chinese there.. haha
then, i get my room key and headed to my room..
when i entered the room, siew chee and her parents already there..
they already clean up part of the room and she is waiting her turn to bath..
then without wasting time, i start to unpack my stuff..
then i sent my parents to my uncle car and say good bye to them..
proud to say that, this time i din cry.. ^^
then when I was back in room,
I started my first conversation with siew chee..
I dun remember what we say but it's like usual ice breaking la..
and i feel so glad that she is also taking psychology..
bla, bla, bla..
it was so long story to tell..
then we headed to dataran k4 and started our orientation week..
for the whole orientation week, i was so tired that i almost don't know what I'm doing..
somehow I joined the artisukma choir and accidentally become one of the conductor for the performance..
oh my goodness lo, i conducted the choir team in front of thousand plus people during the sumpahan pelajar..
because of choir, i met some new friends and they are mei wen, lay mei, june, su hui, jing wen..
we were so close during the mmp week.. hehe^^
then it was the end of mmp week la..
then we started our fac orientation lo..
I was so unlucky being picked as the gantian of FSSK candidate...
em, should i say unlucky??
whatever la~~
then i was being assign to partner with davin, the other candidate..
throughout the whole things, i feel like being slightly humilated..
this is because i know how i look wo, it is imposible for me to be voted as the candidate de la~~
haiz, but somehow, i promised Joshua already, so cannot just go away..
somehow, i took that as a good learning experience la..
em.. what else le??
oh ya, ming hua!!
i was so luckly to be elected as one of the board of ming hua, which is the Chinese society of Amin..
and never forget about amin Choir team, I was the vice president of it..
glad to have both of it..
that started my quite busy kolej life lo~~
it was so much more to say about my junior year, that is just interesting part of my first semester..
now is the turn of second semester,
actually second semester i din do much things la..
but in this semester, i getting more and more close with ah lee, mei wen, mui yee, ice, grace..
really glad to have them as my friends.. ^^
never forget about PR stimulasi..
i was elected as the pengarah for protokol..
gosh, you know how much i hate about protokol??
i hate it that much ar~~
but somehow, through it, i really learn a lot..
learn about protokol~~
PR is all about protokol only, not more than that!!
i think that's all about 2nd semester lo~~
this is the most fun part, 3rd semester!!
i never regret of taking it
and i found lots of fun!!!
because of 3rd sem, i become more and more close with mei wen, grace, mui yee and wai thing..
we go a lot of places, such as sunway piramid, cheras pasar malam, maybank kajang..
really have fun during all the outing.. ^^
then it would be the preparation of Natcon 2009 le!!
like what i wrote in the blog,
it was tiring but i had a lot of fun and enjoy the process of it..
and also learn a lot of things lo..
and now, it is almost the end for my junior year..
i'm so so so unwilling to say that i'm already senior!!*sob*
but somehow, this is the true ar!!
cannot deny it~~
so, what i can say is that hopefully my 2nd year in UKM would be as fine as my junior year lo~~
^^
so sad to say that..
throughout this year, I learn a lot of things and have a lot of fun..
no matter how, it will always hatch in my memory..
i still remember the first day entering UKM, i don even know where is Kolej Aminnudin Baki..
and terpaksa ask someone at the roadside near kolej Dato Onn..
it was so funny that time..
then, finally we manage to find my kolej..
then, it's the pendaftaran time..
I remember that abang Lai who register for me.. because he is the only Chinese there.. haha
then, i get my room key and headed to my room..
when i entered the room, siew chee and her parents already there..
they already clean up part of the room and she is waiting her turn to bath..
then without wasting time, i start to unpack my stuff..
then i sent my parents to my uncle car and say good bye to them..
proud to say that, this time i din cry.. ^^
then when I was back in room,
I started my first conversation with siew chee..
I dun remember what we say but it's like usual ice breaking la..
and i feel so glad that she is also taking psychology..
bla, bla, bla..
it was so long story to tell..
then we headed to dataran k4 and started our orientation week..
for the whole orientation week, i was so tired that i almost don't know what I'm doing..
somehow I joined the artisukma choir and accidentally become one of the conductor for the performance..
oh my goodness lo, i conducted the choir team in front of thousand plus people during the sumpahan pelajar..
because of choir, i met some new friends and they are mei wen, lay mei, june, su hui, jing wen..
we were so close during the mmp week.. hehe^^
then it was the end of mmp week la..
then we started our fac orientation lo..
I was so unlucky being picked as the gantian of FSSK candidate...
em, should i say unlucky??
whatever la~~
then i was being assign to partner with davin, the other candidate..
throughout the whole things, i feel like being slightly humilated..
this is because i know how i look wo, it is imposible for me to be voted as the candidate de la~~
haiz, but somehow, i promised Joshua already, so cannot just go away..
somehow, i took that as a good learning experience la..
em.. what else le??
oh ya, ming hua!!
i was so luckly to be elected as one of the board of ming hua, which is the Chinese society of Amin..
and never forget about amin Choir team, I was the vice president of it..
glad to have both of it..
that started my quite busy kolej life lo~~
it was so much more to say about my junior year, that is just interesting part of my first semester..
now is the turn of second semester,
actually second semester i din do much things la..
but in this semester, i getting more and more close with ah lee, mei wen, mui yee, ice, grace..
really glad to have them as my friends.. ^^
never forget about PR stimulasi..
i was elected as the pengarah for protokol..
gosh, you know how much i hate about protokol??
i hate it that much ar~~
but somehow, through it, i really learn a lot..
learn about protokol~~
PR is all about protokol only, not more than that!!
i think that's all about 2nd semester lo~~
this is the most fun part, 3rd semester!!
i never regret of taking it
and i found lots of fun!!!
because of 3rd sem, i become more and more close with mei wen, grace, mui yee and wai thing..
we go a lot of places, such as sunway piramid, cheras pasar malam, maybank kajang..
really have fun during all the outing.. ^^
then it would be the preparation of Natcon 2009 le!!
like what i wrote in the blog,
it was tiring but i had a lot of fun and enjoy the process of it..
and also learn a lot of things lo..
and now, it is almost the end for my junior year..
i'm so so so unwilling to say that i'm already senior!!*sob*
but somehow, this is the true ar!!
cannot deny it~~
so, what i can say is that hopefully my 2nd year in UKM would be as fine as my junior year lo~~
^^
What shall I write in a blog??
after sometime,
i notice that my blog is quite long compare to other people..
my friend told me when she first read me blog,
she said, "one of your blog post equal to my whole blog post"
hehe^^
at that moment, i din't think much of it..
but really after sometimes,
especially when i saw other people blog,
i found that she is right wo~~
usually people's blog won't be that long de wo~~
mine can consider as the article liao lo..
especially the Chinese version !!
haha.. this make me start of thinking whether to change to my style of writing blog dy..
what you guys think le??
should i post the short but precise or just follow my instinct ar??
i notice that my blog is quite long compare to other people..
my friend told me when she first read me blog,
she said, "one of your blog post equal to my whole blog post"
hehe^^
at that moment, i din't think much of it..
but really after sometimes,
especially when i saw other people blog,
i found that she is right wo~~
usually people's blog won't be that long de wo~~
mine can consider as the article liao lo..
especially the Chinese version !!
haha.. this make me start of thinking whether to change to my style of writing blog dy..
what you guys think le??
should i post the short but precise or just follow my instinct ar??
NATCON 2009
当我答应参与这个活动的时候，我就已经预算好会有几忙的了~~
当日子一天一天的靠近时，我们更加是忙得不可开交~~
但，无可否认的是，这活动让我学会了很多，同时，也献上我无数的第一次...
要从哪里说起呢？？
就从刚开始筹备的那边讲起吧！！
我被分派到LOGISTIC的部门，
顾名思义，就是要当跑腿~~
可以说是从几个星期前，我就不断地东跑西走的...
是很累，不过幸好一切都很顺利。
我遇到的人都很好，不但帮我顺利通过申请，还给予我些可贵的教导~~
到了要开始的前两三天，
我们更加卖力的为那活动做准备功夫..
那其中的一天竟然忙到凌晨三点钟~~
我的天，我从来没有开会到酱夜的...
回到房间，梳洗一番就接近四点了~~
真的很累！！
到了活动的开始，我们一样是那么累，
但整个过程中我都不曾后悔过，
我很享受这种很充实的感觉~~
讲回那些第一次吧！！
在这活动中，我第一次爬窗进去FST，
也第一次呆在FST酱久！！
第一次在DAM里睡觉，
第一次在DAM和DG唱K...
那里的音效还真的不错~~呵呵
第一次当秘书，而且还是很失败的秘书~~
人家当秘书是要写报告的，我什么都不用做，
会议主席帮我做完，我只需要记录些许的会议重点...
想回起来还真是有点点的过意不去了！！
到了现在，距离活动结束已经有几天了，
我还是很怀念，
但愿自己还有机会很我的团友们一起努力的搞活动吧！！
当日子一天一天的靠近时，我们更加是忙得不可开交~~
但，无可否认的是，这活动让我学会了很多，同时，也献上我无数的第一次...
要从哪里说起呢？？
就从刚开始筹备的那边讲起吧！！
我被分派到LOGISTIC的部门，
顾名思义，就是要当跑腿~~
可以说是从几个星期前，我就不断地东跑西走的...
是很累，不过幸好一切都很顺利。
我遇到的人都很好，不但帮我顺利通过申请，还给予我些可贵的教导~~
到了要开始的前两三天，
我们更加卖力的为那活动做准备功夫..
那其中的一天竟然忙到凌晨三点钟~~
我的天，我从来没有开会到酱夜的...
回到房间，梳洗一番就接近四点了~~
真的很累！！
到了活动的开始，我们一样是那么累，
但整个过程中我都不曾后悔过，
我很享受这种很充实的感觉~~
讲回那些第一次吧！！
在这活动中，我第一次爬窗进去FST，
也第一次呆在FST酱久！！
第一次在DAM里睡觉，
第一次在DAM和DG唱K...
那里的音效还真的不错~~呵呵
第一次当秘书，而且还是很失败的秘书~~
人家当秘书是要写报告的，我什么都不用做，
会议主席帮我做完，我只需要记录些许的会议重点...
想回起来还真是有点点的过意不去了！！
到了现在，距离活动结束已经有几天了，
我还是很怀念，
但愿自己还有机会很我的团友们一起努力的搞活动吧！！
tired learning experience
finally, it come to the end..
NATCON 2009
honestly, we did not prepare it in a enough time mode but it is like last minute work
due to lack of time, so we need to rush up lots of things,
so, we all don really have time to rest during two whole weeks..
yet, i do learn a lot from it,
i learn how to deal with people...
i learn how to setup the LCD layar, and projector
i learn how to setup the PA system, at learn some of it la..
i learn how to communicate better with people..
i learn how to jot down important points during meeting
and i learn quite a lot of AIESEC square dance..
not only that,
during the national convention,
i did contribute lots of my first time...
first time explore in FST,
first time sing K in DAM and DG,
first time sleep in DAM,
first time dance in front of so many people,
first time climb into a building through windows,
first time go JPP and Pusat Penerbitan, etc...
this event really give me a great experience and also impact in my life..
although it is really tiring but i never blame for not enough sleep..
yet, I'm glad of becoming one of the OC of NATCON 2009..
NATCON 2009
honestly, we did not prepare it in a enough time mode but it is like last minute work
due to lack of time, so we need to rush up lots of things,
so, we all don really have time to rest during two whole weeks..
yet, i do learn a lot from it,
i learn how to deal with people...
i learn how to setup the LCD layar, and projector
i learn how to setup the PA system, at learn some of it la..
i learn how to communicate better with people..
i learn how to jot down important points during meeting
and i learn quite a lot of AIESEC square dance..
not only that,
during the national convention,
i did contribute lots of my first time...
first time explore in FST,
first time sing K in DAM and DG,
first time sleep in DAM,
first time dance in front of so many people,
first time climb into a building through windows,
first time go JPP and Pusat Penerbitan, etc...
this event really give me a great experience and also impact in my life..
although it is really tiring but i never blame for not enough sleep..
yet, I'm glad of becoming one of the OC of NATCON 2009..
Home..
I'm at home..
Love to be at home..
and yet I'm not always at home..
When I decided to take matriculation,
it started my own journey..
which away from home..'
I'm not the lucky person,
because the college or university that i get is far from my home..
Unlike those that staying near,
they can always going back home..
Me??
I can only go back home once a month
and only for about 2-3 days..
pity??
NO..
my sarawak friends even pity..
they cant even go back once a month..
but really once a while..
From this,
I realised that I'm not the worst..
so, I start not to blame..
but take this opportunity to learn more things..
Now, I'm at home..
home sweet home..
enjoying the peace and wondering environment at Taiping..
although soon, I'll be back to UKM
and supposedly not going back home until exam finish..
em.. this is really a good time for me to enjoy..
at least once last time before exam ma..
Taiping, I love to stay here..
things here are cheap,
foods are nice and cheap..
people here are nice and warm..
and of course,
my lovely Family members lo~~
muaks~~ :)
Love to be at home..
and yet I'm not always at home..
When I decided to take matriculation,
it started my own journey..
which away from home..'
I'm not the lucky person,
because the college or university that i get is far from my home..
Unlike those that staying near,
they can always going back home..
Me??
I can only go back home once a month
and only for about 2-3 days..
pity??
NO..
my sarawak friends even pity..
they cant even go back once a month..
but really once a while..
From this,
I realised that I'm not the worst..
so, I start not to blame..
but take this opportunity to learn more things..
Now, I'm at home..
home sweet home..
enjoying the peace and wondering environment at Taiping..
although soon, I'll be back to UKM
and supposedly not going back home until exam finish..
em.. this is really a good time for me to enjoy..
at least once last time before exam ma..
Taiping, I love to stay here..
things here are cheap,
foods are nice and cheap..
people here are nice and warm..
and of course,
my lovely Family members lo~~
muaks~~ :)
Decided...
Once decided, I won't look back
won't regret for my decision
won't feel sorry for anyone else
If really it appears that I make the wrong decision,
I won't blame myself for that but I'll take up the consequences..
So..
Friend, don't blame me for my decision..
It took me time to decide
and it seems like this is the best solution among all..
that suit both U and me..
won't regret for my decision
won't feel sorry for anyone else
If really it appears that I make the wrong decision,
I won't blame myself for that but I'll take up the consequences..
So..
Friend, don't blame me for my decision..
It took me time to decide
and it seems like this is the best solution among all..
that suit both U and me..
朋友的定义~~
由始到今，我还在摸索着朋友的定义~~
我自认朋友不会少，可是真正走入我的世界的并不多~~
从小，我就羡慕姐姐可以有一个相识多年又了解她的好朋友~~
所以，我也很用心的去寻找属于我的好朋友~~
但，每每在我以为我找到的时候，就会发生些让我跌破眼镜的事~~
因为时间和距离上的关系，我很多段友情就这样没有了~~
现在，就算没有了距离和时间上的问题，
我和朋友之间还是有问题~~
我们的友情演变到真的比陌生人还要陌生~~~
算了吧！
我也不会再去勉强自己去继续这段友情了~~
一切都随缘了~~
当我狠下心要挽回的时候，
她的一举一动只会让我心灰意冷~~
好吧！既然你选择了以逃避的方式，
那我就成全你吧！
我想我以后都不会再理会她了吧！
这是我的方式~~
当朋友之间初现了问题的时候，
我曾经是过去解决，但她却……
既然她选择了一次又一次的逃避和糟蹋我的心思，
那代表着，她并不是我的朋友！！
因为，在我的定义里，朋友是不会一次又一次的伤害和糟蹋你的心思的~~
我已经给了她机会，让她选择，但她却以逃避来回应我~~
朋友，我没有多少时间陪你玩这种你逃我追的游戏~~
所以，再见啦！！
这是你希望的吧？
在你一次又一次的举动背后，是否隐藏着这个决定呢？
我自认朋友不会少，可是真正走入我的世界的并不多~~
从小，我就羡慕姐姐可以有一个相识多年又了解她的好朋友~~
所以，我也很用心的去寻找属于我的好朋友~~
但，每每在我以为我找到的时候，就会发生些让我跌破眼镜的事~~
因为时间和距离上的关系，我很多段友情就这样没有了~~
现在，就算没有了距离和时间上的问题，
我和朋友之间还是有问题~~
我们的友情演变到真的比陌生人还要陌生~~~
算了吧！
我也不会再去勉强自己去继续这段友情了~~
一切都随缘了~~
当我狠下心要挽回的时候，
她的一举一动只会让我心灰意冷~~
好吧！既然你选择了以逃避的方式，
那我就成全你吧！
我想我以后都不会再理会她了吧！
这是我的方式~~
当朋友之间初现了问题的时候，
我曾经是过去解决，但她却……
既然她选择了一次又一次的逃避和糟蹋我的心思，
那代表着，她并不是我的朋友！！
因为，在我的定义里，朋友是不会一次又一次的伤害和糟蹋你的心思的~~
我已经给了她机会，让她选择，但她却以逃避来回应我~~
朋友，我没有多少时间陪你玩这种你逃我追的游戏~~
所以，再见啦！！
这是你希望的吧？
在你一次又一次的举动背后，是否隐藏着这个决定呢？
Seeking for true friendship~~
When I was in matriculation, I already wondering about this..
Now when I'm in Uni, still, I am thinking about this also..
I dare not say that I have plenty of bad experiences about friendship..
But from what I been through,
It makes me lost confidence on it..
I have plenty of friends, but those that able to enter my heart,
very few...
Not saying that I closed up myself but for me, friends are those who can understand you without saying another words..
I am now still seeking for true friendship..
althought I already lost the confidence and people around me are telling me the same thing..
I was wondering whether the friendship can last for how long??
How long can it stand??
Without quarrels?? With all the time and distand limit??
I was once being told by one of my friend's actions,
Friendship can end without a sign..
It can start without a sign and also end without a sign..
When it come to the end, both of us are like stranger to each other..
Not informing each other about the latest news of them,
Not wishing during new year or even birthday..
Or I shall say, it appears like we never know each other..
This is the sad part of the story..
and yet, I'll never give up on seeking true friendship..
No matter how long it can stand, I'll still put hope on it..
because no matter what,I did try my best on putting effort in it..
Now when I'm in Uni, still, I am thinking about this also..
I dare not say that I have plenty of bad experiences about friendship..
But from what I been through,
It makes me lost confidence on it..
I have plenty of friends, but those that able to enter my heart,
very few...
Not saying that I closed up myself but for me, friends are those who can understand you without saying another words..
I am now still seeking for true friendship..
althought I already lost the confidence and people around me are telling me the same thing..
I was wondering whether the friendship can last for how long??
How long can it stand??
Without quarrels?? With all the time and distand limit??
I was once being told by one of my friend's actions,
Friendship can end without a sign..
It can start without a sign and also end without a sign..
When it come to the end, both of us are like stranger to each other..
Not informing each other about the latest news of them,
Not wishing during new year or even birthday..
Or I shall say, it appears like we never know each other..
This is the sad part of the story..
and yet, I'll never give up on seeking true friendship..
No matter how long it can stand, I'll still put hope on it..
because no matter what,I did try my best on putting effort in it..
20岁的生日~~
20岁的生日了……
代表着我将永远告别十几岁的日子了……
20岁的生日过得有点混……
从星期四就开始庆祝了……
一直到星期六！！！
em……这次的生日我总共吃了5次的蛋糕，
其中有四次是不同时间吃的~~
天啊！难怪我会突然间肥去~~
要感谢陪我过生日的朋友们，
也要感谢没能陪我过但依然送上祝福的朋友……
还有感谢妈妈生我养我，还有爸爸的教诲让我比别人成长得更快~~
当然不会忘记亲爱的姐姐为我炮制的美味晚餐~~
20岁的生日正式的公布了我已经是成人了吗？
不，那还要等多一年，就是21岁时咯~~
不过有点想分享的~~
其实我同时间扮演了两个角色！！
在大学里，我是最小的~~
在我认识的朋友当中，我却是最大的~~
一时之间不能适应！！
我当老大当了十几年，来到这里却变成了小妹？？
哈哈，其实这很好啊！！
让我感受一下当最小的滋味吧~~
代表着我将永远告别十几岁的日子了……
20岁的生日过得有点混……
从星期四就开始庆祝了……
一直到星期六！！！
em……这次的生日我总共吃了5次的蛋糕，
其中有四次是不同时间吃的~~
天啊！难怪我会突然间肥去~~
要感谢陪我过生日的朋友们，
也要感谢没能陪我过但依然送上祝福的朋友……
还有感谢妈妈生我养我，还有爸爸的教诲让我比别人成长得更快~~
当然不会忘记亲爱的姐姐为我炮制的美味晚餐~~
20岁的生日正式的公布了我已经是成人了吗？
不，那还要等多一年，就是21岁时咯~~
不过有点想分享的~~
其实我同时间扮演了两个角色！！
在大学里，我是最小的~~
在我认识的朋友当中，我却是最大的~~
一时之间不能适应！！
我当老大当了十几年，来到这里却变成了小妹？？
哈哈，其实这很好啊！！
让我感受一下当最小的滋味吧~~
20 years old le~~
what does it means le??
means i'm getting older le??
haha.. actually it does not mean much to me..
because i din wait for 20 years old only then become mature..
i'm already mature enough (p/s: i mean thinking la)
haha.. maybe some don't agree but still I think I mature enough in some part de~~
what I do on 23rd May 2009??
em... I spent half day in timesquare with my old buddy and another half day at my sister house at sri serdang~~
honestly, I don't really know how I spent the time..
It was like wow then is 24th May already~~
by the way, still wanna say thank you to those who spent time together with me for celebration whether on 21st, 22nd, 23rd or 24th May and also on 6th May(genting trip)..
thanks those who greeting me and wishing me, whether on friendster, facebook, blogspot, or through sms de..
thanks my sister, MeiHorng for preparing such a wonderful dinner for me..
thanks her housemates, Psykids, Grace, MeiYi and Mei for the lovely cakes,
thanks LayMei and MeiWen for the presents and cards...
and thanks lot and lot of people ar~~
and of course never forget to thank my parents for raising me up...
em.. 20 years old le, really need to think of what is the next plan lo~~
means i'm getting older le??
haha.. actually it does not mean much to me..
because i din wait for 20 years old only then become mature..
i'm already mature enough (p/s: i mean thinking la)
haha.. maybe some don't agree but still I think I mature enough in some part de~~
what I do on 23rd May 2009??
em... I spent half day in timesquare with my old buddy and another half day at my sister house at sri serdang~~
honestly, I don't really know how I spent the time..
It was like wow then is 24th May already~~
by the way, still wanna say thank you to those who spent time together with me for celebration whether on 21st, 22nd, 23rd or 24th May and also on 6th May(genting trip)..
thanks those who greeting me and wishing me, whether on friendster, facebook, blogspot, or through sms de..
thanks my sister, MeiHorng for preparing such a wonderful dinner for me..
thanks her housemates, Psykids, Grace, MeiYi and Mei for the lovely cakes,
thanks LayMei and MeiWen for the presents and cards...
and thanks lot and lot of people ar~~
and of course never forget to thank my parents for raising me up...
em.. 20 years old le, really need to think of what is the next plan lo~~
落寞心情~~
这几天都很落寞，不懂为了什么………
在房间里，就快要发霉了，也不懂得要做些什么！！
一个人，过着这种孤单寂寞的日子，真是难熬~~
我并不是害怕孤单的人，
感觉上，从小，我就不曾孤单过，一直到Matric的时候~~
当时的我，只身到马六甲去，没有朋友~~
在那儿找到的朋友却又不是自己想要的，
做人原则不一样，让我们的友情就这样结束了~~
我想，我是那时候开始习惯一个人的生活吧！！
一个人回家，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人发呆……
这种情况到了大学并没有多大的改变吧！
很多时候，我也是一个人的……
一个人在房间，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人出去，一个人回家等等……
感觉上，自己好像很独立……
可是，很多时候，我是逼不得已的让自己学会了独立~~
当中的辛酸没有人会懂，除了自己~~
很多时候，我告诉自己要坚强，不可以哭，不可以懦弱……
因为我只有一个人……
家人们都不在身边了，不想做些让他们担心的事~~
所以一切一切，我都扛下了~~
朋友曾经说过，“像你一样的独立女性是不会明白的”
当时很想告诉她说，如果可以选的话，我也希望我可以不用酱独立~~
能有个可以让我依赖的人来分担~~
家人是我可以依赖的人，可是我不想再为他们添麻烦了……
我已经长大了，有了可以独当一面的能力了！
不想白发渐渐冒出的父母为我操心，不想姐姐在烦恼她的事情时还要分神来照顾我，也不想妹妹在努力读书时为了我而忧心~~
为了这一切一切，我让自己很早就学会了独立~
是独立惯了吗？
现在无论怎样，我很自动的就武装自己，
不让人家看得出自己的懦弱……
不想让人家为我操心~~
今天的我很感性，也不懂得为什么~~
写部落格是我发泄的方法之一吧！！
也可能是因为最近在想着到底要不要留在这里过生日吧！！
回家会很累也很浪费车票钱……
可是，留在这里，就真的是自己孤孤单单的过生日了~~
也不是说完全没有朋友在这里，
只是，大家都有彼此忙碌的生活……
生日真的那么重要吗？？
也还好吧！
只是，我需要时间好好调息自己的情绪和思想了~~
在房间里，就快要发霉了，也不懂得要做些什么！！
一个人，过着这种孤单寂寞的日子，真是难熬~~
我并不是害怕孤单的人，
感觉上，从小，我就不曾孤单过，一直到Matric的时候~~
当时的我，只身到马六甲去，没有朋友~~
在那儿找到的朋友却又不是自己想要的，
做人原则不一样，让我们的友情就这样结束了~~
我想，我是那时候开始习惯一个人的生活吧！！
一个人回家，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人发呆……
这种情况到了大学并没有多大的改变吧！
很多时候，我也是一个人的……
一个人在房间，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人出去，一个人回家等等……
感觉上，自己好像很独立……
可是，很多时候，我是逼不得已的让自己学会了独立~~
当中的辛酸没有人会懂，除了自己~~
很多时候，我告诉自己要坚强，不可以哭，不可以懦弱……
因为我只有一个人……
家人们都不在身边了，不想做些让他们担心的事~~
所以一切一切，我都扛下了~~
朋友曾经说过，“像你一样的独立女性是不会明白的”
当时很想告诉她说，如果可以选的话，我也希望我可以不用酱独立~~
能有个可以让我依赖的人来分担~~
家人是我可以依赖的人，可是我不想再为他们添麻烦了……
我已经长大了，有了可以独当一面的能力了！
不想白发渐渐冒出的父母为我操心，不想姐姐在烦恼她的事情时还要分神来照顾我，也不想妹妹在努力读书时为了我而忧心~~
为了这一切一切，我让自己很早就学会了独立~
是独立惯了吗？
现在无论怎样，我很自动的就武装自己，
不让人家看得出自己的懦弱……
不想让人家为我操心~~
今天的我很感性，也不懂得为什么~~
写部落格是我发泄的方法之一吧！！
也可能是因为最近在想着到底要不要留在这里过生日吧！！
回家会很累也很浪费车票钱……
可是，留在这里，就真的是自己孤孤单单的过生日了~~
也不是说完全没有朋友在这里，
只是，大家都有彼此忙碌的生活……
生日真的那么重要吗？？
也还好吧！
只是，我需要时间好好调息自己的情绪和思想了~~
落寞的心情~~
这几天都很落寞，不懂为了什么………
在房间里，就快要发霉了，也不懂得要做些什么！！
一个人，过着这种孤单寂寞的日子，真是难熬~~
我并不是害怕孤单的人，
感觉上，从小，我就不曾孤单过，一直到Matric的时候~~
当时的我，只身到马六甲去，没有朋友~~
在那儿找到的朋友却又不是自己想要的，
做人原则不一样，让我们的友情就这样结束了~~
我想，我是那时候开始习惯一个人的生活吧！！
一个人回家，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人发呆……
这种情况到了大学并没有多大的改变吧！
很多时候，我也是一个人的……
一个人在房间，一个人吃饭，一个人冲凉，一个人出去，一个人回家等等……
感觉上，自己好像很独立……
可是，很多时候，我是逼不得已的让自己学会了独立~~
当中的辛酸没有人会懂，除了自己~~
很多时候，我告诉自己要坚强，不可以哭，不可以懦弱……
因为我只有一个人……
家人们都不在身边了，不想做些让他们担心的事~~
所以一切一切，我都扛下了~~
朋友曾经说过，“像你一样的独立女性是不会明白的”
当时很想告诉她说，如果可以选的话，我也希望我可以不用酱独立~~
能有个可以让我依赖的人来分担~~
家人是我可以依赖的人，可是我不想再为他们添麻烦了……
我已经长大了，有了可以独当一面的能力了！
不想白发渐渐冒出的父母为我操心，不想姐姐在烦恼她的事情时还要分神来照顾我，也不想妹妹在努力读书时为了我而忧心~~
为了这一切一切，我让自己很早就学会了独立~
是独立惯了吗？
现在无论怎样，我很自动的就武装自己，
不让人家看得出自己的懦弱……
不想让人家为我操心~~
今天的我很感性，也不懂得为什么~~
写部落格是我发泄的方法之一吧！！
也可能是因为最近在想着到底要不要留在这里过生日吧！！
回家会很累也很浪费车票钱……
可是，留在这里，就真的是自己孤孤单单的过生日了~~
也不是说完全没有朋友在这里，
只是，大家都有彼此忙碌的生活……
生日真的那么重要吗？？
也还好吧！
只是，我需要时间好好调息自己的情绪和思想了~~
back to school~~
Last weekend, I went back Taiping for few purposes...
The first one is to celebrate my mum birthday which fall on 17th May..
The second one is to go back to SMJK HUA LIAN..
Why going back??
Since the headmaster now don't really like us to go back..
hehe..
Actually, I went back is because of CHOIR~~~
I was once the leader of Choir and now is my sister..
When we talked in the phone, she keep telling me that they havent really ready for the competition which fall on 16th May..
So, as a sister and also as a senior of Choir..
I decided to go back and try to help them..
I took 7am rapid bus from UKM and reach perhentian kajang around 7.30am..
I waited for about half and hour then only I get into the E2 rapid bus..
That is the 1st time I took E2 bus..
since it is an express bus, so it took me about one hour to reach petaling street..
I thought I will miss the 9 o'clock bus,
but luckily, the bus havent depart and I'm able to take that bus..
after about 4 hours, I reach Taiping..
then without wasting another minutes, I rush back to SMJK Hua Lian..
when I enter the hall and listen to all my juniors singing..
I nearly fainted..
It is really a mess..
all the tempo, pitch and expression are totally out..
due to we just have another one more day to go before the competition..
I can't do much changes to them but just trying to polish up the whole song.
In the meantime, I try to apply the motivation that I learn to them..
It seems like really work..
They all change from the learn helplessness to a more motivated state..
Although they didn't manage to become the champion but the 1st runner up..
It still means a lot to me..
within few hours,
and they let me see the huge improvement..
I'm really touch and din regret for my decision..
although it is tired to rush back but it means something to me..
from what I saw,
I saw the shadow of myself..
three years before,
I was one of them..
we all fight for our dreams,
fight for the competitions..
hope to beat up convent who are damn arrogant..
we cry when we won and also cry when we lose..
In the choir team,
we all share both tears and laughters..
I'll never forget about what I been through
and it helps me a lot in facing daily uni life..
To all my juniors,
like what I said, winning and losing is not important,
the main things that you all should look through is the process..
it is the process that make you grow up, not the winning or the lossing...
never give up and fight for the best...
The first one is to celebrate my mum birthday which fall on 17th May..
The second one is to go back to SMJK HUA LIAN..
Why going back??
Since the headmaster now don't really like us to go back..
hehe..
Actually, I went back is because of CHOIR~~~
I was once the leader of Choir and now is my sister..
When we talked in the phone, she keep telling me that they havent really ready for the competition which fall on 16th May..
So, as a sister and also as a senior of Choir..
I decided to go back and try to help them..
I took 7am rapid bus from UKM and reach perhentian kajang around 7.30am..
I waited for about half and hour then only I get into the E2 rapid bus..
That is the 1st time I took E2 bus..
since it is an express bus, so it took me about one hour to reach petaling street..
I thought I will miss the 9 o'clock bus,
but luckily, the bus havent depart and I'm able to take that bus..
after about 4 hours, I reach Taiping..
then without wasting another minutes, I rush back to SMJK Hua Lian..
when I enter the hall and listen to all my juniors singing..
I nearly fainted..
It is really a mess..
all the tempo, pitch and expression are totally out..
due to we just have another one more day to go before the competition..
I can't do much changes to them but just trying to polish up the whole song.
In the meantime, I try to apply the motivation that I learn to them..
It seems like really work..
They all change from the learn helplessness to a more motivated state..
Although they didn't manage to become the champion but the 1st runner up..
It still means a lot to me..
within few hours,
and they let me see the huge improvement..
I'm really touch and din regret for my decision..
although it is tired to rush back but it means something to me..
from what I saw,
I saw the shadow of myself..
three years before,
I was one of them..
we all fight for our dreams,
fight for the competitions..
hope to beat up convent who are damn arrogant..
we cry when we won and also cry when we lose..
In the choir team,
we all share both tears and laughters..
I'll never forget about what I been through
and it helps me a lot in facing daily uni life..
To all my juniors,
like what I said, winning and losing is not important,
the main things that you all should look through is the process..
it is the process that make you grow up, not the winning or the lossing...
never give up and fight for the best...
bAcK to ScHool....
Last weekend, I went back Taiping for few purposes...
The first one is to celebrate my mum birthday which fall on 17th May..
The second one is to go back to SMJK HUA LIAN..
Why going back??
Since the headmaster now don't really like us to go back..
hehe..
Actually, I went back is because of CHOIR~~~
I was once the leader of Choir and now is my sister..
When we talked in the phone, she keep telling me that they havent really ready for the competition which fall on 16th May..
So, as a sister and also as a senior of Choir..
I decided to go back and try to help them..
I took 7am rapid bus from UKM and reach perhentian kajang around 7.30am..
I waited for about half and hour then only I get into the E2 rapid bus..
That is the 1st time I took E2 bus..
since it is an express bus, so it took me about one hour to reach petaling street..
I thought I will miss the 9 o'clock bus,
but luckily, the bus havent depart and I'm able to take that bus..
after about 4 hours, I reach Taiping..
then without wasting another minutes, I rush back to SMJK Hua Lian..
when I enter the hall and listen to all my juniors singing..
I nearly fainted..
It is really a mess..
all the tempo, pitch and expression are totally out..
due to we just have another one more day to go before the competition..
I can't do much changes to them but just trying to polish up the whole song.
In the meantime, I try to apply the motivation that I learn to them..
It seems like really work..
They all change from the learn helplessness to a more motivated state..
Although they didn't manage to become the champion but the 1st runner up..
It still means a lot to me..
within few hours,
and they let me see the huge improvement..
I'm really touch and din regret for my decision..
although it is tired to rush back but it means something to me..
from what I saw,
I saw the shadow of myself..
three years before,
I was one of them..
we all fight for our dreams,
fight for the competitions..
hope to beat up convent who are damn arrogant..
we cry when we won and also cry when we lose..
In the choir team,
we all share both tears and laughters..
I'll never forget about what I been through
and it helps me a lot in facing daily uni life..
To all my juniors,
like what I said, winning and losing is not important,
the main things that you all should look through is the process..
it is the process that make you grow up, not the winning or the lossing...
never give up and fight for the best...
The first one is to celebrate my mum birthday which fall on 17th May..
The second one is to go back to SMJK HUA LIAN..
Why going back??
Since the headmaster now don't really like us to go back..
hehe..
Actually, I went back is because of CHOIR~~~
I was once the leader of Choir and now is my sister..
When we talked in the phone, she keep telling me that they havent really ready for the competition which fall on 16th May..
So, as a sister and also as a senior of Choir..
I decided to go back and try to help them..
I took 7am rapid bus from UKM and reach perhentian kajang around 7.30am..
I waited for about half and hour then only I get into the E2 rapid bus..
That is the 1st time I took E2 bus..
since it is an express bus, so it took me about one hour to reach petaling street..
I thought I will miss the 9 o'clock bus,
but luckily, the bus havent depart and I'm able to take that bus..
after about 4 hours, I reach Taiping..
then without wasting another minutes, I rush back to SMJK Hua Lian..
when I enter the hall and listen to all my juniors singing..
I nearly fainted..
It is really a mess..
all the tempo, pitch and expression are totally out..
due to we just have another one more day to go before the competition..
I can't do much changes to them but just trying to polish up the whole song.
In the meantime, I try to apply the motivation that I learn to them..
It seems like really work..
They all change from the learn helplessness to a more motivated state..
Although they didn't manage to become the champion but the 1st runner up..
It still means a lot to me..
within few hours,
and they let me see the huge improvement..
I'm really touch and din regret for my decision..
although it is tired to rush back but it means something to me..
from what I saw,
I saw the shadow of myself..
three years before,
I was one of them..
we all fight for our dreams,
fight for the competitions..
hope to beat up convent who are damn arrogant..
we cry when we won and also cry when we lose..
In the choir team,
we all share both tears and laughters..
I'll never forget about what I been through
and it helps me a lot in facing daily uni life..
To all my juniors,
like what I said, winning and losing is not important,
the main things that you all should look through is the process..
it is the process that make you grow up, not the winning or the lossing...
never give up and fight for the best...
黑夜彩虹~~
这是我写过的一首新诗，现在看回觉得感触很大！！
同样的事情一再的发生，可心态是否一样呢？？
不意外的，我对这首新诗情有独钟，是我写过酱多新诗中，最爱的一首~~
现在就和大家分享吧！！
“
同样的事情一再的发生，可心态是否一样呢？？
不意外的，我对这首新诗情有独钟，是我写过酱多新诗中，最爱的一首~~
现在就和大家分享吧！！
“
路灯，
把我的影子拉长，
刹那间，
世界只剩下我和影子，
周遭的一切
已不再与我有关联。
静静的，
我一步步的踏出去，
踏在我成长的路上，
那途中或许有很多过客
给了我
一次次不同的
快乐、想法、感受、
及伤害…
也许过客们无心，
但听者有意！
那无心的伤害
一次次地
刺痛了我的心….
偏偏，路途中需要
过客们的存在，
否则成长也不再有意义。
一个人的路上，
除了自己没有他人
也只能硬着头皮，
扛下那伤害…
也许伤害过后，
会有意想不到彩虹
降临那独有
我和影子的世界
望着月亮，
不禁期待着那
黑夜彩虹的降临….
22/9/2007 ”
黑夜彩虹~~
这是我写过的一首新诗，当中包含了我当时的感触……
本人蛮爱这首诗的，因为它很贴切的带出了我的感想~~
纯粹想和大家分享咯！！
“
本人蛮爱这首诗的，因为它很贴切的带出了我的感想~~
纯粹想和大家分享咯！！
“
路灯，
把我的影子拉长，
刹那间，
世界只剩下我和影子，
周遭的一切
已不再与我有关联。
静静的，
我一步步的踏出去，
踏在我成长的路上，
那途中或许有很多过客
给了我
一次次不同的
快乐、想法、感受、
及伤害…
也许过客们无心，
但听者有意！
那无心的伤害
一次次地
刺痛了我的心….
偏偏，路途中需要
过客们的存在，
否则成长也不再有意义。
一个人的路上，
除了自己没有他人
也只能硬着头皮，
扛下那伤害…
也许伤害过后，
会有意想不到彩虹
降临那独有
我和影子的世界
望着月亮，
不禁期待着那
黑夜彩虹的降临….
22/9/2007”
黑夜里的彩虹是不可能出现的，就如同奇迹般…………
现在看回自己写过的诗，感触特别大~~
相同的事情又在发生了，可是心态一样吗？？
无言…………
bOr3d!!!!!
Oh my gOodnesS!!!
I rEallY goNna bE mAd !!!
tiReD bUt cAnt sLeEp..
nEw rOom iS sUcK aNd dAmn HoT~~~
I aLrEadY fInIsH 5 ePiSode DraMa iN 3 HouRs Le~~~
dUnNo whAt eLsE I cAn dO aR ~~~
gOnNa Be CrAzY D...
I rEallY goNna bE mAd !!!
tiReD bUt cAnt sLeEp..
nEw rOom iS sUcK aNd dAmn HoT~~~
I aLrEadY fInIsH 5 ePiSode DraMa iN 3 HouRs Le~~~
dUnNo whAt eLsE I cAn dO aR ~~~
gOnNa Be CrAzY D...
我的人生~~
其实，我的人生走到现在，已近二十年了！！对，是已近而不是已经！！
因为我还没有生日，还没有二十岁……
其实，回头看看，自己在经历每个阶段的时候都有不同的朋友陪我度过~~
从幼儿园谈起吧！！
幼儿园的朋友，我都不记得了……
记得的是我们一起度过很开心的两年……
大家天真无邪、无忧无虑的度过~~
可能是因为这样，所以并没有把大家的容貌给牢牢地记住！！
小学一二年级
也不记得大部分的同学了~~
只记得几个比较友好的！
那时，大家一起玩耍、一起上课，很愉快~~
可是，到了三年级因为分派到不同的班级后，大家开始疏远了~~
可能那时的我们还不懂得什么是友情吧！！
三年级，
在我记忆中，当时我并没有多少快乐的回忆~~
因为刚进精英班，压力很大~
而且还因为i考到不是很好的成绩，第一次为了成绩而哭……
其实，也不是不好，只是我不再是班上前三名了~~
小孩子并不懂得说要看全级的名次吧！！
为了成绩，我沮丧了很久！！
四五六年级，
进了李老师的班，很庆幸……
也认识了几个好朋友，大家为了成绩一起打拚~~
在这三年，也很庆幸的，自己的自信心漫漫的累积起来了！！
在那打打闹闹的三年中，我认识到了我认为的好友~~
可是，当上了初中一，一切都变了~~
由于我的UPSR的成绩并不好，所以被分派到1A4~~
我的好友们都在前面班！！
可能是因为这样，我们的友情开始面临考验~~
很不幸的，我的友情阵亡了！！
即使到现在，我们还是认识，可是就连见面都不懂要说些什么~~
第一次，我感到心痛~~
在1A4，使我在中学的日子里，最逍遥的~~
那里，我认识了很多不一样的朋友，
他们让我明白说前面班和后面班的不一样~~
他们对人对事都比较真！！
在年尾考试成绩揭晓时，我被分派到2A1……
那代表着我将会离开我的新朋友们~~
那意味着我将要再次失去朋友吗？？
到了初中二三和高中一二，
我都维持在同个班级，
至于我的新朋友们，
我们的友情大约维持了将近三年，就渐渐的淡了下来~~
就像我小学的朋友一样~~
一群朋友没了，可是又有一群新的朋友……
而这群朋友真的陪了我度过很长的一段日子，
到了现在，我们还有联络……
当我进到国民服务营地时，
也遇到了一群朋友陪我一起度过~~
一起熬过离开家人的日子、没有热水冲凉的日子、天天曝晒的日子、被罚、谈心等等……
在那里，大家都很团结、很明白说大家都是一国的~~
过了三个月，大家也分开了……
可能是一起度过“革命”，有了革命情怀，
我们依然有联络，
可能不是很熟络，可是偶尔来的一封简讯，
让我感动不已！！
至少我们没将彼此忘记~~
到了MATRIC的时候，
朋友是有啦！
可是，就已经开始变质了~~
开始有了尔虞我诈的心态了……
刚开始，我并没有发现到，
可是当我发现的时候，我无法接受~~
所以，就狠狠的一刀断了我们之间的友情！！
没了朋友，可是有了个开朗体贴的友族室友~~
她陪我度过我最难熬的日子，给我鼓励和信心！！
让我很勇敢的面对下去~~
过了MATRIC，
我们依然有联系，虽然是不同种族，我们依然友好~~
现在，进了大学……
大学第一年要结束了，来个总结吧！
大学的朋友有很多，可是真正知心的，应该就只有几个吧！！
不想把话说得太白，
希望我们的友情能一直维持下去~~
回头看了看，
自己的人生中，几乎是每个阶段都有不一样的朋友~~
而至于能不能维持，决定不在我身上~~
在我懂事以后，
就明白说要维持一段友情是不容易的，
除了要有心，也要有时机……
所以我说，我们有缘成为朋友，可是有没有份交深呢？？
一切都看天意吧~~
因为我还没有生日，还没有二十岁……
其实，回头看看，自己在经历每个阶段的时候都有不同的朋友陪我度过~~
从幼儿园谈起吧！！
幼儿园的朋友，我都不记得了……
记得的是我们一起度过很开心的两年……
大家天真无邪、无忧无虑的度过~~
可能是因为这样，所以并没有把大家的容貌给牢牢地记住！！
小学一二年级
也不记得大部分的同学了~~
只记得几个比较友好的！
那时，大家一起玩耍、一起上课，很愉快~~
可是，到了三年级因为分派到不同的班级后，大家开始疏远了~~
可能那时的我们还不懂得什么是友情吧！！
三年级，
在我记忆中，当时我并没有多少快乐的回忆~~
因为刚进精英班，压力很大~
而且还因为i考到不是很好的成绩，第一次为了成绩而哭……
其实，也不是不好，只是我不再是班上前三名了~~
小孩子并不懂得说要看全级的名次吧！！
为了成绩，我沮丧了很久！！
四五六年级，
进了李老师的班，很庆幸……
也认识了几个好朋友，大家为了成绩一起打拚~~
在这三年，也很庆幸的，自己的自信心漫漫的累积起来了！！
在那打打闹闹的三年中，我认识到了我认为的好友~~
可是，当上了初中一，一切都变了~~
由于我的UPSR的成绩并不好，所以被分派到1A4~~
我的好友们都在前面班！！
可能是因为这样，我们的友情开始面临考验~~
很不幸的，我的友情阵亡了！！
即使到现在，我们还是认识，可是就连见面都不懂要说些什么~~
第一次，我感到心痛~~
在1A4，使我在中学的日子里，最逍遥的~~
那里，我认识了很多不一样的朋友，
他们让我明白说前面班和后面班的不一样~~
他们对人对事都比较真！！
在年尾考试成绩揭晓时，我被分派到2A1……
那代表着我将会离开我的新朋友们~~
那意味着我将要再次失去朋友吗？？
到了初中二三和高中一二，
我都维持在同个班级，
至于我的新朋友们，
我们的友情大约维持了将近三年，就渐渐的淡了下来~~
就像我小学的朋友一样~~
一群朋友没了，可是又有一群新的朋友……
而这群朋友真的陪了我度过很长的一段日子，
到了现在，我们还有联络……
当我进到国民服务营地时，
也遇到了一群朋友陪我一起度过~~
一起熬过离开家人的日子、没有热水冲凉的日子、天天曝晒的日子、被罚、谈心等等……
在那里，大家都很团结、很明白说大家都是一国的~~
过了三个月，大家也分开了……
可能是一起度过“革命”，有了革命情怀，
我们依然有联络，
可能不是很熟络，可是偶尔来的一封简讯，
让我感动不已！！
至少我们没将彼此忘记~~
到了MATRIC的时候，
朋友是有啦！
可是，就已经开始变质了~~
开始有了尔虞我诈的心态了……
刚开始，我并没有发现到，
可是当我发现的时候，我无法接受~~
所以，就狠狠的一刀断了我们之间的友情！！
没了朋友，可是有了个开朗体贴的友族室友~~
她陪我度过我最难熬的日子，给我鼓励和信心！！
让我很勇敢的面对下去~~
过了MATRIC，
我们依然有联系，虽然是不同种族，我们依然友好~~
现在，进了大学……
大学第一年要结束了，来个总结吧！
大学的朋友有很多，可是真正知心的，应该就只有几个吧！！
不想把话说得太白，
希望我们的友情能一直维持下去~~
回头看了看，
自己的人生中，几乎是每个阶段都有不一样的朋友~~
而至于能不能维持，决定不在我身上~~
在我懂事以后，
就明白说要维持一段友情是不容易的，
除了要有心，也要有时机……
所以我说，我们有缘成为朋友，可是有没有份交深呢？？
一切都看天意吧~~
aWaitIng~~
I'm awaiting lots of things actually..
I'm waiting for the exam to end, waiting for the day we go Genting, waiting for the day go sister's new house, waiting for going home, waiting to settle the problems I face, waiting for the gathering we will have in KL..and waiting for surprise!!!
Life is full of surprise and we never know what is the next step..
you might plan to do this and that but sometimes life don't just go according to your plan..
If your life go according what you plan from young until old, then there is no surprise le~~
Not to say not to plan, we still need to plan our future..
Just that sometimes, some surprise really surprise us ma~~
Surprise not necessary be good all the time and not necessary be bad all the time...
but once it is a surprise, that's mean that it is not in our plan..
then this would be the interesting part la!!!
How are you going to face it??
How does the surprise affect your life??
and it make your life interesting, not so boring...
I'm waiting, for surprise in my life..
Taking psychology is a surprise, before this I never thought of this course ever..
I wanted to become a journalist and I "plan" to take Mass Communication..
Then, when the school having a career exhibition..
This trip totally change my mind..
Surprisingly, "Psychology" came into my mind out of nowhere..
It is really a sudden..
Like someone telling me that this is the course you really want, not mass com..
The funny part is I just follow my instinct and apply for this course..
All my lecturers in Matric know I'm going to apply for Psychology that time were all shock!!
They say I should apply for Medic but not Psychology..
Yes, with the results I have..
applying for Medic is not a problem..
Just that I never interested in Medic...
Life is really full of surprise,
you never try and you will never know..
If that time I didn't follow my instinct,
I'll never know that I like psychology so much..
Really love this course ar~~
and also all my lovely course mates la..
waiting for the day we go genting ar~~~
I'm waiting for the exam to end, waiting for the day we go Genting, waiting for the day go sister's new house, waiting for going home, waiting to settle the problems I face, waiting for the gathering we will have in KL..and waiting for surprise!!!
Life is full of surprise and we never know what is the next step..
you might plan to do this and that but sometimes life don't just go according to your plan..
If your life go according what you plan from young until old, then there is no surprise le~~
Not to say not to plan, we still need to plan our future..
Just that sometimes, some surprise really surprise us ma~~
Surprise not necessary be good all the time and not necessary be bad all the time...
but once it is a surprise, that's mean that it is not in our plan..
then this would be the interesting part la!!!
How are you going to face it??
How does the surprise affect your life??
and it make your life interesting, not so boring...
I'm waiting, for surprise in my life..
Taking psychology is a surprise, before this I never thought of this course ever..
I wanted to become a journalist and I "plan" to take Mass Communication..
Then, when the school having a career exhibition..
This trip totally change my mind..
Surprisingly, "Psychology" came into my mind out of nowhere..
It is really a sudden..
Like someone telling me that this is the course you really want, not mass com..
The funny part is I just follow my instinct and apply for this course..
All my lecturers in Matric know I'm going to apply for Psychology that time were all shock!!
They say I should apply for Medic but not Psychology..
Yes, with the results I have..
applying for Medic is not a problem..
Just that I never interested in Medic...
Life is really full of surprise,
you never try and you will never know..
If that time I didn't follow my instinct,
I'll never know that I like psychology so much..
Really love this course ar~~
and also all my lovely course mates la..
waiting for the day we go genting ar~~~
rEaliSed???
I just realised that what happened between us is really serious..
I know it is serious but never thought it would be that serious..
After all, I thought that we just need time to recover...
But it seems like the truth doesn't play as I wish..
No matter how hard I try,
just that I didn't receive what I wish for..
Is this really the time factor problem or it is not???
Until now, I'm still so blur about really what had happened..
although i was being told, but it is through a 3rd person..
I wonder what make the situation turn down in this situation..
Every single problem has its own causes..
The matter now is, I don't even clear about it..
Soon, this semester going to end...
Does this symbolic somethings??
At 1st, I never wanted it to end like this..
but the matter now is,
whether I been given the chance to choose or not..
It seems like a very ambiguous answer for me..
Even things back to normal, but still,
will we still feel the same??
will we still act like usual??
will we still share like normal??
Questions are running through my mind,
but without offering me any of the answers...
I know it is serious but never thought it would be that serious..
After all, I thought that we just need time to recover...
But it seems like the truth doesn't play as I wish..
No matter how hard I try,
just that I didn't receive what I wish for..
Is this really the time factor problem or it is not???
Until now, I'm still so blur about really what had happened..
although i was being told, but it is through a 3rd person..
I wonder what make the situation turn down in this situation..
Every single problem has its own causes..
The matter now is, I don't even clear about it..
Soon, this semester going to end...
Does this symbolic somethings??
At 1st, I never wanted it to end like this..
but the matter now is,
whether I been given the chance to choose or not..
It seems like a very ambiguous answer for me..
Even things back to normal, but still,
will we still feel the same??
will we still act like usual??
will we still share like normal??
Questions are running through my mind,
but without offering me any of the answers...
回顾~~
我们有缘相遇，然后因为相知相惜而慢慢成为了朋友……
在茫茫人海中，能够成为朋友是上天给予我们的缘分……
在那过程中，大家为了这段友情都付出了不少，
因为大家都很珍惜这难得的缘分~~
可是，不知何时开始，我们之间的友情开始变质了……
大家好像变得很陌生了，见面会因为没有话题而感到尴尬……
我曾经听过一句话，
当时的我并不相信,因为我认为只要有心去维持,友情并不会变质的……
但，现在我怀疑了~~
变质了的友情就像是没了味道的水……
剩下的，
只是那淡如开水的关系……
彼此之间的话题只剩下那所谓的绯闻……
其实并不想多说，可是觉得很可笑……
当初可以分享的朋友，竟然沦落到见面点头，对话不到几句的点头交……
这是象征着我们这段友情即将步入终点了吗？
我一直说服自己说，她需要更多的时间来面对……
只是，在我们不断的付出而她不断地逃避的间断，
我们累了……
不想自己的付出到后来只盛为了这段友情的牺牲品吧！
这谈不上原不原谅，因为我们早就不介意她之前的举动了……
在这大学第一年即将步入终点的片刻，
我回顾了我在这里的生活和朋友……
虽然可能不尽完美，但也很庆幸自己又找到几位可以称得上惺惺相惜的朋友……
也有一班一起努力的同学们~~
希望自己将来的两年可以过得更加得充实吧！！
在茫茫人海中，能够成为朋友是上天给予我们的缘分……
在那过程中，大家为了这段友情都付出了不少，
因为大家都很珍惜这难得的缘分~~
可是，不知何时开始，我们之间的友情开始变质了……
大家好像变得很陌生了，见面会因为没有话题而感到尴尬……
我曾经听过一句话，
“友情是不可能永恒的”
当时的我并不相信,因为我认为只要有心去维持,友情并不会变质的……
但，现在我怀疑了~~
变质了的友情就像是没了味道的水……
剩下的，
只是那淡如开水的关系……
彼此之间的话题只剩下那所谓的绯闻……
其实并不想多说，可是觉得很可笑……
当初可以分享的朋友，竟然沦落到见面点头，对话不到几句的点头交……
这是象征着我们这段友情即将步入终点了吗？
我一直说服自己说，她需要更多的时间来面对……
只是，在我们不断的付出而她不断地逃避的间断，
我们累了……
不想自己的付出到后来只盛为了这段友情的牺牲品吧！
这谈不上原不原谅，因为我们早就不介意她之前的举动了……
在这大学第一年即将步入终点的片刻，
我回顾了我在这里的生活和朋友……
虽然可能不尽完美，但也很庆幸自己又找到几位可以称得上惺惺相惜的朋友……
也有一班一起努力的同学们~~
希望自己将来的两年可以过得更加得充实吧！！
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